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Lawrence Hall NDE 6303
On or about Jan 31, 1977 I started feeling flu-like symptoms ( fever, chills and general weakness and fatigue) Over the next few days, I became worse and was perscribed antibiotics. However, I continued to have a high fever and was transferred by ambulance to the University of Alberta Hospital with great difficulty breathing. I was immediately tranferred to the ICU and put on life support. I recall several medical procedures being performed (insertion of breathing tubes, IVs. bone marrow biopsy, renal biopsy, blood gas monitoring every 15 minutes, chest x-rays, nuclear tracing) On Feb.12, at 9:42p.m. I `straight-lined``.
What followed in the next 2-3 minutes was very dramatic and profound, as well as life altering! I felt like I was floating in space (saw vivid colors of the universe like floating gases)Then , I was drawn to a very bright and peaceful light.It felt like I was on an escalater, moving upward without moving a muscle. When I reached the top, the light disappeared and I was in darkness. Immediately a voice called my name. I turned to the right but saw nothing. A voice called my name for the second time. I turned 180 degrees to the left.
Standing there, on a slightly elevated stage were my Grandfather and my Uncle (both of whom had died) My Grandfather asked me if I knew who they were, and I replied `yes`. He smiled and said they wanted me to come with them. I thought about my wife and baby daughter and told them that I could not and that I must go back! `The choice is your`s`, he said. He reached out and shook my hand and said Take Care`. The handshake felt very warm and full of energy. I recall waking up in the ICU and thinking that everything was going to be okay.In fact, it was the best feeling I have ever experienced.
Within 3 weeks I was discharged from the hospital and after several tests to satisfy the medical personnel at Transport Canada, I returned to work as an Air Traffic Controller in July, 1977.
One of the most interesting aspects was the morning I was discharged. The ICU doctor came into my room and placed my chart on my bed. Without saying a word, he continued to the window where he stood watching an airplane depart the airport.
He then turned to me and asked `Do you believe in God´´
Coming from a medical, scientific mind, I was surprised. I told him yes.
That is good he said, I have been working in the ICU for over 20 years and there is no way that you should be alive! Someone gave you a second chance and you better make the best of it!
That statement changed my life! I do not know if I have made the best of it and sometimes I wish I had gone with my Grandfather the first time.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes severe viral infection (virus never isolated or identified) led to cardio-pulmonary and renal failure, resulting in death.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When my Grandfather shook my hand
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal warm pure energy (pure love)I have never felt that euphoric feeling before or since
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? More positive and reassuring. I used to avoid talking about death, but now I am at peace with it. As far as physical vision I noticed no changes
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? No changes noted
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Happiness , peace, love,
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Yes dark all around except for the light. I felt like asending to wards the light as if I was on an escalator
Did you see a light? Yes warm inviting light. Normally, my eyes are very sensitive to bright lights, but this light did not hurt my eyes
Did you meet or see any other beings? I heard a voice I could not identify A voice called my name twice. I did not regonize the voice until I turned around and saw my Grandfather
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Did you seem to understand everything? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to "return" to life I was given a choice to return. I was 24 years old and was married with a baby daughter. I wanted to return to them.
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information/awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information/awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information/awareness regarding love? Yes I felt it in the light, and especially in my grandfather`s touch
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge or purpose? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience? Human qualities of greed ang vanity became irrelevant. I try everyday to be a good person and I look forward in a positive way to going `home`again!
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Yes greed and vanity were no longer of any value in my life
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? seeing my grandfather and talking to him
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes never discussed it with anyone for about 5 years. Talked to my Grandmother about seeing grandpa ang we both cried
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I should have died like the doctor told me, but I knew I was given a choice. I became somewhat introverted, as I had to search for answers and my truth
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time? Experience was definitely real Have read extensively on nde`s and the afterlife and I am convinced my experience was real and valid. I could never have fictionized such an amazing experience
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I do not like or associate with phoney people who are geedy and full of vanity. I have also become withdrawn and am definitly not an extrovert. However, I try to be on good terms with most people
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your Experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? scenes in the movies `GHOST`and DRAGONFLY`have come very close to my experience When my wife was dying, I held her and told her to go to thr light and everything would be okay. She died peacefully in my arms. My experience helped her to go home
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? When my wife was dying, I held her and told her to go to thr light and everything would be okay. She died peacefully in my arms. My experience helped her to go home
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes