Sonia M Possible NDEs
At the time of my first NDE my boyfriend and I had broken up and I was severely depressed (but not so much so that I was suicidal) but extremely distraught.
I remember the first time it happened. I was in bed and could not sleep and kept staring out my bedroom window staring at the stars. I head a slow roar, almost sounded like a distant train coming closer and closer. before I knew it I could see a glorious light and long dark grey tunnel at the foot of my bed. it had the most wonderful glow. from this light I could feel nothing but peace and love emitting from it. the light was so intense and I remember thinking to myself, why doesn't the light hurt my eyes because I have such sensitivity to light. any way, I was looking intently at this light when I saw an image slowly appearing from this light. I watched this image take shape and as it did it was moving towards me in a sort of gliding smooth motion. I could hear this GRAND VOICE that seemed to echo through my head and reverberate through my body as the person took form in someone I knew..my sister in law. but I could here a man's voice speaking to me through her, and as she placed her right hand on my left shoulder, she said ALL WILL BE OK. AND I ASKED HER, WHY CAN'T I JUST GO NOW. AND WITHOUT MOVING HER LIPS SHE COMMUNICATED IT'S NOT TIME. YOU WILL BE OK. IT'S NOT TIME. AND I BEGGED AND PLEADED...WHILE ALL THIS TIME I WAS SOBBING BECAUSE THE LOVE I FELT WAS SO IMMENSE I THOUGHT I'D BURST. SLOWLY THE IMAGE WENT BACK INTO THE LIGHT AND WHEN I WOKE UP IT WAS MORNING. I was very confused about this. I didn't talk to anyone about this.
I chalked it
up to a dream and a few weeks later it happened again. the day it happened again
I was in my room alone and it was just before dusk. I was still pretty heart
broken and really not doing anything but sitting in my room as I had for the
past few weeks. I sat on the edge of my bed crying with sobs that were unknown
to me. I was truly grieving over my break up. I missed my boyfriend so much and
was so sad. I was actually in physical pain and truly prayed to die that night.
I prayed for what seemed hours. I was so tired of questioning my life, my
purpose and asking GOD himself, why AM I HERE? WHAT PURPOSE DO I HAVE? I asked
this over and over. still sobbing with so much pain in my heart. then it
happened, I heard a distant roar..slowly the roar became louder and louder like
I was directly over a train. then suddenly as if I was sucked into a vacuum, I
was transported to my boyfriends condo. I was at the base of the stairs and a
thunderous voice spoke to me and said SEE. and I understood....it was not a
"questioning ...see?" but more like ...see? this is what will happen if you die.
in one swift movement I was taken to the top of the stairs and I could see by
boyfriends son's running past me and yelling and calling out loud to each other.
and I heard one of his son's yell out CALL 911, DAAADD WHAT'S WRONG? DAD! the
voice again said to me, SEE. is this really what you want? and I said no. I felt
myself being sucked into the vacuum again and I woke up.
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? No
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I'd have to say the 2nd time. I was very aware and conscious of what just happened and instantly associated
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. only during the experience was my vision 20/20. I wear glasses and for a split second remember saying wow, everything is so clear
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. hearing was also very keen only during the experience.
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? Uncertain
What emotions did you feel during the experience? the first time I felt lots of love, and warmth that took over my entire being. the second time I just felt loss and anguish knowing that what I was praying for was not going to happen to me but the one I love.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No no I was not allowed to enter
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes the image of GOD did not come through but I felt his presence, I heard the voice of god through the image of my sister in-law who was incidentally still alive and well.
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from my personal future
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? Yes I felt his presence and heard his voice and I had no question in my mind that it was GOD.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? Yes during the first encounter I felt immense love and the second time I was aware of love towards my boyfriend
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? No
What occurred during your experience included: Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
My experience directly resulted in: Slight changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Uncertain honestly not until recently have I really questioned and started talking about it to someone. values and my beliefs have certainly been altered and I am more aware of my own role in life so to speak, but I also feel like I'm just tapping into something even more so profound.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I've started hearing voices and I thought I was going crazy. I started to feel strange energies around me. which just recently I have spoken to someone who has dealt with the same and told me I have medium capabilities
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes about 7 years
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was probably real I was more in disbelief and would revisit the experience in my mind over and over
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was definitely real I don't know what it was but I almost had an epiphany a few months ago and realized that it was real I don't know why it just came to me
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes slowly I'm realizing changes with my faith my life and those whom I love and deal with on a daily basis for the better and I'm not so self conscious of speaking of GOD, my spirituality or faith
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain I suppose its been more of a slow churn to the point I am today with my spirituality but changing for the positive
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes