Ruth B Probable FDE 4974

Ruth B Probable Fear Death Experience

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

This is going to be hard in English (writer is from France)...

All passengers were ill, accept for me. A crew member felt sorry for me and wanted to entertain me. So he asked if he could take me for a tour around the ship. Captain and my parents agreed. So we went outside while the ship was rolling back and forth and left to right and I looked ahead across the deck as we stepped out of the door. Suddenly I felt afraid too, but in the same split second it was as if I zoomed out (out of myself and out into space). First I saw the immense ocean, than countries alongside than earth and the universe, than universe, as I was pulled into "heaven". As my perspective widened and widened it was accompanied by insights - suddenly I knew how water, climates, the physics worked together, than how people fitted in, how earth was ruled, what was important and what not, than how it all fitted into the universe. I understood "the system" through and through, how it was meant to be. And with my growing insight, a very deep feeling of safety came over me. I was certain to the bone we all should never worry or be afraid - we were very well looked after and cared for, some big force would always prevent us from "real" harm. All that happened had a true meaning and all we had to do was accept that and go along with "it".

Although I was pulled straight up as my horizon widened - I didn't see the things under me - I saw them all around and in a most magnificent light.

As soon as the feeling of great safety came over me, I came back on deck and had a wonderful tour.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     the reaction of those whom I told it to

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain      all the passengers were very afraid (and some of the crew) we would ship wreck

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    It didn't change

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness

            It didn't change

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes     My perspective widened (I zoomed out) but I still saw all the details as well. All I saw was covered in a bright, calm light

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     It was silent. There were noises, but they were not disturbing at all - they seemed to be covered by the light.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I felt very much loved, safe, completely unique but at the same time very much part of a system (as was everything and everybody)

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No

Did you see a light?           Yes     All I saw was covered in a bright, calm light - even the sounds seemed to be effected by the light.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     Later on at High School I tried to "expand" the knowledge presented (Math, Science, Physics) because I "knew" it was incomplete and sometimes utterly wrong - but I couldn't.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes     Universes, but they were not beautiful - they were just "there" as a whole, but at the same time it didn't matter - the important thing was "knowing" that all was part of a bigger system that would always maintain to exist as would we, so that there was no need to ever worry.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes     It was of no importance at all to try and "study" the system or the rules it exists by - it all is very very simple, and deep down we all know what is good and what is bad (for ourselves, health, for nature etc.).

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you become aware of future events?       No


Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Uncertain      Later on I was able to relieve people from pain (with my hands) and sometimes I could sense future illnesses in people - but I let it worn me out and I lost this ability.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I told right after it happened, but no one was interested or understood so I never tried again until very recently.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I thought every child, growing up, would have this experience - as a sign of growing up. And because I was only surrounded by grown-ups, they would already have forgotten they had this experience.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    I came to (finally?) accept what happened to me - accept that this as everything else is part of this bigger plan I do not understand, but just heartily accept.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Uncertain      I can't find the words

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Uncertain      Lately I struggle with the part of my experience that concerns the sounds - as if "muffled" by the light. I come to think more and more that words, language, is highly overestimated. But it will have to do "for now".