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Anne N NDE 6305
Edited for clarity by Judy Shea 7/1/12
I was in a drug-induced coma, on a respirator and life support, after a pulmonary hemorrhage caused by severe lupus. I also had organ (kidney) failure and traumatic brain injury due to oxygen deprivation. I was not expected to live, but I came back completely healed from my lupus after my NDE. I have been totally well since, with no trace of Lupus since 2005. I was sent back well! I may have been clinically dead, as I had no brain function according to a scan. I was not expected to live and when I was disconnected from the respirator, I was suddenly in a dimly-lit room by myself. I noticed, in particular,
that this room had a door, which I felt was special in some way. Then I became
aware that I was no longer alone. God was there! I felt God as an
all-encompassing presence - complete total and unconditional love in its highest
form! Even though I saw no figure, there was no doubt in my mind that this
was God. Then He spoke, and it was with such compassion: He said, "Are you too
tired?" I knew that He was asking me if I was too tired to go through that door,
and that through that door would be my death. I do not recall my answer,
whether God sent me back, or if I made the decision, but I do know I was given a
choice. So it must have been my choice to come back. Miraculously, God sent me
back WELL!!. After many years of severe suffering with the pain and illness of
lupus, when I came back, my lupus was completely gone! Since my NDE, all tests
for lupus come up clear! This has been true every single day since my NDE.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes. I had lupus and was in a severe flare up. I did not feel well after work, so I went to The E.R. When I was with the nurse, I suffered a pulmonary hemorrhage and was coughing up blood when I choked and then couldn't breathe. The last thing I said was, "I can't breathe, please help me." Then I passed out. They took me to the ICU and put me in a drug-induced coma to help get oxygen in me. My brain swelled and showed no function due to oxygen deprivation. Later I was diagnosed with traumatic brain injury and possible stroke. I also had kidney failure. The gave me dialysis, plasmapheresis and chemo. I was not expected to live. My family even gave away my pets. But while I was unconscious I had a NDE and when they took me off the respirator I surprised everyone by sitting up and talking - even with the tracheotomy tube still in my throat. I have had no trace of lupus since my NDE and am well now, although I did need a lot of rehab for the brain damage.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? While I was with God. I still recall it very vividly.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I was surrounded by the unconditional love of God, and it was so much greater than human love. I was given the sure knowledge that God is real, and loves me unconditionally.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? The difference was being given the sure knowledge that God really exists and loves me unconditionally, and that I was given a choice about my death.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? God's voice when He spoke was so full of love and tenderness. I knew that it was God speaking to me.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Uncertain. I regard meeting God and hearing His voice as an unearthly event.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Great joy and love.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No
Did you see a light? No
Did you meet or see any other beings? I encountered "a definite being," and "a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin." I met God and He spoke to me. He surrounded me with love and gave me a choice to go with Him to death or not.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Did you seem to understand everything? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes. There was a door that was closed in the room that I was in. I knew that it was the door to death and if I went through it, with God, I would die. It never opened and I did not go through it. God asked me if I was "too tired" I knew that was His way of giving me the choice of going with Him, to my death.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No. There was a door to death but I did not go through it. I recall I had been worrying about my pets when I was in the coma, and wanted to get home to care for them. I did not know they had already been given away when I had not been expected to live. I am not sure if that might have been a small part of the reason I wished to go back. It could have been a factor in my decision, as I loved my cats and wanted to make sure they were all right.
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information/awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information/awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information/awareness regarding love? Yes. Just the knowledge that God is Love.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge or purpose? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. It continues to be a very clear memory
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience? I have a greater connection with God and enjoy my spiritual life very much.
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The most meaningful part is the knowledge given to me that God exists and is real, and that He is love.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes. A few friends only.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes. I had read the Moody book.
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I knew it was real, and still do. One proof to me is that God sent me back well.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time? Experience was definitely real. I knew it was real, and still do. One proof to me is that God sent me back well.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your Experience? Yes. I spend more time with God, and in prayer and meditation, and I enjoy this time very much now.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? Sometimes I experience "The peace of God that passes all understanding." I received many miracles of healing from God, so I know that God still works miracles today, both for me and for others.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I received many miracles of healing from God, so I know that God still works miracles today, both for me and for others.
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes