Sherry W's NDE
I was trying to tell the nurse that I couldn't breathe but, I couldn't speak. Everything went black and I could feel myself drifting away, like a sinking feeling almost. I heard a voice say "we're losing her." then there was a sound almost like static on a TV. with no reception. I found myself looking down at all the commotion. It seemed like I was about ten feet above myself. I could see the doctors and nurses hooking me up to monitors and working on me. All in a frenzy.
I began being
drawn further up, until everything was black again. I found myself in a standing
position, however it was more like floating. I could feel someone next to me. I
didn't have to see them, they were there to guide me, and did so. I turned
around and saw a light in the distance. I was unsure of were we were going but
my guide was there and I was comforted by them. We began going toward the light
at first I thought we were going through a tunnel but, I began looking around I
saw silhouettes of people. It was pitch black and the silhouettes were of a
bright purple. I thought look at all these people to many to give an estimate. I
turned forward again my guide and I traveled closer to the light which was
bigger and brighter than ever. We soon reached a point were we stopped. My guide
stood next to me. This light was brighter than the sun. A wonderful glowing
luminous white light. I stood there with a feeling ,and the best way I can
describe it is, the gut feeling you have when you are scared but, knowing you
are not. I felt scared without being scared or afraid. I was calm. I knew that
if I walked through the light I would have the answers to everything I ever
wanted to know. This light was love, life, and serenity I could feel all this. I
never heard a word spoken. You could feel what you needed to know, and what was
being communicated to you. It was with feelings, not words. I had my choice.
Without words I decided, I had a six month old baby I couldn't leave. I woke up
a couple of days later in I.C.U.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes Finding the right words to describe things. It is hard to give people a sense of what I felt
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes I had taken a bottle of muscle relaxes.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Standing in front of the light.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: It was high enough that I could feel things not said by words, not felt by skin, it flowed through me, the core of me.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes Colors were very bright. It seemed like I could see very long distances.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Uncertain I could hear inside me. There were no sounds and no speaking. I felt everthing.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace love fear of not knowing but assured as well I felt like a child
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Uncertain At first I thought it was a tunnel But I think it was figures of souls around me
Did you see a light? Yes Brighter than anything man will ever see. White glowing luminous.
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes They were everywhere AS far as I could see. I didn't know them, they were watching me. I never saw any faces. I could stay and have knowledge of anything. I could be in peace and love for eternity.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes There was no time. To this day I don't even know how long I was in the hospital.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Uncertain I had the option of knowing anything I wanted.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes I did not cross, but I couldn't come back if I did.
Did you become aware of future events? Yes
Sometimes I have dreams that come true. Sometimes images pop into my mind, and sometimes I feel very strong things from people like how they really are inside, when they are lying to me.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes It is just that I can get a sense of what they are, or how they are feeling inside, I can't describe it. Sometimes I feel like there are spirits around me.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes Years. I think they were in wonder.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real I kept going over it, in my mind, I view it as real, I felt it .
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? Making a choice to come back. I wanted to stay but I could not leave my baby.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real It is still the same. I remember it just as I did then. Nothing has changed, its the same as it was back then.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? Since this experience, Sometimes I dream that Jesus is telling me it's my time to go, but I always stay because of my kids, I wont leave them.
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes