Andy B's NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

It was a normal night like any other… I went to sleep to my room at around 11 PM…shortly after of sleep (I do not know how long was between I went to sleep until I opened my eyes), when I opened them I knew I was death… I knew that if I were sleeping I could be waking up in the other edge…I knew I was a spirit, I felt it real…and the first thing I thought was…after all I am death!...I felt in that moment a big scare due I always wanted to die… I had never clung on life or fear the death.

When it happened I thought “Now what do I do? Where do I go?”… I did not see anything…I was just into a kind of emptiness with light…I did not see any paths…I did not see people, anything…it was when I asked God to help me to not take the wrong way…and if it was possible to send me my deceased sister to welcome me and to show me the way…According to my beliefs I was sure that our relatives or familiar people come for us and guide us where we have to go…but nothing or no one appeared…so I started to “walk alone” and just by thinking I was going to where I wanted…

All was like mental…I knew I did not have a physical body…I felt so light…However, I started feeling a thirsty sensation…and I was anguish because I did not know how long I had to “walk” and I thought “As I walk God will give me more thirst”…In that instant  I started to feel anguish for the thirsty sensation…I started feeling when…a crystal-clear water stream appeared at my feet…transparent…that I could see the bed of the stream…it had rounded stones all in the bed instead of ground…When I saw the water so clean that I knew it was fresh, in that instant the sensation of thirst disappeared…and I just thought in following that stream to see where it went.

When I thought about that like transporting with only wishing that with my mind…I arrived at the end of the stream that was very narrow and I bumped into a strong ray of light like an intense white ray…I even had to close my eyes until I was not dazzle…Before I opened my eyes I was thinking that God was that light…and while I was opening my eyes…until I could penetrate that light and… what I saw was the Virgin of Guadalupe like made of pure gold…she was shining like the light of the sun.

The starts of her layer were like light sparks…her rays were shining intensely all around…it was pure light, really beautiful!... I was standing there just looking at her for a moment until I saw her at her face for a moment…and without telling me anything…I remember that I turned down…to see what I had left in life…my fellow beings…and I saw the image of my Mother with my two sisters together…and I started analyzing them to know what could they be feeling with my death…In that time I had some issues with my Mom because she was so hard with me  and when I saw her I was telling myself: “she does not love me so I do not want to go back and live for her”…then I saw my sisters and I thought…”they are nice and they love me but I know they are going to be fine without me”…

I felt the same for my two sisters …in that moment I turned back to the Virgin of Guadalupe…I saw her face to face and she told me looking at me so tender and with a sweet voice that I had to go back because there was not my time…and I told her NO, NO, NO please I am here…and I told her “tell him (referring to God) to let me stay here, I do not want to go back, please!”…and she repeated me “you have to go back, this is not your time”…and I continued with my No, No, please!...when I started to listen like if I were moving away and the echo of the voice of the Virgin and my voice…like going away…I felt like attracted inside of a tunnel…and suddenly I opened my eyes where I was sleeping…but when I opened my eyes I was still looking at the golden light…I was like dazzle…like when someone looks at the light bulb for a long time and then looks at the darkness and stills looking a light…In this way I woke up in the semi-darkness of my room and I started to cry of the emotion.

I felt so excited…I felt a lot of peace and tranquility…and when it was getting light…my sight was more perfect, all I saw was clearer and cleaner that normal…I felt so much peace…happiness…love…I felt other person so able to forgive everything and to do not get angry for nothing…The only bad was that I forgot to see the exact date…what day was…so I could celebrate all the years of that day like---the date when I was born again.

After 3 years of the experience my Mom died…we fixed all our differences…thanks to God I had the opportunity to be okay with my Mom and to show her how much do I loved her…we forgave each other and we were in peace…and for that, I give thanks to God for the new opportunity to live that He gave me…to letting me be with my Mom and take care of her in her last days of life by my side. 

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?   No      

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?   In the moment when I opened my eyes and I knew I was dead.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:  I was conscious of everything … and my vision was perfect.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes. I saw intensely and good… all was bright and looked like was perfectly clean because of the clearness and brightness.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?  No      

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes           

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes. It was like emptiness with light … I could not see any shape, I was only in the light… but it was a normal white light.

Did you see a light? Yes. An intense and bright light. I was like a ray that blinded me because of its white brightness. 

Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes. I saw only the Virgin of Guadalupe.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Yes. I only saw my mom and my two sisters. When I looked at them I was thinking what would they will be feeling with my death…if I stayed there were I went when I had that experience.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes. I only looked at my mom and my 2 sisters. I only saw them standing together.    

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           Yes. I only saw a stream and the Virgin of Guadalupe.          

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes. The time and space does not exist there. We can be transported there only wishing it with the mind.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  Yes. After the experience I felt spiritually stronger. I felt more mature and I learnt to help people who suffer or needy, giving them consolation, counsel, etc. I shared my faith with them. And I know I had been transforming some people whom faith was not strong in them.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No. I felt the Virgin of Guadalupe did not let me to pass to the other side… she stopped me my way … and if she would had let me to continue my way, I could be death.   

Did you become aware of future events?   No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes. I have personal premonitions…things that I dream and happen after… When I have an issue I dream it before. I have an intuition very developed. When I see a known person…at the short time of knowing him/her I know how is him/her…if he/she is nice or mad… and I am often right. I have a lot of perception and strength.  

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes. I always share it to help others to make stronger their faith in God and in the Virgin…also, to help others, so they stop fearing death… and that they be less materialistic and be more spiritualists. So they believe more in God and they can make stronger their faith.

I share it too often when someone shares with me that he/she is suffering or that he/she does not know what to do with his/her life. That is the way I can help them or at least to give them consolation. 

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real. I saw it immediately after I opened my eyes.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    To see the Virgin was unforgettable, I did not expect it. I expected to see my deceased little sister… I never expected to see a Light Being.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:   Experience was definitely real. It was real since I opened my eyes in my bed and I had never doubted about what I lived… I know it was not a dream, and maybe my heart stopped working for some minutes or seconds, I do not know… I have never known how many time passed between the time I went to sleep and the time when I woke up in the spiritual world.   
 
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes. I am more quit and patient…I learnt to forgive and to be happy with what I have.  My biggest happiness is to help the needy people…I am not materialist and I am ready to die when God calls me.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  Thank you for letting me being part of this wonderful website where people like me… have the privilege to share these marvelous near death experiences and share them with all of you.

 Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes. I believe that I shared all I wanted and shared with readers of this website.

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?   I enjoyed this entire questionnaire.

I wish there could be more Websites like this one. It is complete! And full of enrichment experiences.

I wish you could make TV programs about the experiences…they are marvelous and leave us a lot of hope in a better life when we pass away from this one.

Thank you!!!