EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
On
November 13, 2002, I was conducting a seminar one second and the next had
tremendous abdominal pain. I asked my assistant to take over and later clients
who visited me reported that I also said "am I am not sure if I will ever be
back"......I had been studying the power of gratitude and had an immediate sense
that this was to be a life changing event and a peace came over me even as I
waited for the ambulance. As the attendants cared for me......I remember being
grateful and not fearful at all......Once in the hospital, in a small town,
Waltham, Mass.......I was in ICU by evening fall of the next day.......not sure
what I had....and was in and out of consciousness......on 11/18 I remember two
friends visiting one second and the next I was in "what I thought as first was a
large room"....but soon I realized that I did not have my body, and that I was
surrounded by consciousness.......pure consciousness is the only way I can
describe it in human terms......everything just is...total love...there was
consciousness that came to me in the form of people I recognized ......no bodies
or seeing anyone......just consciousness.......there was a mention of all the
lives that I had touched......and at first I did not realize that it was me that
had touched all the lives......flashes of those I had helped in life came to me
and I realized it was me....and in that same moment....I was asked "Stay or
Go".......and I thought, "well, I have touched a lot of live......thy will be
done" and surrendered totally to the moment.......I did not ask to stay or go,
but surrendered fully into that moment and I was back in the hospital
room....and got better from that moment on......
A
few weeks went by and the same two friends were visiting and as I told them of
my experience, my friend Warren Gibbons said "oh that was Monday.......you were
in and out of consciousness and the nurses and doctors came running in as your
vital signs were collapsing.......and they said call his family ......this is
it.......".......
today, I share my story....of how we are loved and safe...and that the lives we
touch go with us ......they mean something......and that when I totally
surrendered into the moment, my greatest gift came.......a realization that the
present is all we have and nothing to fear......and that we are all one with
this mysterious glorious creation called a Universe.
Thank you ....I am grateful for the work you do.
At
the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?
Yes
Acute Necrotizing Pancreatitis
Was
the experience difficult to express in words?
Yes
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and alertness?
at the moment I realized that I would be safe no matter what and totally
surrendered into the moment
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?
More
consciousness and alertness than normal back in my body I notice how my ego
interferes with my ability to totally surrender into the present moment
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that
you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.
I
saw nothing
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that
you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.
very
hard to explain in words....I was one with consciousness......
Did
you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your
consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
Yes I did hear what I thought was my eulogy
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
peace
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel?
No
Did
you see an unearthly light?
No
Did
you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable
voice?
I
heard a voice I could not identify
streams of consciousness confirmed that I had touched many lives and then I was
asked "stay or go"......
Did
you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who
are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha,
etc.)?
No
Did
you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
Yes Family members, friends and acquaintance's
Did
you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?
Yes I became aware of the many lives that I had touched with my love, help, a
smile, a generous gesture......
Did
you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?
A
clearly mystical or unearthly realm
Did
time seem to speed up or slow down?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Did
you suddenly seem to understand everything?
Everything about the universe
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes
I was asked "stay or go"
Did
you come to a border or point of no return?
I
came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was "sent back" against
my will
I consider being asked "stay or go" that boundary and I surrendered fully into
what ever was next......either way it did not matter....since I realized that my
life to that point did matter to so many lives that I had touched....staying or
going was ok
Did
scenes from the future come to you?
Scenes from my personal future
If I was "seeing" by eulogy, then yes
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly
life (“life after death”)?
Yes being asked stay or go, and having consciousness
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?
Uncertain besides the stream of consciousness ....the voice that said "stay or
go"
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not)
exist?
Yes I was one with it
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?
Yes So we can learn and grow....ultimately learning the power we have within
us to create our lives if we honor our calling, our Divine purpose
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?
Yes So we can learn and grow....ultimately learning the power we have within
us to create our lives if we honor our calling, our Divine purpose
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding love?
Yes We are loved.......not in the human love definition....in a Universal
way......the Divine, the Universe is in all and we are one with it......there is
no need to search for God, The Divine or the Source, Universe whatever we call
it......it is within us......all of us......especially those that bug
us....there are here to move us to a new path of growth
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information /
awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living
our earthly lives?
Yes There is no heaven or hell.......we pay here for our "sins"....cause and
effect..........there is no "reward" for a "good life".......we join the pure
consciousness at the time of leaving our body and we are all one
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?
Yes I am empowered now to live without fear and follow my calling....what is
inside me....following my heart......my passion and my intuition....the small,
still voice within me
What occurred during your experience included:
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at
the time of your experience while much of my experience was consistent with my
beliefs at the time......the experience was also far and above my human knowing
How
accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events
that occurred around the time of the experience?
I
remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred
around the time of the experience Amazing is all I can say
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your
experience:
I
live more fully......still having an ego to overcome and my experience allows me
to help others achieve their dreams
My experience directly resulted in:
Large changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that
occurred as a result of the experience?
Yes I have full faith in helping others......
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful
or significant to you?
touching the lives of others in meaningful ways......surrender to the moment,
not fearing living providing we live following our calling, our passion and that
nothing we strive for or struggle for here, like fame, or wealth, or material
possessions, or titles, mean anything on the other side......nor do the mistakes
we make....we are here to make mistakes to know we are alive and to grow
Do
you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience
that you did not have before the experience?
Yes there is a certain fabric to life that did not exist before my experience
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful
or significant to you? touching
the lives of others in meaningful ways......surrender to the moment, not fearing
living providing we live following our calling, our passion and that nothing we
strive for or struggle for hear, like fame, or wealth, or material possessions,
or titles, mean anything on the other side......nor do the mistakes we
make....we are here to make mistakes to know we are alive and to grow
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
Yes
A few weeks.........they validated the events that happened to me in the
hospital room while I was out of my body
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your
experience?
No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to
weeks) after it happened:
Experience was definitely real it has been the greatest gift of my life
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:
Experience was definitely real the greatest gift
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
I am
changing so things around me change.......
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result
of your experience?
Yes
Expanded and confirmed what I only suspected before
At
any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the
experience?
Yes Well, if you count certain events I call "god winks"
Is
there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?
I am
truly blessed and grateful to have experienced this and was at the time, even
though it meant another 95 days in and out of hospitals, 60 of which were
straight through......and six months out of work.......and many bills that I
paid completely over the past years.........because I have nothing to fear and I
have written books and given seminars and changed my direction quite a few times
and each move has expanded my life
Did
the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
