To's NDE
Bitten
by Black Widow spider three times on arm.
Was
found by husband not breathing and without a pulse.
Must have only been for a brief period.
Experience
description:
In
a nutshell, I ended up having to lie on the sofa to try to breathe.
I ended up first coming OUT of my body!
It was scary for me. VERY
scary for me. The only reason I know
it happened is because, as I was lying on the sofa with my eyes closed, trying
to breathe...all of a sudden, I could see my husband standing at the kitchen
sink doing dishes and talking to our daughter who was playing in her highchair
with some kind of blue toy. As I
opened my eyes, I saw that the foot of the sofa was about 5 feet below me.
I was ready to ask my husband to call 911...but decided against it...and
then decided to pray. Note:
I hadn't "really" prayed in years.
We're talking SERIOUS backsliding here.
I fell into all kinds of bad things.
Anyway...as I began to pray...I started to spin and spin and spin.
THEN, OK, this is going to sound really whacko, but it's the truth -- you
know how people talk about going into a white light?
Well, I didn't have a "white" light, but there was a wonderful,
calming, warm, homey light that was a color I'd NEVER seen before.
The only way I can describe it is a violet/white/blue fluorescent type
color -- but it was almost like a pool of color or presence (not a tunnel,
really) that was radiating so tremendously.
I WANTED to take it in..to go to it...but I DIDN'T because I knew what it
meant. What I know it meant was
that, if I went with that light, I'd be taken from this Earth.
I cried inside and asked God to please spare me and give me a second
chance at life. That I knew my
husband and baby daughter could not stand to live without me (my husband
tragically lost his father at 14). I
knew the choice wasn't my own...which is why I prayed to the Lord to please give
me another chance. That I promised
to go back to Himm...to take him back into my heart.
To do things right this time. The point is, that experience has changed
my life forever. I'm so grateful for
it, but I'm sorry and disappointed that it took that -- something so extreme --
to make me wake up. I'm having a
very hard time not hating myself for the bad choices I've made in the past.
Note: Before I was
presented with the light/presence, I first went through a period of seeing and
feeling several strange shadows kind of wrapping themselves around me and over
me...suffocating almost. It was very
frightening. This is when I began to
beg God's forgiveness and mercy -- for I suspected that these "shadow
beings" may have meant that I would not be able to go to God -- but that
some horrible alternative would take over.
Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience:
No
Explanation:
No
medications or "substances"...just the poisonous venom of the Black
Widow spider.
Was
the experience difficult to express in words?
Yes
What
was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?
Difficult
to explain how incredible it really was. Hard
to describe the color of the light/presence I encountered...it was a color I've
never seen before. I also found it
most difficult to share my experience with someone without feeling as though the
listener might not believe me or think that I'd lost my mind or that I just had
a vivid dream. Fortunately, my
husband can vouch for me that it was real because of things I knew he was doing
while I was "out".
At
the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Uncertain
Describe:
Black
Widow spider bites can be fatal if enough venom is released into the system --
causes muscular tension/cramping which can lead to difficulty breathing and/or
suffocation.
What
was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
I
FELT as though I was in an aware state...but my husband found me not breathing
and without a pulse. I also remember
trying to remind myself to take a breath and remember having an extremely slow
heartbeat...TOO slow.
Was
the experience dream like in any way?
No
-- I mean, I knew that my body was still lying on the sofa in the living room,
but it didn't matter -- my spirit was IN the experience I was having in another
"realm" (for lack of a better term).
Did
you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?
Yes
Describe
your appearance or form apart from your body:
At
one point, during the beginning stages of my experience, I opened my eyes
because I felt like I was spinning and saw the foot of the sofa, my feet and the
fireplace on the adjoining wall all BELOW me...as if I were looking down on
everything from about 5 feet up..as if I was up toward the ceiling.
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
First
I felt relaxed..then fearful...then anxiety...then loved...then relieved..then
renewed...then welcomed...then unwillingness to join it while ending my present
life here.
Did
you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
Yes...I
haven't thought about that much, now that I think of it...but I did see my
deceased grandparents who approached me and my grandfather tried to brush my
forehead and said, "Everything's going to be fine." -- but, in
retrospect, I don't recall seeing his lips move as though he were saying the
words..but I "heard" it.
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
Uncertain
Describe:
It
wasn't a tunnel..may have been an enclosure..it definitely had depth.
I didn't really pass into it, though.
I was encountered with it...and did kind of bask in the outskirts of
it...but didn't go very far within it..only a short ways.
I know I did go into it somewhat because that's when I was faced with my
grandparents.
Did
you see a light?
Yes
Describe:
The
light, as I described earlier, was a violet/white/blue fluorescent type
color...a color I'd never seen before..no one's seen before here on Earth.
It was so incredible and radiated immensely.
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes
Describe:
As
I mentioned before, I first saw some kind of shadow beings..several of them.
I didn't know them...but actually thought they resembled (by feeling
only...I couldn't see them...they were just black silhouettes) bad men from my
past or something. I also met with
my deceased paternal grandparents briefly. I
described this earlier.
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
Yes