Ruth B Probable Fear
This is going to be hard in English (writer is from France)...
All passengers were
ill, accept for me. A crew member felt sorry for me and wanted to entertain me.
So he asked if he could take me for a tour around the ship. Captain and my
parents agreed. So we went outside while the ship was rolling back and forth and
left to right and I looked ahead across the deck as we stepped out of the door.
Suddenly I felt afraid too, but in the same split second it was as if I zoomed
out (out of myself and out into space). First I saw the immense ocean, than
countries alongside than earth and the universe, than universe, as I was pulled
into "heaven". As my perspective widened and widened it was accompanied by
insights - suddenly I knew how water, climates, the physics worked together,
than how people fitted in, how earth was ruled, what was important and what not,
than how it all fitted into the universe. I understood "the system" through and
through, how it was meant to be. And with my growing insight, a very deep
feeling of safety came over me. I was certain to the bone we all should never
worry or be afraid - we were very well looked after and cared for, some big
force would always prevent us from "real" harm. All that happened had a true
meaning and all we had to do was accept that and go along with "it".
Although I was pulled
straight up as my horizon widened - I didn't see the things under me - I saw
them all around and in a most magnificent light.
As soon as the feeling of great safety came over me, I came back on deck and had
a wonderful tour.
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes the reaction of those whom I told it to
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Uncertain all the passengers were very afraid (and some of the crew) we
would ship wreck
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness
It didn't change
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
Normal consciousness and alertness
It didn't change
your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect,
such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes My perspective widened (I zoomed out) but I still saw all the details as
well. All I saw was covered in a bright, calm light
your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
Yes It was silent. There were noises, but they were not
disturbing at all - they seemed to be covered by the light.
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
I felt very much loved, safe, completely unique but at the same time
very much part of a system (as was everything and everybody)
you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
you see a light?
Yes All I saw was covered in a bright, calm light - even the sounds seemed
to be effected by the light.
you meet or see any other beings?
you experience a review of past events in your life?
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
Yes Later on at High School I tried to "expand" the knowledge presented
(Math, Science, Physics) because I "knew" it was incomplete and sometimes
utterly wrong - but I couldn't.
you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
Yes Universes, but they were not beautiful - they were just "there" as a
whole, but at the same time it didn't matter - the important thing was "knowing"
that all was part of a bigger system that would always maintain to exist as
would we, so that there was no need to ever worry.
you have any sense of altered space or time?
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes It was of no importance at all to try and "study" the system or the
rules it exists by - it all is very very simple, and deep down we all know what
is good and what is bad (for ourselves, health, for nature etc.).
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
you become aware of future events?
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
you did not have prior to the experience?
Uncertain Later on I was able to relieve people from pain (with my hands)
and sometimes I could sense future illnesses in people - but I let it worn me
out and I lost this ability.
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes I told right after it happened, but no one was interested or understood
so I never tried again until very recently.
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
Experience was definitely real I thought every child, growing up, would have
this experience - as a sign of growing up. And because I was only surrounded by
grown-ups, they would already have forgotten they had this experience.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
do you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real I came to (finally?) accept what happened to
me - accept that this as everything else is part of this bigger plan I do not
understand, but just heartily accept.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your
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Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Uncertain Lately I struggle with the part of my experience that concerns
the sounds - as if "muffled" by the light. I come to think more and more that
words, language, is highly overestimated. But it will have to do "for now".