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Evan B NDE 6289
Just prior to the experience, I was about to have sexual intercourse, when I had a seizure. I became dizzy and laid down, and closed my eyes.
At first what I saw looked like the snow on a TV, but I was kind of sucked in closer and closer and it looked more like atoms, and even closer, electrons and protons, and eventually what I was seeing looked exactly the same as a depiction of String Theory. At that point I was being sucked into the universe, which from my point of view, was within, inside me. Everything in the universe was me and I felt every atom, every particle. Consciousness was universal, and as I was alive I had been disconnected from the universal consciousness. Something happened to time which I cannot describe.
Then I heard the voice, from within. It/I/We said "This is peace, this is love, this truth. You know what this is. You have been here before. You will be here again. Accept it, and let yourself enter it. It is time to come back." It wasn't necessarily verbal communication, but more of another sense, one that we do not have when we are alive. In this experience I saw that this life, is extremely short, it is not even a second.
Life and Death had new meanings. Life was suffering, and Death was pure pleasure. I did not want to come back to life, I was afraid of it, like someone is afraid of death. But I despised life, it was removed from the truth and the love and the peace, and pleasure. Life meant Death to me. And Death meant everything good. But someone saved me, and I was brought back, and it was painful, and it felt foreign, sharp, unkind, and jolting.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes Yes, I am a scientific person, so I describe it in scientific terms. A religious person would describe the things I experienced in religious terms. For example I think the voice would be recognized as god, and the atomic particles may be recognized as angels.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Uncertain I had a seizure. I had never had one, and that is the only time I ever had.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I heard the voice, and accepted death
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal All senses morphed into a supreme sense, one that could knew the other dimensions
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? It was morphed into another sense, one that knew the other dimensions
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? It also was morphed into another sense, one that knew the other dimensions
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? true love, true wisdom, true pleasure
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Yes If we had a better vocabulary, I wouldn't describe it as a tunnel. But that is the closest word we have for it.
Did you see a light? No
Did you meet or see any other beings? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin It was the voice of the universe, my voice, because I was the universe.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? Yes Memory of life became compressed to a millisecond.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm It was familiar, but not "mystical or unearthly". It made sense.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Something happened to time that I cannot describe
Did you seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I was the universe
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was "sent back" against my will I was sent back against my will
Did scenes from the future come to you? No There was not past, future or present
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information/awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? No Only death has real meaning
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information/awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? Yes life is suffering
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information/awareness regarding love? Yes death is love
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge or purpose? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes Extremely good intuition
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Death is good
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes I shared it years later. The reaction was understanding
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time? Experience was definitely real
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your Experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? No The word "god" does not work