Experience description:
I was going down on the elevator at home, with my dad, headed to the hospital in order to be readmitted. The last thing I can recall is that I passed out ( fainted) and that I was falling to the floor. The next thing I saw was a vast, large room, with plain walls, that initially seemed to be very dark; but, when I watched it more carefully/thoroughly, I
thought it was all black.
There was a big distance in between the side walls, I couldn’t see any ceiling; If there was any, it seemed that it was very distant, because nothing could be noticed in that full darkness. The ground/floor had no inclination/slope, no tiles or stairs could be seen.
In front of me there was this big black door, massive and open. It had no frame or hinges and a very clear light came from there, but it reached me in a diffused way. I though this was due to the big distance to the door. I remained there for a while, thinking about my next move and started moving towards the light. I knew inside me that if I crossed that light I would never come back. I do not know how to explain this, since it never crossed my mind neither my past life nor my relatives left behind.
When reaching the door, scarcely two steps to cross it, I heard a voice that came from behind, from a long distance. And I recognized it as my mother’s voice. She was asking me to come back. Automatically, without hesitation, even unconsciously, I turned round, to the place I came from and turned around in my body
That precise moment, headed to the hospital, I woke up in the ambulance. This was a short experience for me, as if only it had taken two minutes. However, I guess that it took longer since I was already in the ambulance and accompanied by my mother, instead of my father.
After my stay in the hospital, a nurse – neighbour of mine-confirmed that I had no pulse when I fell down in the elevator and that she called the ambulance. I did not tell my experience to anybody, since I have always been pretty realistic and sceptical on these matters
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No,
I was in the hospital, but I was not any longer under medication when it happened to me.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes,
It was a weird feeling, wide – in order to explain- and my return was all of a sudden and harsh/rough; it was like if I had been thrown away from there , although I am of the impression that I got out when turning round and watching towards the tunnel.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes, I was having a heart attack
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? I remained fully alert and conscious, with no other stimuli,
thought or souvenir that would interfere with my attention about what it was going on.
Was the experience dream like in any way? Not at all; it was continuous regarding places, people and storyline/script.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Uncertain
I experimented kind of withdrawal, as if somebody had sucked me out of my body. I found myself in the tunnel. I do not think this can be considered as an extracorporeal experience / out-of-the-body experience.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? No.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Yes, I already described the tunnel or vast room. I can not define it since I could not see the ceiling.
Did you see a light? Yes, The light came from the open door, pretty intense at the beginning and reached me
in a diffused way, foggy.
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your
experience that could be verified later? No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes, Not during the NDE, but when I woke up and realised that it took longer then what I thought.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes, I did not pass the door, I got stopped just right then. I had the feeling / I was aware that if I passed the door, I would
never be back.
Did you become aware of future events? No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? Uncertain
I think I came back when I turned round and stared at the tunnel; if anything made me come back, that was my mum’s voice. She said it to me in the ambulance, but I heard her from the massive tunnel or room.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? No
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Uncertain, Now I believe that death is only a transit we have to go through and I feel less
scared than in the past. Otherwise, my ideas have not changed at all.
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? None
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes, With a university teacher of Theology who was teaching “Death in the history of religions”. I told it to him in his office
and our chat was recorded, as part of his own investigation. I did not tell anybody else.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? I was astonished, since I never believed in it. But I know that it happened to me and that this place is for real; I was there.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? There was no best or worst part.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
