SW's NDE

Experience description:    

During a routine tonsillectomy, I bled out, lost pulse for 4 minutes, and turned blue. I was resuscitated. I recalled the experience of going through misty, beautiful blue veils towards a beautiful light at the end of the tunnel like place.

It was fun and I liked it, and I believed God was talking to me, and I wanted to cross over through the last veil so much but was told by the Voice that I could not, that it was too early for me. I was disappointed but knew I had to go back.

I have never been afraid of death since then.   But one thing that has plagued me is that I was told of my purpose, but I cannot remember it. I want to find that out.

This happened in the fifties. When I first read of near death experiences, I was 16 and came across a magazine article on it and felt as though I was handed a wonderful gift: others were here who knew.

I believe it has changed me in fundamental ways that are inexplicable to most people. I am highly sensitive and very attuned to the emotional and mystical content of life. I watch people running around thinking that money and objects and power over others and using people is okay, and I'm just not into that. Which has made me feel sometimes like a visitor to this world, with attendant difficulties.

After the NDE, doctors ran tests on my mental abilities and nothing was "wrong"- no brain dysfunction. This has been bemusing to me.

I have a family, I work, and I function alright, but my core being is more concerned with spirit and soul than the 3D world.

I hope this makes sense. I'm trying to not be too wordy. I'd be happy to write more about it.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  Uncertain

      Explanation:  Anesthetic. Ether, I think.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  I was very young, and while I could describe it in visual terms, describing the emotional content has always been difficult.

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Yes

      Describe:  My pulse was gone for 4 minutes...I'm not sure what you mean.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  I felt perfectly awake.

Was the experience dream like in any way?  Only insofar as the colors were indescribably beautiful.

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  Peace, serenity, curiosity, happiness, contentment, freedom.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  A Voice, but it wasn't a sound as we usually know sound. It was more like music. Sort of. I can't explain this.

 Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  Yes

      Describe:  Beautiful blues, glowing light, glimmering, misty, shimmering.

  Did you see a light?  Yes

      Describe:  It was very bright but did not hurt at all to see it. It was entrancing.

  Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  People I would meet in my life.

  Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No

  Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  Uncertain

      Describe:  I have met people in my life who I saw than. I can't explain this. 

  Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  No

  Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

      Describe:  Time as we usually know it was irrelevant.

  Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  No

  Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  Yes

      Describe:  I crossed several boundaries, but not the last one. I remember answering questions in order to cross each boundary.

Although some I went through without having to answer questions.

  Did you become aware of future events?  Yes

      Describe:  This would take a lot of space to write about, but I would say it has been very accurate.

  Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes

      Describe:  I was told I had to go back, and I was disappointed.

  Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I haven't always used them, though.

  Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I was 9, and after that, I went back to church (we went every Sunday) and wondered about everything, whereas before

I didn't really care enough to question it- and certainly not to the extent I did. I thought religion was kind of weird after  that for a long time, and was mad at it as a kid.

  Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  This would take up a terrific amount of space to write about. It affected everything.

  Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  People think it is interesting. I don't tell that many people.

  What emotions did you experience following your experience?  I felt calm and happy.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  I wish I could remember parts I forgot.

  Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes

  Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  Reiki attunements. Being in love.

  Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes

      Explain:  Good questions.

  Please offer any suggestions you have to improve the www.nderf.org questionnaire?  Ask if anyone has done any artwork depicting the NDE scene. I'd like to see those.