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Carole M NDE 6308

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I had been in the hospital bed with medications in an IV for my heart failure and got a horrible leg cramp in my right leg which was the most painful I had ever experienced and asked to stand up. My daughter was in the room at the time it was 1:00 am but I didn't know that at the time, she got me up and as I stood at the head of the bed and tried to put my foot down that was the last thing I remembered. The next experience was hearing a lot of people in the room yelling "Carole get up, come back to us, open your eyes"

I remember I was looking at myself in that bed and saw my body lying there limp as a doll, my arms and legs in weird position and kept hearing the voices calling to me then I saw myself sitting up looking at all these nurses and people in front of me and I remember distinctly seeing this young nurse who had been taking care of me and I glanced over the other people then saw a young man who had taken me earlier into another room for a cardiogram then as I was looking at them I saw a grayish light pass over each one of them and then I saw myself lying down again but suddenly heard a voice in my head say do you want to live or die and it was so peaceful and the voice was so calm and for a second or so, I guess I almost said to die but I kept hearing those nurses, etc yelling open your eyes, " Carole come back to us, open your eyes" and in that second I decided what I wanted and I said yes I want to live, at that moment I opened my eyes and everyone was there as I had seen in my out of body state and they were all excited and that was the experience I had.

After that I could never forget everything that happened and never will. And I knew it had happened because that nurse who I recognized came right over to me and said we were so afraid we were going to break your ribs because you are so fragile and then I knew for sure what had occurred and they took x-rays and had not broken my ribs. thank god

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Uncertain I was in the hospital for congestive heart failure

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? don't know for sure but heard them screaming at me and heard the voice asking me what I wanted to do

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I was hearing real voices besides the one that got me out of the experience and cant explain it. my heart had stopped and I had no pulse

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? I saw those nurses and could see all their faces, no blurring and usually because I have a cataract in one eye I cannot see that well

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? nothing was different

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes I stated that above. I saw those nurses and recognized 2 of them and I heard that voice that asked me about living or dying. I heard all the nurses voices the whole time telling me to come back to them and open my eyes

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peaceful, calm and happy

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No

Did you see a light? Uncertain No unearthly and I didn't go up in it. The light was a grayish light but bright and it was on all the nurses faces

Did you meet or see any other beings? I heard a voice I could not identify

Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Did you seem to understand everything? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to "return" to life I had just lost my daughter- law to cancer 3 weeks before I ended up in the hospital and I felt so awful for my son and was trying to understand why I got asked that decision to live or die

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information/awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information/awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information/awareness regarding love? No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge or purpose? Uncertain I tried to understand what possible meaning could there have been for me to have been allowed to come back and not my sons wife who had crashed as well lived for a few hours more and than died.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I had just gone through hell so to speak with the congestive heart failure disease and had suffered a lot with the hospital treatments and recall it all but this was like I remembered every second and was in the seconds or minutes as my life had actually stopped.

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience? I believe there is a reason that we are here and I am hoping I will find that reason and do whatever good i can in this life and be more grateful for every moment

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Yes i am no longer a cynic on anything I believe anything is possible and will never judge people again.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Hearing those nurses voices emotionally begging me to come back and then that unearthly voice giving me that decision will stay with me forever.

Have you shared this experience with others? Yes Right away I told every in the hospital including the Chaplain who came to visit me I related the whole story to anyone who would listen. When I left the hospital and went to a Rehab I told everyone there as well. Some believed me and seemed to get excited about it but some who w

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No I never believed what I had heard

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I viewed it as a miracle and almost impossible to believe. I still recall every moment and always will

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time? Experience was definitely real I went through something that I thought never existed and I saw myself looking at people and at me and still marvel at the thought that it actually happened to me. It was real and no one can ever tell me different. I was there in and out of my body but it was quite different from what I had ever heard and that was what made it so impossible to comprehend.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain I am confused by people now in how they view things that I may have viewed in the same way before but its been a little difficult to be the same as I was in terms of what I believe in now and how I feel guilty that I had this comeback and others haven't. I do feel a lot of survivor guilt because of the proximity of my sons wife's death and my experience.

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your Experience? Yes My spiritual practices are even more heightened and I def in it ley believe in higher beings out there

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? Only that I was blessed and grateful and am still in the wonderment of it and that I was chosen to experience it. still cant believe it but know it did

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? Only that I was blessed and grateful and am still in the wonderment of it and that I was chosen to experience it. still cant believe it but know it did

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes