Teresa C NDE
Prior to my NDE, I was in a terrible situation with a man that was extremely evil. There were days that when he wasn't at the house I would turn on my one Christain CD and get on my knees and cry out to God to help me change and to give me direction.
During the 5 yrs leading up to my NDE, I was doing things that I felt was killing me on the inside. In fact, I felt dead inside. I had decided to end that relationship and move back home to my family, after getting help with the withdrawal.
I admitted myself into St. Joseph Hospital in Marshfield, Wisconsin for medical help withdrawing off of Vicadin. Almost immediately as the Dr was going to inject some medication to start the withdrawal, I felt a rectangular pain form across my chest. For about a second I thought, wow does pneumonia show up this fast?? At that same moment, I said out loud, "I can't breathe out." Then, total blackness. I died.
I have no recollection of what occurred in that room when I went unconcious.
All of the sudden I was surrounded by pure, bright, brilliant, Heaven white. It was white, but not earthly white. Seriously, there are no words that can explain the beauty of colors in Heaven.
I was in a cell. It was made of brown metal. I had a tan "potato bag" on my body as a form of clothing. I had brown leather bands "belts" around my neck, waist, wrists and ankles.
I believe at first I was somewhat confused. But immediately, there was love all around me. Love such as a person cannot possibly feel here on earth. It simply isn't possible.
One by one those thick brown bands fell off. The door to the "cell" opened. I walked out and fell to my knees. I couldn't look up. I knew it was Jesus. I was in the presence of the Lord.
It was at that time that we were telepathically communicating. I was asking and crying about things that happened to me from the beginning of my life for the most part. (Incest, emotional abuse, physical abuse, mental abuse, running away starting at about 12 yrs old to get away from all the abuse. Stranger raped at 14. Countless things happened to me, but this might give the reader an idea as to where I came from. Frankly, I believe I was living a hell on earth.
It was amazing and beautiful. My Savior answered and gave me knowledge, that gave me peace about every single thing that had happened to me. Everything. However, He didn't allow me to come back with all of that He revealed to me. What He did, is sent me back with peace in my spirit.
Bondages gone. I am a brand new person on the inside. I have been set completely free of my past.
I truly believe that He knew I was on a one way ticket to hell, and because of me crying out to Him he answered my prayers!! That, is how much He loves us.
I eventually awoke...I don't recall how long I was gone. I am planning on going to read my records to find out details.
I do remember when I woke up, I had scabs under my nose from oxygen. There was a nurse in there that acted surprised that I woke up. The first words she said was, "You had quite a rough time. You were a very sick girl."
There was an elderly woman that would come into my room and would sit and talk to me. She was a peaceful older woman that talked to me about God. I felt such peace when she was there. I have always kind of wondered if she was real. Her name was Ruth. I'm going to ask about her when I go and read my records. She gave me a beautiful coin that I cherish to this day. It reads, "This too shall pass."
I did eventually leave the hospital, with what I believe a second chance on life. I felt like a brand new baby. Everything felt brand new. My insides were as clean as a whistle.
I had a few other
experiences afterwards ...and if you are interested I would be glad to relate
them to you if you call.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes There are absolutely no words that I am aware of that can give an accurate account of the "colors, peace, euphoria, love, beauty, communication, knowledge, warmth, etc...
I have come to realize
that it is because it's Heaven.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes Acute pulmonary embolism
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was with Jesus. I felt more alive than I ever, ever felt on earth. I remember thinking, I wonder if we are in a sleepwalking awareness level on earth. Once again, I don't have the correct words to tell of the alert level...it's simply amazing.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: When I was with Jesus. I felt more alive than I ever, ever felt on earth. I remember thinking, I wonder if we are in a sleepwalking awareness level on earth. Once again, I don't have the correct words to tell of the alert level...it's simply amazing.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes The color "white" ..well, white. White...I just, I don't think there is a word for the "bright white" in Heaven. Because it's Heaven. It's indescribable. Also, I felt extremely healthy.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Uncertain The communication between my Savior and my self was all telepathic. I was shooting off questions about my childhood, and every bad thing that happened to me. The Lord was coming back with answers that I fully understood and was at complete and utter peace with what He was telling me.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? #11. I need to explain...I had a body that was absolutely perfect in every single way. I felt heavenly healthy. Not of this realm, I can assure you.
#12. I experienced
emotions that I don't believe we can experience here on earth. The peace,
serenity, warmth, safety...My emotions were not of this world. There is just no
way possible that a person can feel that here on earth.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No No tunnel. I was just "all of a sudden there."
Did you see a light? Yes Yes, Yes, Yes.
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes I was in the presence of Jesus.
#9 explains as to what I remember being communicated.
I couldn't look at Him.
I was on my knees in a prayer position, but couldn't bring myself to look up
because of the overwhelming beauty.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No Didn't experience my past, but questioned many, many things that I couldn't get through here on earth that was keeping me in complete bondage...in depression, unforgiveness, full of rage, hate, sadness.....everything opposite of what Jesus wants us to be. All because of things that started to happen to me as a little girl up to when my NDE occurred.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Uncertain It appears that what occurred between me and Jesus was a healing for my mind. This was truly all about Him healing my mind.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Uncertain
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes There was no time there. It felt that it went on for a very long beautiful time....but in reality, I have no idea.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes Jesus comforted me as to what it meant for me to go through what I had gone through all of my life. At the time this communication was happening I was full of knowledge. However, I didn't come back with any of it. The only thing that I am aware of that He allowed me to remember was the "peace," and the feeling that it was all okay, and that I had never been alone...not for one second...that He had always been with me, and knew EVERYTHING that had happened to me. He explained every detail to me...and gave me such peace.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? No What is absolutely incredible to me, is that for years and years prior to my NDE I had certain "experiences" with the paranormal...
AFTER my NDE I haven't
had NOT ONE incident of that nature. Not one.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes I believe I told my sister first...maybe a month after? Then I told my two daughters. All of there reactions were of complete awe. We still talk about it at times. I try to encourage my family and friends with what happened to me...that Jesus is truly, truly here with us...and hears us...and helps us.
Also, periodically, I
will share my experience with someone, if I feel that it will help them in some
way. I don't know if they were influenced or not. I guess for me, I tell them
what happened and then they either believe me or not. For me it is factual. It
did happen. I will share it....but I will not look to influencing anyone. It's
not about me. I will always glorify my Lord as to what He did FOR me.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No I don't believe I ever even realized there was such a thing. If sometime in my past, it was mentioned, I don't remember it.
What I do remember, is
being fearful of death, prior to my NDE.
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real It was life changing. I have not, and can not go back to what I was before my NDE. Everything about me is different. I am more loving, more forgiving...just absolutely a different person. I am no longer the person I was before this happened. I was in complete awe. I felt brand new inside like a healing of well, not of this world. I was completely healed.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? Of course!! Everything, everything about it. I will, as long as I live thank God for answering my prayers...before I really even knew He was real. I will never, ever get over how He took the time to do what He did for me.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real I still view it as a privilege beyond anything I ever felt I deserved. I am so unbelievably in love with my Lord. He changed me. He changed my life. He gave me a second chance. He healed me completely.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes Oh yes. I no longer judge anyone. I am very forgiving. I don't take anything personal. I purposely smile at someone if I think it will make their day better. I am way more loving to my family and people in general.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes Yes. I don't go to church all the time...but I keep a very personal relationship with Jesus. I cannot imagine a second of my life without Him in it. I panic if I think I have insulted Him in anyway.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No Never. This was not caused by any drug...medications...nothing. This was the real deal. He is there. Heaven is real. I am actually sad and scared for those that don't believe. This is real. This is more real than life here on earth as we know it. If there is something that frustrates me, it's scientists and doctors that try to explain away...I've seen them trying to do that...it really upsets me. I will guarantee if a NDE happened to one of those people they would do a 180 in a second flat. They would believe without a shadow of a doubt.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? Well, I guess the only thing is...to have a NDE is to have something traumatic occur in someone's life. For me, it was the absolute best thing that ever happened. I wish it could happen to everyone. If that was the case, this world would certainly be a better place to live.
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes