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Russell P's NDE

I felt my breathing slowing , then stopping.  Then I was engulfed in light and there was a place -a completely black-place I couldn't see through or break through. The light was warm and inviting and I felt like I was a kid in my grandmother's arms -the only safe place in the world.  I felt myself losing everything  then I heard a woman's voice scream ''NO it is not yet his time ''and I awoke and was in an emergency room with the taste of charcoal in my mouth and mad as hell.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     the glory of it

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     I was trying to over dose

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    Just before I 'came back'.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            Just before I 'came back'.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  No      

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?            No      

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Happiness , that I was finally going home .

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     just a large tunnel of warmth with one black door? that I could not pass through or see through .

Did you see a light?           Yes     can't

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No      

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     There is no such thing as time.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes            Simply that everything was fine and would always be fine.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes     An impenetrable BLACKNESS

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     the Psychiatrist thought I was nuts .

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I wondered then as now why this life is necessary .

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    no matter what I do on this level of existence , I am as insignificant as a dung beetle.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    I needed to know that something else is in charge of affairs .

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I can't sustain a relationship as I have become rather obsessed in discovering the why and where of my existence .

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?           
No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I have in no way done justice to extreme importance of this event . I could type away for days and not express the reality of said event .

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Uncertain      I can't .

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?   Yes -if anyone has ever gotten past or seen the BLACKNESS please contact me .

What could a national organization with an interest in near death experience (NDE) do that would be of most interest to you:           Nothing