Sergei Probable NDE
Late one afternoon in 2004, I was outside, feeling depressed and on an impulse, knowing full well that I was allergic, I decided to put an end to it all by stinging myself with a bee. Then, when I went home my father saw my swollen eyes and heard my weak voice he decided to send me to hospital. When I got there I could no longer breathe and felt panicked because all I wanted was to breathe. Then I fainted.
Suddenly I was propelled outside of my body and I could see the emergency doctors and another doctor come try to revive me. I could see around me. Everything was very bright and in sharp focus, no blurry vision. Then, looking at the scene I felt myself pulled into a vacuum that I couldn’t see, everything was moving so fast. Then suddenly everything went black. For a moment I thought, hey, where is this, where am I? Then a great fright overtook me. Then a little later I said to myself, come on, calm down you can do it, and suddenly I felt calm and serene. To my great astonishment I saw a brilliant white light that was very tiny then started growing more and more, coming toward me. I felt good and safe, but… when the light enveloped me, an enormous anger was coming from this light and it told me. SUICIDE IS NOT A SOLUTION. RETURN TO EARTH AND START OVER! IF YOU FAIL AGAIN YOU WILL HAVE NO MORE CHANCES, I WILL SEND YOU WHERE YOU MUST GO!! THERE IS A HELL OF HORRIBLE SUFFERING!! YOU HAVE NOT BEEN GOOD! And I replied no no nooooooooo, then in an instant the light that had enveloped me was pulling away. Then, darkness again. Then I woke up in a hospital bed.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No because I felt alive even though I knew my body was dead
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? At the time when I could see my body, I was very lucid.
How did your highest level
of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal
every day consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: At the time when I could see my body, I was very lucid.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes I could see more clearly
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? No
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? A feeling of complete lightness
Did you pass into or
through a tunnel or enclosure?
Yes it was a dark and
Did you see a light? Yes This light was so bright, brighter than the sun.
Did you meet or see any
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? Yes I saw my suicide and sensed an understanding of my act.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Yes It was when I was outside my physical body, I could see the world.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes felt that only the ‘now’ exists
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes Yes!! When the light enveloped me I felt an enormous anger coming from this light because before seeing it I was feeling good and happy. And the light spoke to me. It said, SUICIDE IS NOT A SOLUTION!! RETURN TO EARTH AND START OVER, IF YOU FAIL YOU WON’T HAVE ANOTHER CHANCE TO START OVER! I WILL SEND YOU WHERE YOU MUST GO!!
Did you reach a boundary
or limiting physical structure?
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? No
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I had met people who’d seen a light of love. But for me it was different.
How did you view the
reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:
Experience was definitely real
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? yes!! Like when the light told me there is a hell of suffering !!! it is eternal!! I don’t want to frighten anyone, sorry ! but it’s what the ‘light’ (God, the source) told me.
How do you currently view
the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I am more alert and I am more understanding
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I did not believe in hell or in God, but only in a being without a precise image.
Following the experience,
have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which
reproduced any part of the experience?
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? yes!! That suicide and murders are not a solution, because the place where they’ll end up is not pleasant !
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain
Translation by Kathy