William Si's NDE
2. Q & A Addendum Response
3. Dialog with William
4. What about a Soldier -
"How does God/The Creator view someone that has to kill for their country?"
The first part of my experience, the part of leaving my body, that is pretty much the same as in all the books and lectures that I have attended and read. However, during the course of my NDE, what I "felt" and "understood" during the passage through the tunnel or shaft of light that I was in was quite extraordinary. Passing through this area, which seemed as if it could be endless, yet wasn't, I could sense those spirits that were in the shadows, I understood why they wouldn't look into the light, mostly because of the religious indoctrination that had lived by on earth, they felt they were not worthy to look into the light because of actions they had done in the human existence.
As I passed through the tunnel, I came to the end and saw the most beautiful garden ever. I have to interject here, I had been here two times before as this was my third NDE. All that I experienced on that side, all that I remember, I could not include here, it would take to much typing to put it all in. The one thing I can say is this, what I went through, changed my life, changed my perceptions about life and what life is all about to such a degree that many people that I have been in contact with, it has also raised doubts and questions they have about their own beliefs.
I'm not afraid of death or dying. I don't even care how I die. I have a promise made to me by my Heavenly Father, the moment my mission in this existence is over, I will leave immediately and I don't care how I go out. I just want to go home.
kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes, it is very difficult to express as there is nothing on this earth that can
compare to the beauty and wonder of the realm beyond this one.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? With having had 3 NDE’s, the first one was not associated with a life threatening condition, although it did become so due to an unknown reaction to the anesthesia during the surgery in combination with an unknown heart murmur. The second and the third were associated with a life threatening condition. The second was caused by cardiac arrest and I was clinically dead for 15 minutes. The third was from a ruptured appendix, and two days after surgery my body temperature was last recorded at 85 degrees and my organs were beginning to shut down in preparation for my body to die.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I would have to say this occurred about halfway through my last NDE. My last NDE was not one single trip but actually 7 trips. I would leave my body, not only to escape the tremendous pain I was in, but to also to continue those things that I was being instructed in on the other side. It was during the 3 or 4 trip when I was taken in a room that had a large wheel on the floor, at the end of each spoke of the wheel stood a pillar. The wheel had 12 spokes and subsequently there were 12 pillars at the end of each spoke. Each pillar also contained 12 crystals and 12 symbols. Of the symbols on each of the pillars, they were not read as a column, but each symbol created a type of ring with all the other pillars. The first symbol on one pillar was related to the first on the next and so on. Some of these symbols were representative of the astrological star constellations of the zodiac. Others pertained to symbols that I would become familiar with as time progressed and I would know them when they appeared. During this time, I was surrounding by those I call the ancient ones, which each stood on spoke and placed their left hand on a pillar and their right hand upon my head. I have been asked several times who the “ancient ones” are/ or were. I can testify to you, the “ancient ones” are not so much in accordance to their earthly age, but to their eternal celestial age.
ones, are men and women that had been chosen, from the beginning, before the
creation of this world, in the counsel of Heaven to be servants of our Heavenly
Father and our Lord Jesus Christ, during the lifetime they chose to be upon this
earth. The ancient ones are the prophets, teachers, apostles and leaders of old
and the not so distant past.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? It was during this time of me standing in the center of the circle (wheel) that my consciousness and alertness were at their highest. I was aware of what each one of the ancient ones spoke to me about, what they were blessing me with. As there were no physical words spoken, their words were communicated by pure thought. There could be no misunderstanding of any part of their communication.
How this differs from my normal consciousness and alertness is quite different as I have a hearing problem and sometimes being able to fully concentrate on what people are saying can be very difficult.
your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect,
such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Extremely, as in my physical form, I am extremely near-sighted and have to wear
glasses, so to be able to see clearly and be able to take in everything around
me with the utmost clarity is one thing that completely amazed me. The colors
on the other side are of the brightest colors, which our most florescent colors
on this earth are muddy to the brightness and vividness of the colors that are
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? Yes, in my physical body, I am deaf in one ear and diminished in the other, yet during my experience the perception of sound was extremely acute. I could hear not only the birds singing, but everything in Heaven resounds with love of our Heavenly Father.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? That I could definitely say is a resounding yes. While in my physical body, I not only could feel the pain that I was in from the surgery, I could also feel the weak feeling from all the poison from the infection that was raging through my body. While I was on the other side, I had no feeling of pain, worry or any other ache of pain. My body felt whole and in a perfected state.
physical form, I was also a bit overweight, yet on the other side, I could see
myself in my perfect form. What is amazing is in my mind that is one thing that
has not been removed or blocked is my memory of myself in my perfect form. In
my perfect form, I was about 35 years old, my present height of 6’-0”, and my
weight was around 175. There was only the minimum amount of fat on my body. I
no long had my receding hairline, yet my hair was wavy, like it is when I grow
it out in my physical form, yet my hair was just past my shoulders and pure
white. My eyes were still the clear blue that I have in this existence.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Yes, I was actually led into the tunnel by my guardians, three men, dressing in radiant white. These three men were also three of my best friends that had been with me throughout eternity.
Did you see a light? Yes, of a brightness that was greater than the noon day sun, yet it did not burn.
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes, as I just mentioned I was guided to the tunnel of light by my guardian angels. What is really amazing about our guardian angels is that we choose them. I also came to realize that one of the things that we know, from the pre-existence, is that we will have our guardian angels that will work with the Holy Ghost to lead and guide us. We don’t always listen, but they are there still the same. As I mentioned that we choose them, and they us.
The reason I’m saying this is very simple. We are all each other’s guardians. Each one of our guardians has already come to this existence. And at the time they were on the earth, we were each other’s guardian angels. Of my guardians, and me I do know that they have preceded me to this earth and that I am the last of the four to come to earth. All three of their missions have been served on this earth; I’m in the process of serving mine. I also know that I was shown my mission, albeit hidden from my present consciousness, I was allowed to set forth markers along my path to know that I am following it as it should be.
Now, I need
to interject something here and I hope this will make sense. When we choose our
“three guardian angels”, they are not the only ones we choose. We also choose a
total of 12, you being one of the 12. Each of these other guardians, are there
for many other aspects of your life, yet you will always have the 3 main
guardians. You, yourself have served in this same capacity at some point in
course of the eternities. Now, where are we in the plan of salvation? I do
believe that we are in the last dispensation of time, spoken of in Revelations.
Yet that is a very extensive discussion.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? Yes, As time has passed, I look back over my life review in a more different light than I had originally. I don't look at it as a vision backward, but instead of seeing how I have followed my path. Knowing that I didn't quite follow it at times, but that I was never far from it at any time. I saw how I could have handled situations better, but didn't at the time, but have learned how to handle them differently when they arise again.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes, There is no time on that side
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? I already had a basic understanding of what Heavenly Father had planned out for all of us on this world and especially on how the world was created, but I didn’t fully understand it until my last NDE. Even now, there is a part of my understanding that is there, but it is blocked because the understanding of the fullness of what it really means is not ready to come forth.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
become aware of future events? Not in the
respect of wars, earthquakes, etc. Just a more heightened awareness of what
will happen on a personal level.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes Was born psychic (although I prefer intuitive instead), however my experiences have only magnified my abilities. I do not believe in predicting someone’s future, yet I do know that as we pass through this existence that we do leave an energy imprint upon people, places and things. My abilities, I use to help others, never for personal gain, however, I do use them to help the police in solving crimes and for helping people to bring closure to hurts in their lives.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes, I also belong to the IANDS group in Salt Lake City, UT, although I no longer live there.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes it changed for a while with my wife and children, but they soon could see how it changed me in helping them.
Relationships with my extended family members, well, not so good, they always
thought I was crazy, and now they think I've really gone off the deep end. They
are a closed minded lot, and are not very receptive to change.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes, I was active in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, and for a time after my last NDE, I left the LDS Church to pursue, search and understand what had happened to me. I had known that my intuitive abilities had dramatically increased; yet I still felt empty and angry for having to return. I returned to the LDS faith, because I found that what I was really seeking was within my own beliefs all along. Now, I will say that from my NDE I have a deeper understandings about many beliefs, many I have never studied before.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience: No
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes
Describe: I had a ruptured appendix
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? Physically, minimal, spiritually and consciously, extremely alert. To the point that I vividly recall all that I saw and the conversations I had with those on the other side.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No, it was real. The only thing I have to add to this is, while I was in my experience, I had the pleasure of having a discussion with Jesus. I knew it was him and that I can never deny. I also received a wonderful hug from him. I felt his body with my spirit and there are times, especially when I do have occasional bouts of depression, I can still feel his physical body with my fingertips and I know he was real and that what he brought to the world was wonderful.
Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body? Yes
Describe your appearance or form apart from your body: I could see myself as I am now, yet in a perfected state. I was a bit overweight in my physical form, yet I was in perfect form on that side. My hair was past my shoulders, yet was white, like spun glass.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Humility, joy, happiness, sadness when I had to leave.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? That is kind of difficult to explain, I did and I didn't. I did hear birds singing as well as everything around me. Yet it wasn't sounds that were unknown as they are here. Everything resonated with the energy of our Heavenly Father. No music on this earth comes close, yet I still listen for it.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Yes
Describe: I have already written about the room with the wheel, but there was more. I was also given a review of our world, our existence, from the beginning. I was there at the council in Heaven when the plan of Salvation was discussed and accepted. We all were there. This existence, this earth, was created in the spirit before it was created in the physical form. How awesome it is to not only look down upon this earth and see the aura of it as it radiates out. To know the Earth’s aura is made up, not only from the planet itself, but from each and every living soul on this earth. The Earth’s aura is the most brilliant blue. Even our sky does not compare to the radiance of this aura.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes
Describe: I came to understand that life, as we know it now is also an illusion. Since my NDE, I acquired a beautiful crystal ball. For one thing, as I gaze into it, I can see our existence as I saw it on the other side. There is no time, which is our measurement. What we need to experience, we can do so at whichever "time" would best suit that experience for us to gain that understanding.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body? Yes
Describe: I was given a choice about my returning. I was also told that the things I had put into motion during my life would continue to their completion, but I wouldn't be there to enjoy them as I'm supposed to, if I chose to stay. I understood that I needed to return, I was sad, but I also knew that my return would actually be quicker than snapping your fingers when it was time.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
Describe: Many times. I belong to the IANDS Chapter in Salt Lake City, but I haven't shared my complete story since I moved from there.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? Anger, frustration, depression, crying spells, thinking I had made a big mistake coming back.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best was talking with our Lord Jesus Christ and finding out truths that the ancient theologians conveniently forgot to put into the scriptures. I also know and it was confirmed to me the missing points could be found in three books that have never been revised or changed. They have only been translated once and revealed only once. Those three books are: The Book of Mormon, The Pearl of Great Price and The Doctrine and Covenants.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I would be happy to share anything at any time. I'm open to questions.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? I would say, now my life has changed since I first filled out this questionnaire. My spiritual depth and understanding of the Gospel is much stronger. My faith and trust in my Heavenly Father, his son, Our Lord Jesus Christ, can not be changed or altered. I know that Heavenly Father is not the angry, vengeful God I was raised to believe as a child. He is a loving, caring, compassionate Father that truly does care about His children.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
I would like to make an addendum to this questionnaire. I am still learning and understanding all that happened during my NDE’s, especially my last one. I’m not saying that talking about my NDE’s to people has been easy. Most of these experiences have been warmly welcomed, other times I have been told that I was crazy and that it is all my imagination. Well, if this was my imagination, then I never want to wake up because it has truly changed my life.
My NDE’s have also caused me to make other changes in my life. Besides helping others through my service to my Heavenly Father, I have also returned to college to obtain my bachelors degree in Criminal Justice to be followed by attending law school. I know so many people don’t really care for lawyers, until they need one, but my abilities, gifts and talents I know can be used to help others that truly need it.
I’ve learned from my NDE’s that “material” is not that important. Yes, being a lawyer can and does provide a pretty decent income, I’ll give it that. But that is not my motivation. I was told this many years ago; “You have many talents, gifts and skills which are helpful to others in this world. Magnify them and develop them that you might be of service to others. Your service to your Father in Heaven is through your service to your associates and friends here on the earth.”
It is far more important to me to store my spiritual treasures in Heaven than to store them on earth. With these words said, in closing I would like to bear you my testimony. I know that my Redeemer Lives. What comfort this sweet sentence gives. I know that from my NDE’s that I stood in the Light of my Father in Heaven and felt his presence, I stood face to face with my Lord Jesus Christ and I did speak with him. I know that the fullness of the Gospel of Jesus Christ is upon this earth today. I know that it was restored to this earth through a prophet of the Lord. I know there is a living prophet upon this earth today. I know this and I testify this, in the name of our Lord and Savior, even Jesus Christ, Amen.
ADDENDUM RESPONSE -
Thank you and Jeff for such a wonderful website, and you are welcome. In response to your question "I am curious - can you say what the symbols were or what they mean and how they are used?"
Well, I can and I can't, to say what the symbols were, some of them I know what they were and why they are there, others, I know them when I see them and also know how to use them.
First: 1 set of the symbols were those of the zodiac, but not as we know them, but their astrological star constellations. Whether some want to believe it, those symbols do have a correlation to events or occurrences that have or will happen on this earth or in an individual's life. It is really more complex than even some astrologers have ever delved into.
Second: Another set of the symbols pertain to the healing art of Reiki as we call it here. I know all of the symbols, and how to use them, as I'm also a Reiki Master. I hate to burst anyone's bubble, but some of these "new" symbols that Reiki Organizations have come out with are nothing but marks, they do nothing.
Third: Another set, pertains to wisdom, knowledge and understanding. This one is extremely difficult to explain as it more involves senses and feelings. They are keys that help in unlocking "mysteries" that we have often thought we would never know. They also
help in enhancing psychic abilities.
Besides the symbols, there were also crystals that go with each symbol. Of course the most powerful of all crystals is a diamond, but who could afford a diamond ball, only a clear or semi-clear quartz ball can be used for all the symbols as it resonates all colors. Yet besides the crystals, those crystals also held colors and they too are important to our psyche and to our overall health and well-being.
To tell people what these symbols are, it isn't easy to explain something there is no reference to. Many of them I can't explain, because I just use them everyday, they are like second-nature to me. Just as my psychic abilities I've always had, even now this
gift is more pronounced.
I hope this makes sense, and if you have anymore questions, please don't hesitate to ask. Until later,
DIALOGUE with William
J: Do you have a clear understanding of what your mission is and how to go about accomplishing it or do you just have to think and feel your way through it as best you can?
M: MY UNDERSTANDING OF WHAT MY MISSION IS ON THIS EARTH, PRIMARILY HAS BEEN HIDDEN FROM ME, (NOT ONLY AT MY REQUEST BUT WITH MY PERMISSION). I ASKED THAT IT BE HIDDEN SO THAT I DIDN'T COMPLETE IT TO SOON. YET, I ALSO AGREED THAT "SIGN POST" WOULD BE PLACED ALONG THE
WAY, JUST SO THAT I WOULD HAVE REMINDERS THAT I'M FOLLOWING MY CHOSEN PATH.
J: ...I had been here two times before ... Were there differences in how you perceived your experience from one time to the next or was everything essentially the same each time? Do you feel we were given a greater degree of understanding with each NDE?
M: THERE HAVEN'T BEEN SO MUCH AS DIFFERENCES, YET THE DEGREE OF UNDERSTANDING HAS INCREASED MORE SO WITH EACH NDE THAN THE ONE BEFORE.
J: You said you were a devout Mormon before your experiences but that now you do not belong to any organized religion. Besides this obvious change, what other specific changes have you made in your belief system as a result of your experience? Please be as explicit as possible.
M: AN UNDERSTANDING IN WHAT LIFE IS ABOUT AND WHAT OUR PURPOSE TRULY IS HERE. THE MORMONS BELIEVE AND TEACH THERE ARE "CLASSES" AND "LEVELS" IN HEAVEN THAT WE WILL BE JUDGED AND PLACED IN AND ONLY IN THE HIGHEST
LEVEL CAN WE "ASCEND" TO BE WITH GOD. FROM MY EXPERIENCE I LEARNED OR REMEMBERED THERE WERE NO "CLASSES OR LEVELS" AS THEY WERE TEACHING. YET THE LEVELS ARE MORE OF UNDERSTANDING THAN PUNISHMENTS. WOULD IT MAKE SENSE TO PUT A 2 YEAR OLD IN WITH A GROUP OF PEOPLE WITH PhD'S? THE 2 YEAR OLD WOULDN'T UNDERSTAND. YET, THOSE WITH THE PhD'S WOULD HUMBLE THEMSELVES WITH THEIR LEVEL OF UNDERSTANDINGS TO TEACH, NURTURE AND HELP THE 2 YEAR OLD GROW IN THEIR LEVELS OF UNDERSTANDING.
J: Can you share what things about this life were important to you and your own
PRIOR TO BEING MORMON, I WAS RAISED IN A METHODIST/PENTECOSTAL HOME. I GREW UP BELIEVING THAT GOD THE FATHER WAS AN ANGRY VENGEFUL GOD AND THAT JESUS WAS SENT TO SAVE US FROM HIS WRATH. WRONG!!!
FOR ONE THING, GOD IS NOT AN ANGRY VENGEFUL GOD, BUT IS A LOVING PARENT TO ALL OF HIS CHILDREN. AS FOR JESUS, ONE THING THE THEOLOGIANS WANTED US NOT TO KNOW WAS THAT WHILE JESUS WAS ON THIS EARTH, "HE WAS HUMAN". ALL OF THE PRINCIPALS HE TAUGHT HE DID AS "HUMAN". THE MARRIAGE IN THE BIBLE WHERE HE TURNED THE WATER TO WINE. THAT WAS HIS MARRIAGE, IF YOU STUDY JEWISH HISTORY. AS HUMAN, HE HAD A WIFE AND
CHILDREN, WE JUST DO NOT KNOW WHO HIS LINAGE IS. ONE THING HE DID TELL ME, IF YOU STRUGGLE WITH TRYING TO DO ALL THE PRINCIPALS HE TAUGHT, "STOP"!!! DON'T DO THEM ALL AT ONE TIME. TAKE ONE AND WORK ON IT, WHEN
IT BECOMES SECOND NATURE, THEM PICK UP THE NEXT ONE, ETC. WHEN HE SAID, "THESE THINGS I DO, YOU CAN DO ALSO, AND THEN SOME", WAS NOT AN EXAGGERATION, BUT TRUTH. WHEN WE LOOK BACK ON OUR LIFE AFTER WE LEAVE HERE, WE WILL SEE THAT WE HAD DONE ALL THAT HE HAD TAUGHT, AND MORE.
ONE OF THE OTHER THINGS HE TOLD ME WAS, WHAT BETTER WAY FOR MAN TO KNOW THAT WE DON'T HAVE TO BE SAVED. SAVED FROM WHAT? OUR SOUL IS ALREADY ETERNAL, ALWAYS WILL BE. OUR SOUL/SPIRIT IS LITERALLY A CHILD OF GOD AND AS SUCH IS ETERNAL. WHEN WE REALIZE THAT ALL THINGS, ALL WORDS COME FROM GOD, NOTHING IS OFFENSIVE TO GOD BECAUSE IT CAME FROM GOD. WHAT IS OFFENSIVE IS HOW WE PERCEIVE IT. AS FOR OUR BODIES AND SPIRITS JOINING IN THE "RAPTURE", WE HAVE THAT CHOICE ANY TIME
J: Can you tell me what these gifts were/are and what you now do to use them fully?
GIFTS WERE MY PSYCHIC ABILITIES. HAVING BEEN RAISED WITH A METHODIST MOM AND A
PENTECOSTAL FATHER, THEY BELIEVED THEY WERE FROM THE DEVIL AND THAT I SHOULD
CAST THEM AWAY UNLESS I BE CAST INTO HELL. MY GIFTS ARE NOT FROM THE DEVIL,
SINCE I DON'T BELIEVE IN THE DEVIL OR IN SATAN. I USE MY GIFTS TO HELP HEAL
PEOPLE AND ONLY TO SERVE GOD IN THE WAYS I'M SUPPOSED TO GO.
M: From this is sounds like we have total control over the way our life unfolds and develops. Is this what you meant? If so, how do we decide which "time" to choose and what direction to go in?
J: WE DO HAVE CONTROL OVER OUR LIVES? THAT IS OUR CHOICE OF FREE AGENCY. GOD GAVE US THAT AND WILL NEVER TAKE IT AWAY. IN EVERY THING THAT WE DO, WE HAVE A CHOICE TO BUILD UP OR TO TEAR DOWN. TO CONTROL AND MANIPULATE OR TO GUIDE AND LET GO AND LET OTHERS MAKE THEIR CHOICE FOR THEIR LIVES.
M: The best, talking with Jesus and finding out truth's that the ancient theologians conveniently forgot to put into the scriptures. Can you tell me what those truths are?
J: I PUT A LOT OF THOSE IN A PREVIOUS QUESTION YOU ASKED.
M: I am also a Reiki practitioner. Can you tell me which of the "new" symbols are nothing but marks? Which of the "old" symbols do you use? What is the power these symbols have? Before reading what you said here, it was my feeling that the symbols really didn't have any power; that the real power behind Reiki was the love and the loving intent behind the hand placement and touch. But I am going to reconsider this position because of what your have said.
J: THE OLD SYMBOLS, THE SEI HE KI, CHOKU REI, DAI-KO-MEO, AND THE HO SHA ZE SHO NEN, THESE SYMBOLS ARE POWERFUL WITHIN THEMSELVES. YET MANY OF THE REIKI SCHOOLS LIKE TO TEACH THE KARUNA METHOD AND SOME OTHERS THAT I HAVE FOUND ON THE INTERNET. THEY ARE NOT REAL AND HAVE NOTHING TO THEM. YES, THE REAL POWER OF REIKI IS BASED ON LOVE AND THE INTENT OF THE HAND PLACEMENT, VERY TRUE, BUT THERE ARE SYMBOLS THAT ARE NOT USED FOR HANDS-ON OR DISTANT HEALING, YET ARE USED TO ENHANCE PERSONAL ABILITIES IN PSYCHIC HEALING AND PSYCHIC WORK. THEY CAN BE USED IN GUIDING AND HELPING THOSE CAUGHT IN THE SHADOWS THAT ARE AFRAID TO LOOK INTO THE LIGHT. MANY OF THESE SYMBOLS ARE USED IN MEDITATION TO OPEN YOURSELF UP TO RECEIVING GUIDANCE FROM THE OTHER SIDE.
I HOPE THIS ANSWERS SOME OF YOUR QUESTIONS. IF YOU HAVE FURTHER QUESTIONS PLEASE DON'T HESITATE TO ASK.
I want to thank you for contacting Jody at the Near Death Experience Research Foundation (NDERF). She asked me to send my response to you also to the site so that it can be shared with others.
The question that you have, on "How does God/The Creator view someone that has to kill for their country?" That question can be also asked as to anyone that has to take the life of another either to defend their country or way of life.
When I was on the other side and was watching my life review, there were also other questions that I had pertaining to many different things. And it is interesting to note that one of these questions, was the taking of another life. Another discussion regarded Adolph Hitler and those like him who have been a part of our history, made notorious for their actions.
What I was shown was that each one of us, including Hitler, have all been shown what our "mission" on this earth would entail. We saw all that would occur during our life. However, we were also shown various paths that we could take during the course of our life. None of these paths are predestined. But instead, we (not God) put specific signposts along the way to trigger decisions that we should make. Sometimes we recognize them, other times we don't.
One thing that we do know, whether we choose to come to this earth as white, black, Oriental, Mexican, Christian, Jewish, Catholic, Muslim, Hindu or Buddhist, we also know and realize that there may be times we will have to defend our way of life and our personal beliefs, even to the point of taking a human life while we are here. That is our freedom of choice. We also know that when we come here, we may be called to exercise our duty as a citizen of a particular country, to protect and defend that way of life.
When it comes to judging, God does not judge as so many religions practice, they do a really good job of guilting you to death. Guilt for looking at a woman or man, for taking a drink, smoking, etc. However, for you to defend your way of life, you are rewarded and praised.
As I mentioned earlier with Adolph Hitler, our history books teach hatred. We are to continue to hate this man for what he did and for what he ordered. Why can't we look at it in a different point of view of what the man taught us? Hitler’s message is that if we (mankind) do not watch what we do and how we act, this is how low mankind can really go.
His actions and those who followed his orders tried to wipe out a whole race of life, simply because it was different than theirs. And as such, because of that lesson, look at the appropriate response that American soldiers were called upon to perform. The U.S. was attempting to stop, not merely a way of life but a threat to all life. The big picture is to realize that it doesn't matter what walk of life a person may have chosen, we are all "Children of God." We just have different points of view and that is ok.
When it comes to the 9/11 incident, my point of view with that is, those that lived were not meant to die that day. Those that did, it was their chosen day and time on that day and in that way. Why? What could possibly be the reason?
Our nation and those of all nations have recognized for a long time that individuals have terrorized our way's of life. Just like it took the 6 million plus to die in the Concentration Camps at the hands of the Nazi's, it took that many to make a strong enough impact to wake us up— not just the U.S., but the whole world. So it is the same with 9/11. Sure, we have had a small bombing here and shooting there, but it took something this dramatic to make the impact and for us to realize, Enough is Enough.
At the end of WWII, it took a few years to help the German people to see Hitler's point of view. They realized that it was not a threat to Germany but had been a threat to Hitler's point of view. The same is with ben Laden. I have many friends that are also Muslim that do not feel the same as al Quaida or ben Laden. Many religions believe they are the only true religion on this earth, so do these particular Muslims.
Since my three NDEs, my point of view has dramatically changed. Religion, all religions, were created by man and man is the one that wrote and created the laws that govern how you should feel, what you should do and what you think. God is NO RELIGION, HE/SHE IS JUST GOD. HE/SHE IS THE GREAT I AM and that is it. We are a part of the Great I AM. That will never change. It doesn't matter whether or not what name He/She goes by, He/She is still GOD.
When mankind gets the clue that to stop all the MADNESS, we just simply have to realize that God is God, and that we are all, literally, a part of God. Our human bodies may be a part of our parents with all its generations, but our spirit has only one generation— You as the eternal Child of God.
When mankind understands the continuity of the soul, mankind will also realize that we no longer need to force others to change individual points of views, because it won't matter. Individuals will be accepted for who they are.
There will finally be no more killing, no more sickness and possibly no more dying. However, dying is just a rebirth another transition from this existence back to the existence from which we came.
So, back to your question. God will not judge those that have had to take a life to defend themselves or their country. If an individual holds guilt for an action, it is their own self-judgment. Before I end this, let me try and share a small part of my NDE with everyone.
As I was passing through the tunnel, I could sense the spirits that were in the shadows beyond the tunnel of light. I could feel the torment, the fear, the guilt and shame that they were feeling. I asked my guardians how could God condemn these spirits to this realm. I was told that God did not put them there, They Put Themselves There.
I asked what they meant by this. (I'm going to be a bit on the blunt side here.) So many times religions will teach that actions and words can admit or restrain a person from entering the presence of God. These types of teachings, teach guilt and shame. For instance, if you say the words, “Shit, Damn or Hell,” that soul will not be worthy to stand in the presence of God. If a person chooses to live a different lifestyle than the norm, many religions will outcast the member from the group by scapegoating that individual and reminding the rest of the congregation how this individual will be cast into Hell and will never see the Light of God.
When I stood in the presence of my Creator, I had done things in my life that were not the Norm, but I felt no shame for them, I just felt loved. While I was there, I was able to see 4 old friends that I had had on this earth. These friends had all been killed in a car wreck after they had been hit by a drunk driver. Some would think that that was o.k. because they had been innocently killed. The drunk driver had also been killed. Yet he was there also. Why? Because the guys had all forgiven him for his actions. All five of them knew and agreed that their missions on this earth ended on that particular night.
Oh, I also forgot to mention, the four friends of mine, shouldn't have been in Heaven at all, because religion had condemned them to Hell. All four of them on this earth had been Gay. They had no shame or guilt for their way of life. Society had the shame and guilt. These were great guys, they never hurt another human being. Three of them even had younger siblings, and they not once ever Molested or Defiled them, in fact they protected them, even up to the day they died.
When we pass to that side, when Jesus went to those in Prison, he was talking about those that were in the shadows. Those through their guilt and shame felt they were unworthy and incapable of being loved by God. They are who we are to help. To teach those who remain tortured in the shadows to awaken and realize that their turmoil was of no need. God is pure LOVE. The experiences these souls had on earth was just that, an experience and part of their mission. When they learn to let go of the guilt and shame they will return back to the light.
I hope this helps and attempts to answer your question. Please feel free to
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