Ryan G NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I was around five years old. To my parents dismay, I began a habit of throwing my toys out the second story window, getting up, and retrieving them so I can do it again. Under the window was a roof that was fed to the side of the house, extending the first floor past the second floor window. There, it slanted slightly downward to face the paved back yard. I would step onto the roof, and pick up my toys. However, this time I slipped, not realizing that it rained this morning. I was really close to the edge of the roof too, so no time to save myself really. 

However, that's the oddest part. One moment I was mentally going the speed of light, and as soon as I slipped, time itself seemed to slow down. I was able to witness and comprehend my so called death. It felt like a life time had passed before the fall was complete. Mid fall, I was thinking a million miles per minute. I was asking myself questions that wouldn't even have mattered at the time. Have I lived long enough? Am I still going to be alive? Is mommy going to be mad? Did I really just die for being so foolish? 

And then it hit me. Or I hit it. The pavement was right where I fell, which was just a couple feet from the soft grass. The next thought in my head as things went black was: Why didn't that hurt? 

The next that floated through me was the realization that I was dead. This strangely didn't surprise me. It was as if I knew all along what death was. I was confused, but at peace. Literally not one worry passed by me. No worries of my own mother, father, or brother were to be felt.  

My surroundings consisted of an almost perfect sight of everything in the veil of black nothing. I was in a void. I noticed that my ability of sight was different. I can see everywhere without even needing to turn my head. I was like an owl, except I can see through anything I can imagine as real. I knew all of this without even seeing anything.  

Suddenly, the pin prick of light starts shining. Creating the tunnel vision effect that accompanies almost all near death experiences. This light was alive. It was breathing, and it had the heart beat of a million souls. It emanated this certain feeling in me that I will always try to get again. This is what I believe the feeling of love is: 

If you know the anvil dropping in your stomach in anticipation of success when you were a child? Like the first time you tasted a favorite food? Or played your first favorite video game? Or when you won that tie breaking baseball game? When you anticipate success, and get it back by more then you asked for, that's the feeling of love.  

Even though it looks like I'm slowly moving towards the light, I know for a fact that I'm going way faster then the speed of light. I personally think the void is the incredibly fast travel of your ethereal body through the universe. Then the light noticed me. I didn't hear anything, but I could think of the light talking to me. It thought to me that it wasn't time for me to go. I thought to it that I knew it wasn't my time.  

Then, unconsciousness. 

Then, just like that, I woke up crying.  I was hurt, but no broken bones. I healed in five days. Then the experience came back to me. I told my parents, who were very supportive.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Yes  I fell to my death trying to pick up toys on my 2 story roof.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes     The feeling of love.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    Both during falling and the void experience.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   Upgraded visual response.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   360 degree vision.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   Couldn't truly hear. I knew I could sense vibration though.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Love, confusion, at ease, anticipation, and subconscious knowledge  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   Yes   Suddenly, the pin prick of light starts shining. Creating the tunnel vision effect that accompanies almost all near death experiences. This light was alive. It was breathing, and it had the heart beat of a million souls. It emanated this certain feeling in me that I will always try to get again. This is what I believe the feeling of love is:

Did you see an unearthly light?   Yes   Suddenly, the pin prick of light starts shining. Creating the tunnel vision effect that accompanies almost all near death experiences. This light was alive. It was breathing, and it had the heart beat of a million souls. It emanated this certain feeling in me that I will always try to get again. This is what I believe the feeling of love is:

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I heard a voice I could not identify


Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No  

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
It was like the flip of a switch.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   Everything about myself or others


Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   Uncertain
The light took me back to my body.

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   I came to a definite conscious decision to "return" to life

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   Yes   affirmed by many other similar experiences I've had.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Uncertain   I thought of the light more as a collective soul.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   The light emanated a cooperative society

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes  

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   Uncertain  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes   The feeling of knowing that this happens all the time.

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   I was only five, so this shaped my belief.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience     

My experience directly resulted in:   Moderate changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes  

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?   The lights love.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Uncertain   I know I see ghosts sometimes, but it is unknown if I gained it, or always had it.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     The lights love.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  Immediately, And all of them supportive.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   No  

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   It just came back to me.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real  

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   Yes   Sometimes I have wonderful, almost inspirational dreams that make me feel good inside. However, those dreams never had clarity such as my experience did.  

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes