Woke in bed
with massive pain, more than I ever dreamed possible...Felt like something
pulled me out of bed...Saw and felt a mist and a blackness in a ring around
me...Like a hyperspace on the periphery.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience: Uncertain
Explanation: was on Demerol, Percocet immediately after surgery but was taken off 2 days later .
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? It was as much as can be had with hat level of sheer pain.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No, much worse.
Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Release...catharsis...some bit of psychedelic perhaps...
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? low frequency rumbling perhaps.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No
Did you see a light? No
Did you meet or see any other beings? Uncertain
Describe: kind of like 'gorgons'
dark shadowy figures.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? Yes
Describe: I saw all my bad and unhealthy habits...
saw my ways of dealing with people socially, etc.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Yes
Describe: Yes.. felt like I was in a moist landscape...
kind of like 'Dagobah' the planet that 'Yoda' lives in in that Star Wars movie.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes
Describe: yes, I felt time stretching, dissolving.. .moving in a different .direction
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes
Describe: Yes I felt that I had gotten some heightened awareness... I can foreshadow events now...
they aren't always clear... but I get these hunches and concepts that I invariably experience later.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes
Describe: The boundary was more emotional perhaps... like I could feel its presence.
Did you become aware of future events? Yes
Describe: see above.
Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes
Describe: see above..
I also seem to be more telepathic, clairvoyant perhaps.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes
Describe: see above.
Has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices etc.? Career choices? I am more empathic with people...
I am not materialistic anymore... 'yuppies' make feel sorry for them because they are so off track...
I tend to agree with Buddhist/Tao/Zen concepts...
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
Describe: shock, weird-out, horror....
some stopped talking to me... called me a freak....
What emotions did you experience following your experience? grief...utter depression....
What was the best and worst part of your experience? best- getting the "wake up call"
worst- the pain...the NG tube in my nose...losing the muscle mass from laying on the hospital bed for 2 weeks while antibiotics pumped into me...I had severe convulsions at 1 point as a result of toxins in my body...that was HELLACIOUS...whew...
anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
That song by 'Jewel' "Only Kindness Matters" is really hitting the lesson I
learned on the nail-head...
That thought.. of only being 'cool to all people' is the lesson that seems to have be3en programmed in my head...
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes
Describe: see above.
I on a much less goods-oriented path... I don't feel that I have to go out and become wealthy like I used to...
I'm more likely to do "random acts of kindness".
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes