EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
I
had just turned 21 three days prior and I was in my college housing apartment
with two friends. I was preparing the free base Cocaine and I was the first one
(and only one) to smoke. I remember lighting the flame and putting it to the
pipe. The next thing I remember was being in place of the most comfortable
warmth , a bright warmth, and peace one could ever imagine. I had no fear what
so ever and I knew I was somewhere far from where I should be but I did not
care. This was the place where no harm could ever come to me. It was perfect
warmth and peace and comfort and I loved it. Then I remember starting to wake up
and I was mad because I wanted to stay where I was. I did not want to come back
to this world. When I awoke I was in the hospital. The nurse told me that
I had almost died.
There was a big snow storm out that night and my friends told me that after I
smoked the Cocaine that I passed out and fell very hard to the ground. They
called 911 and they had to send a four wheel drive to pick me up. I stopped
breathing and had no pulse. When the paramedics arrived they injected adrenaline
into my heart with a big needle like in Pulp Fiction but I still did not wake up
and was rushed to the hospital. I was unaware of any of this and I was
unconscious for quite some time. Like I said I remember being in a place that
was perfect. It was warm and so comfortable. I remember thinking that I was
somewhere special and I did NOT want to go back from which I came. I had a sense
of knowing special things but forgot after I woke back up. I remember feeling
that death should not be feared after this.
At
the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?
Yes
Overdose while smoking free base Cocaine
Was
the experience difficult to express in words?
Yes There are no words to explain the complete comfort that I experienced.
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and alertness?
The whole time I was out.
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?
More
consciousness and alertness than normal It is hard to explain. I had a feeling
that I knew the answers to all life's questions but upon returning to this world
that knowledge was taken from me.
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that
you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.
It
was a vision not seen by your eyes. It was a complete soul experience.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that
you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.
Same
as above. My eyes, nose, skin, ears were not needed. It was all felt by my soul.
Did
you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your
consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Calm, peace and ease
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel?
No
Did
you see an unearthly light?
Yes
Did
you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable
voice?
I
encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
I knew I was in the presence of something very very special. And this presence
was filling full of knowledge and I felt that everything was ok now.
Did
you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who
are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha,
etc.)?
No
Did
you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
No
Did
you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?
No
Did
you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?
A
clearly mystical or unearthly realm
A
place of great warmth and peacefulness
Did
time seem to speed up or slow down?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Time
lost all meaning. it did not matter any more.
Did
you suddenly seem to understand everything?
Everything about the universe. I was being filled of knowledge but upon
awaking I lost it.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did
you come to a border or point of no return?
No
Did
scenes from the future come to you?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly
life (“life after death”)?
Yes It is hard for me to remember now. But I clearly understood that there is
a continuation of life after death.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?
Yes The bright warmth I was in was holding me and protecting me.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not)
exist?
Yes I was one with the presence that was pouring warmth into me
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding love?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information /
awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living
our earthly lives?
Yes Death should not be feared
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?
Yes It is hard for me to remember now.
What occurred during your experience included:
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at
the time of your experience
How
accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events
that occurred around the time of the experience?
I
remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred
around the time of the experience
My experience directly resulted in: Moderate
changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that
occurred as a result of the experience?
Yes
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful
or significant to you?
Do
you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience
that you did not have before the experience?
No
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
No
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your
experience?
No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to
weeks) after it happened:
Experience was definitely real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:
Experience was definitely real
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result
of your experience?
Yes
At
any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the
experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
No
This happened a long time ago, and it is hard for me to recall everything in one
sitting.
