Tony D NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

In 1992 my wife came home with another man. I stabbed myself in the heart. I was taken to the emergency room. I flat lined twice, but once I was floating and heard the Doctor and every detail, but it was dark and I saw nothing. No anesthesia at the time.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Uncertain  The question is unclear.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No    

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    When I was floating.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   Except for vision all was clear.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   None.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   Every detail was clear...

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   Yes   I spoke with my Doctor after and he was surprised at what I knew. He remarked that he did not save me and was not sure how I survived.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Freedom?? But also confused.  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   No  

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No  

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
I was aware and felt "awake" for the first time.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Time had no meaning.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   Yes   I was dead, but I was more alive than ever.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   I was not connected, that I am certain.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   Uncertain  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   No  

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   I felt good yet I was not part of the "whole".

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience     

My experience directly resulted in:   Unknown

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   Now I was certain there was God, but I was angry at Him.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?   I want to know about the darkness, no one talks about it.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   No  

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     I want to know about the darkness, no one talks about it.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  My wife, 10 years.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   Yes   Had heard of it.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   Absolutely real, it troubled me for years.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   Don't really care about talking about it, but it is still vivid.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   After years, I know because of what I experienced that there is no doubt in what I believe.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No     

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Uncertain