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Alison M Near Death Experience

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I was working as a housekeeper for an agency and was heading out in the morning with a new trainee. We were taking a major highway to get to our location faster. It was a warm clear sunny day and traffic was moderate for 9 in the morning on a weekday. 

I was driving in the far left lane (fast lane) when my trainee screamed "look out!". Upon a quick glance to my right I saw a mini-van in the middle lane coming into our lane, parallel to my vehicle. If I did not move our cars would collide. In an effort to avoid collision I began to straddle the median strip and the road.  

The median had very uneven ground due to large clumps of dried mud and crumpled pavement and it made my vehicle immediately hard to control. My steering wheel jerked out of my hands and the vehicle fish-tailed across three lanes of traffic straight into a semi. My car hit just in front of the rear tire well and my small compact car was stuck under the frame of the trailer. 

At the point of impact it was like everything froze. Almost like someone hit a pause button. I remember looking at the cracked windshield and looking over to my passenger who had a look of horror on his face. I then looked out my side window and remember thinking "I'm going to die now" right before hearing an awful screech. (the metal of the car dislodging before the semi's tires spit me out back across traffic end over end. 

At the time I had this thought It felt like large hands were laid on both my shoulders from behind, almost in a comforting manner, and I felt the most amazing sense of peace come over me. I knew I was at the end and I was okay with it. I didn't have flash backs or really any time to think of what I was leaving behind. I let out the most relaxed sigh of my life and it was like I slipped out of myself into a comforting darkness. I still tell people to this day that it was the most peaceful moment of my life.  

When I awoke I was in a hospital bed. Apparently the car flipped multiple times and landed back in the median strip. The semi had caused the whole thing by just not checking his blind spot before coming over into the mini-vans lane. The end resulted in a gaping head wound in my left temple area where I had been scalped by glass when my had went through the window and hit pavement multiple times. It was a miracle I wasn't dead AND my passenger made it through with only a couple scratches.  

When I think back on the experience I know I didn't just black out. I have a nagging memory of having a conversation with a spiritual being and its almost like I wasn't allowed to remember it. It frustrates me still to this day because inside of myself I know the simple memory of it would rock my world.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     The feelings.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     The front of my head smashed through the car window, virtually scalping me in my left temple area with multiple impacts in the same area as my car flipped on the highway.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    At the point of impact with the semi truck

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            At the point of impact with the semi truck

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  No      

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            No      

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Peace. A sense of comfortable coziness that just makes you feel joy and knowledge that everything was going to be ok no matter what happens.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain      I feel that I am not allowed to remember

Did you see a light?           Uncertain      I feel like I am not allowed to remember what occurred when I left "life"...or that's the best way to describe it

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     I know I met someone, but once again I feel like I am not allowed to remember

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes     I feel I went somewhere and spoke with someone but its like I am not allowed to remember.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Uncertain     

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes     I know I was told something but am not allowed to remember

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     It was about a year or so before I started to vaguely describe my experience. I was afraid they wouldn't believe me. I also was afraid to believe myself. I had head trauma...so for a while I wanted to heal or see if I had any lost details of the accident come back to me. I wanted to wait till I was completely well again before I spoke of what happened. I didn't want anyone to pass this experience off as brain swelling or some other excuse. This is the first time I have gone into full detail.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     I had always heard of NDE on talk shows, but they always involved out of body experiences and tunnels with a white light...I didn't experience any of that.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was probably real    I was afraid to view it as real. I had head trauma and I didn't want to find out that what I thought was real was only due to a chemical reaction in my brain or some other medical explanation.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            When I was sure my life was over and instead of pain or fear I felt a presence of protection and great peace.....that stays with me. Especially since I work in hospice care. I have great faith in what these patients of mine will experience. I no longer fear the journey that awaits us all.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real            Almost ten years have gone by and not one detail of the experience has diminished or changed.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           No      

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     It made me realize that there HAS to be more after death

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No                  

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes