S's NDE

Experience description: 

      I was doing veterinary work on a horse.  The horse reared up and struck me directly with its front hoof hitting my head and face and arm, from defensive gesture.  I fractured several facial bones, detached retina, fractured radius in arm.  Was unconscious for a brief period.  My experience during this period however seemed to take much more "time" if it were to occur strictly in this physical dimension.

I found myself suddenly above my body, looking down on the whole scene.  I could see things that were outside the stall I was in even though that would have been impossible if I was seeing from where my body was.  It was like looking down like a camera that has pulled up to see an expanded view of a scene.  I became aware that there were 2 (possibly 3) "beings with me, one on either side.  They were communicating with me - directly, telepathically, just putting their input directly into my consciousness, no words and much less "time".  I knew I was somehow removed from these usual "laws" or ways of processing experience.  While I did not sense a life review on specific terms, I was shown, by understanding- not pictures or movies, many significant things in my life.  The good and the bad.  All focused on my contributions- how I handled myself.  I remember the almost palpable absence of all fear.  I was made to understand that this fear is what underlies many of our poor choices.  That there is nothing to fear.  I felt compassion toward myself like I never could imagine possible.  A type of love that I never knew.  Empathy, sympathy for all I'd experienced and a new determination to let myself live as I could and should and must.  I knew I had a clear purpose and was shown this purpose so I could understand how needed I was.  I felt no pain.  Not sure if I had a body or if my guides did, it didn't seem to matter.  I was in contact with all information- total understanding of everything.  But what I connected with was just the importance of my life purpose.  I saw the future (don't remember it) and even saw how difficult recovery would be from the accident but knew I would get through it which was all that mattered- for me to get on to do what I am meant to do.  And that I could only serve this purpose if I lost my fears- of rejection, not being liked for the stands I took, other people having control of things (only we do), etc.  And then I could act out of pure love- no complications or compromises.  Once I "understood all this" I found myself back in my body in excruciating pain.  I also had the knowledge that these guides are always there when they are needed.  They are the ultimate nurturers.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  No

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  hard to process it all.  the sense that no one could really understand unless they had gone through it themselves

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Yes

      Describe:  trauma to head and body

  What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  unconscious physically, but more alert/conscious than I had ever experienced before or since.  Like a window had been cleaned that you did not know was dirty until you saw the difference.

Was the experience dream like in any way?  not at all

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Yes

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  I did not notice but seemed to know it was different- I didn't care.  It didn't matter.  It seemed natural and familiar.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  pure love.  empathy.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  no

  Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  No

  Did you see a light?  No

  Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  They sat to either side of me.  Yes, I felt that I have always known them- felt connected in a deep way to them.  Understanding, love, special ness of my being and my purpose.  What I needed to do- not let fear creep back into my life so that it interfered with my acting out of pure love and doing what I am here to do.

  Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  Yes

      Describe:  Not a literal review but a review of feelings- good and bad.  Yes, about how much fear is at the core of our mistakes.  Yes, I can better recognize when that fear just starts to creep back in.  I do a "self check" and make sometimes difficult decisions in order to remain true to my true being and act out of honesty and love, even when it causes problems.

  Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  Yes

      Describe:  I could see how the structure of the building was put together which you could not notice without great effort from down below.  I went back much later and verified that this was real. 

  Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  Uncertain

      Describe:  Not spatially but this pure love permeates in such a way it almost seems like its own level or dimension.

  Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

      Describe:  There is no way that I could receive this much information in the amount of time that had passed for my body.  I felt somehow "expanded" but can't really explain that in words.

  Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  Yes

      Describe:  About the fear and that each of us has a purpose that is as critical as everyone else's- there are no "small or insignificant" lives- we are all connected.  Like having a small role in a play- it might not be as noticeable as the lead but the play as a whole needs every player to do their specific and equally critical role.

  Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  No

  Did you become aware of future events?  Yes

      Describe:  I can't remember the specifics but when some thing happen today- especially when meeting certain people I get a feeling that this is part of one of the things that I saw.

  Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes

      Describe:  Yes, just that I had a renewed purpose and commitment to do what I am meant to do- to get on with it.

  Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  Electric feeling, like a low grade buzz in my hands when I work with patients and also interacting with people.  It is hard for someone to misrepresent what they are all about with me- I can sense "good, love based people from bad, fear based ones" that are out to harm.  Some precognition but of feelings, not specific details of events.

  Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  Yes, this sense of oneness.  Of purpose much bigger than the here and now.  Spiritual identity.  I feel like a spiritual being who is on a human mission.

  Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  I notice people.  I help whenever I can.  Even if it just means to tell a stranger they look nice.  I am much more understanding in relationships- I know that we all have these missions and we all struggle so I can let go of others' hurtful actions toward me easier since I know they have just not connected to the love and are "lost" and are acting out of what is left which is fear.

  Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  Yes, very carefully.  No one in my family knows.  So, I tend to tell those few people who seem ready to hear this stuff.  They tell me that they see little events in their lives differently- loss of loved ones, struggles, etc.

  What emotions did you experience following your experience?  All of them.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  Getting this "wake up call" to my being.  Finding the security from knowing all these things.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  no

  Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I formed a nonprofit organization to try to help change the veterinary health care system.  Much more responsibility- no excuses.  No longer look for approval from others.  Just work to stay on honest purpose filled path.

  Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No

  Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes