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Susan S Probable NDE 6298
One day when I was about 11 or 12 (this is my best estimate of my age at the time) I was swimming alone in our pool. It was a lovely day and I loved to swim underwater - I was a good and confident swimmer and could hold my breath for well over a minute while swimming. I was taking deep breaths, letting out some air and just floating down to the bottom of the pool where I would lie in the warmth and silence until a lack of air pushed me up to get a breath. I would take another and do the same, over and over. I don't know how long I had been doing this when suddenly I found myself in a tunnel. This was not a tunnel of concrete or bricks, but of light and energy and I was surrounded by light and love and warmth. It was incredibly bright, so bright I should have had to squint, but I didn't have to and the warm golden white light surrounded me. The tunnel had boundaries - kind of like being is a loose wide stocking or cocoon, the edges were soft and invisible maybe like a 'curtain' between me and what was on the other side. When I say 'I' I don't mean my body, just my mind/spirit/consciousness was in that tunnel of incredible brightness.
I had no form, I was just 'me'. I was surrounded also by sound, the most beautiful sounds and melodies you have never heard. How can you describe the sound a guitar or a piano makes to someone who has never heard one? impossible! And its impossible to describe the incredible beauty of this music, kind of like high chiming bells and kind of like high sweet pure voices, but actually neither of them. And there were bright pinpoints of light in the brightness, like mini stars floating around, kind of like the stars you see on the inside of your eyelids when you press on them in a dark room, only I was bathed in total energetic brilliance and there were still stars moving and floating. they were both in the tunnel with me and I was aware of them on the outside of the tunnel also, on the other side of the curtain. I could not see them, but I was aware they were there. And there was no fear in this experience and of being in this place.
I was totally wrapped in incredible peace, indescribable love and joy and acceptance and welcoming, like they were all waiting there for me. I didn't know who 'they' were, but I felt they were all related to me, my family, ancestors, people who were no longer living, but they all loved me and were waiting for me. It was like bathing dry in a sea of love and happiness and golden light and incredible music. An as I progressed through the tunnel - it was neither up nor down, nor sideways, simply along, I was greeted by these unseen beings, the essences of these beings on the other side of the curtain tunnel by waves of joy and love and welcome coming to me and flowing through me. I felt completely at peace and like I was 'coming home'.
After a while, I heard the voice of my grandmother. Her words were lovingly spoken into my mind, or rather their essence and meaning just appeared inside me and I understood them. The words said - "you can choose to come with me if you wish, but it is not your time yet" in my mind or vision, I remembered my mother and my family, and I saw my body lying on the bottom of the pool. This was something I both saw like a vision of looking down on something - maybe like a photo and also something that was just a feeling/emotional vision/knowledge within me. I don't remember making a conscious decision to come back, but I remember knowing how upset my mother would be if I left her.
Instantly, I was back inside my body feeling my lungs burning for air, and my body automatically pushing me up out of the water for a breath.
It was many years till I told anyone about this event as I thought my parents would be very upset about what I had been doing and ban me from swimming!
One thing I was not able to comprehend for many years was the presence of my grandmothers spirit in the experience with me as at the time she was alive and well and living about 2000klm away from us
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes there are no words to express what it is like
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes i was in the situation of nearly drowning
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? the whole time was very high level of consciousness - the time period before and after and what I was doing are hard to remember, just like fuzzy childhood memories, but the experience itself is very clear
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal the way in which I sensed everything was different - heightened, more total and not from the eyes, ears, touch kind of sensing more like the absorbing everything into your consciousness, like a super-awareness
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? there was not much to see in terms of individual objects or 'things' but the brightness was incredible, it was more like seeing energy in different forms of density which is what created the difference in colors - gold as opposed to white light (maybe) Its really hard to describe
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? super heightened and sensitized to the beautiful sounds/melodies. Its possible that I / we as people would not be able to hear this sound in our normal life - maybe that's why its so impossible to describe the beauty of it
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes i saw my body lying on the bottom of the pool - like I was high above it looking down or like looking at a photo of the scene from above. Apart from this there were no other people around at the time
What emotions did you feel during the experience? intense joy and happiness, incredible peace at being in that place. being flowed over and filled by love of and for me, I was overwhelmed by the beauty of the music I could hear
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Yes as described
Did you see a light? Yes as described
Did you meet or see any other beings? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin as already described, many beings filled with love for me and my grandmother who was my guardian in that place to ensure I was not scared and was given the choice to stay/return
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm as described
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning there was no time, everything happened in sequence and also all at once, I cant compare the time in the tunnel to real time - it seemed that the experience took a long time but in reality or in compared to my body lying on the bottom of the pool, it must have been not more than 30 seconds to a minute maximum - or I would have drowned
Did you seem to understand everything? No i did not experience a knowing of anything other than what was happening at the time in the tunnel. I experienced a feeling of knowing the beings and essences that were around me without knowing specifically who they were - kind of like being at a huge loving family reunion without having ever met anyone before
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes the 'walls' of the tunnel were a kind of barrier but no gates or anything like that
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to "return" to life as described
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information/awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? No only the information that it was not yet my time to go there, which I later interpreted as meaning, I had not done whatever it was that I had come here to do
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information/awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information/awareness regarding love? Yes i was surrounded, bathed, enveloped in deep, joyous, peaceful, unconditional love - once again - very hard if not impossible to describe
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge or purpose? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience other memories of that time are hazy and sporadic. this one remains very clear
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience? I do not believe that "God" as in the bible or other religions exists. I do not agree with religions other than them being a way for man to either interpret his relationship to god and/or control other men. I believe there is a 'God' in the form of a higher energy from which everything is ultimately created and evolves from at its very energetic essence
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Yes i was no longer afraid of dying - particularly dying from drowning
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain i have a certain amount of intuition that seems to be over and above what other people I know commonly experience, acknowledge or are guided by. This may (or may not) be a result of being aware that there is far more surrounding us than what we have just see, hear, touch taste, smell and when I have an image, intuition or suggestion appear in my consciousness about something, I'm more likely to follow it that disregard it as impossible knowledge
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? it was a very peaceful and loving experience. It left me in no doubt that there is life after we die and that it is beautiful
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes years - maybe 5 or 6
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain not that I remember, we were not religious and even the bible stories about heaven etc were kind of abstract for me. I don't recall being aware of knowing about anyone who had died and come back to life
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real i was frightened to tell anyone about it (i.e. my parents) even though the experience was not frightening. I did not think it was not real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time? Experience was definitely real very real, the vividness of it remains today I think NDE is becoming more widely known about but it is not something I would tell just anyone as they might think I was nuts or making it up
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain too young to answer that when it happened
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your Experience? Uncertain maybe been formed - I am non religious but see the beauty in the essence of many religions. Generally they value peace and love and tolerance and if we all did this the world would be a far better place. I see spirituality as something that starts within ourselves and we should all find what is meaningful to us. Meditation and looking inwards definitely can assist in getting in touch with that other realm. Its amazing how much space there is inside a human body - the spirit is endless
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? not the tunnel, but the experience of my grandmothers spirit coming to me - in a near car crash - and NDE of another kind! - I felt my grandmothers spirit around me and a pair of hands holding my hands holding the steering wheel of my car to guide it past what seemed to be an impossible situation intact. I have no conscious memory of these seconds other than the love and guidance of her spirit. Once again I guess I still had stuff to do! thanks about it
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? thanks about it
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes