Roxanne H's NDE
I AM NOT SURE WHERE TO START. IT WAS DEC 3,2007 MY HUSBAND AND SON WERE JUST STARTING TO GET INVOLVED IN THE CHRISTMAS HOLIDAY. I HAD BEEN TIRED AND NOT EATING VERY WELL THE PAST 2-3 DAYS BUT I THOUGHT IT WAS BECAUSE I WAS BUSY...I DECIDED TO GO UPSTAIRS AND RELAX BUT TO MY AMAZEMENT I GOT SICK TO MY STOMACH. I REMEMBER A DULL BUT PAINFUL PAIN IN MY UPPER BACK. I WAS VERY SHORT OF BREATH. MY HUSBAND OFFERED TO TAKE ME TO THE HOSPITAL BUT SOMEHOW (I'M NOT SURE HOW ) BUT DEEP DOWN I KNEW I WOULD NOT MAKE IT THERE...HE SENT MY 33 YEAR OLD SON UP TO STAY WITH ME BECAUSE I ASKED MY HUSBAND TO CALL 911...THE PRESSURE GOT WORSE I COULDN'T BREATH AND I KNEW THE END WAS NEAR. THE LAST THING I REMEMBER WITH OUT ANY HELP...IS BEING ON MY KNEES AND SCREAMING FOR HELP ...AT ONE POINT I WAS AWAKE ENOUGH TO PULL THE RESPIRATOR OUT OF MY MOUTH...THEN DARKNESS TIME WENT BY VERY FAST. MY HUSBAND SAID THAT AT THAT TIME A DOCTOR TOLD HIM TO GET ME OUT OF THAT HOSPITAL OR I WOULD DIE...THEY (MY FAMILY) HAD ME TRANSFERRED TO SAINT JOSEPH'S HOSPITAL IN BURBANK CALIFORNIA. THAT IS WHEN THEY PUT ME IN A COMA...I AM NOT SURE WHEN MY NDE TOOK PLACE BUT I DID FLAT LINE 7 TIMES I WAS TOLD THIS BY THE STAFF AND THE DOCTORS THAT HELPED ME...THEY NOW CALL ME THE MIRACLE WOMAN...
MY EXPERIENCE WAS THIS
FIRST IT MUST HAVE BEEN DARK I WAS NOT IN MY BODY BUT RATHER A SPIRIT FORM...I DIDN'T WALK BUT FLOATED OR FLU. THE FIRST THINK I REMEMBER IS SEEING AN OLD COUNTRY STORE WITH A WOOD PORCH AND THEIR WERE YOUNG CHILDREN SITTING AROUND TO THEM IT WAS COLD THEY WERE WEARING WINTER CLOTHES, AS I LOOKED CLOSER I THOUGHT I RECOGNIZED THEM AS MY UNCLES WHO ARE NO LONGER WITH US...BUT IT WAS ODD THAT THEY WERE YOUNG CHILDREN, MAYBE THE AGE OF 9 THEY WERE LOOKING AT AN OLD 2 WHEELER BIKE THAT THEY SEEMED VERY EXCITED ABOUT THEY DIDN'T KNOW WHO I WAS I COULD TELL BY THE LOOK ON THEIR FACES. THERE WERE A TOTAL OF 3-4 CHILDREN THERE I SAW THAT THEIR PANTS WERE GETTING WET AND I TOLD THEM "UMMM, GRANDMA IS GOING TO BE SO MAD AT YOU" THEN THEY LOOKED AT ME FOR THE FIRST TIME. AT THAT POINT MY GRANDMOTHERS VOICE AND A VISION OF HER FACE MUCH YOUNGER THAN I REMEMBER CAME AND SAID ..."ROXANNE, COME TO MY HOUSE AND WE CAN MAKE BREAD' This gave me great comfort (MY GRANDMOTHER WAS FAMOUS FOR HER HOMEMADE BREAD AT LEAST IN OUR FAMILY, NOT TO MENTION HER HOME) I REMEMBER BEING AT HER HOUSE FOR AWHILE THERE WERE YOUNG CHILDREN COMING IN AND OUT THAT I THINK WERE MY UNCLES WHO HAVE PASSED ON. IT WAS A FEELING OF BEING IN ANOTHER TIME. I KEPT WAITING FOR THE SMELL OF HOMEMADE BREAD AND COFFEE, BUT INSTEAD WE SAT AT HER TABLE AND SHE SPOKE...'SHE HAD NO REGRETS AS A MOTHER THE ONLY REGRET SHE SAID SHE HAD WAS THAT SHE HAD NEVER TOLD THE CHILDREN HOW PROUD SHE WAS OF ALL OF THEM...AND SHE WISHED SHE COULD TELL THEM THAT ONE THING...
THIS IS WHERE AND WHEN
THINGS CHANGED...I KNOW I WAS SOMEWHERE AND VERY LITTLE LIGHT...THEN IN FRONT OF
ME I SAW BLUE CLOUDS BLUER THAN ANY BLUE YOU CAN IMAGINE WITH BRILLIANT WHITE
CLOUDS FLUFFY WHITE WHITER THAN YOU HAVE EVER SEEN. WHILE LOOKING AT THIS I SAW
GOLD I AM NOT SURE IF IT WAS A TABLE A ROAD OR A FENCE OR ALTER...AS I GOT
CLOSER I SAW A FIGURE AT FIRST I DID NOT KNOW WHO IT WAS SO I GOT EVEN
CLOSER...I SAW JESUS STANDING BEFORE ME I COULDN'T BELIEVE THIS WAS TRUE UNTIL
HE MOVED HE WAS BRILLIANT LOVE RADIATED FROM HIM AND HE KNEW WHO I WAS AND
EVERYTHING ABOUT ME HE WAS PERFECT (FOR LACK OF A BETTER WORD) HIS SKIN HIS HAIR
HIS EYES THEY WERE LIKE NOTHING I HAVE SEEN BEFORE OR SINCE. HIS ROBE WAS WHITE
AND BLUE ALL ON PIECE BUT YET BLENDED INTO ONE GARMENT...HIS GAZE WAS OF
ACCEPTANCE ,RECOGNITION, AND LOVE...HIS ARMS REACHED OUT TO ME AND HIS HANDS
WERE BIDDING ME TO COME CLOSER SO IN EAGERNESS I RAN TO HIM AND ONCE I
APPROACHED HIM WE HUGGED BUT NOT LIKE A HUMAN HUG. THERE WERE NO BONES ..IT WAS
LIKE HIS SPIRIT WENT INTO ME AND MINE INTO HIM AND I WAS AT TOTAL PEACE...THEN I
SAW MYSELF AS A CHILD ABOUT 3-4 NAKED SQUATTING ON THIS PLAT FORM IT WAS
WHITE...THESE GIANT ANGEL WINGS CLOSED AROUND ME AND WHEN THEY CLOSED THERE WAS
A SMALL AMOUNT OF BLOOD NEAR THE BASE OF THE WING...I FELT SAFE AND WARM ...I
CAME BACK KNOWING THAT JESUS LOVES US ALL NO MATTER WHAT. AND HE IS WAITING TO
WELCOME US. HE IS WITH US ALWAYS IN SPRIT...I HAVE NEVER BEEN A BAD PERSON BUT
NOW I WANT TO BE EVEN A BETTER PERSON...THIS EXPERIENCE HAS CHANGED ME AND MY
ATTITUDE TOWARD LIFE...The
7 times I
The 7 times I flat-lined happened within 2 and a half days....
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes There are no words to describe the experience.
Awesome, all consuming, Love, beautiful, feelings are just not good enough
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes I HAD A HEART ATTACK IN MY HOME. AT WHICH POINT I FLAT LINED THERE AND THEN 6 OTHER TIMES AFTER THAT...ALL MY BODY FUNCTIONS STOPPED WORKING, LIVER, KIDNEYS, AND MY SUGAR WENT UP TO 666..I WAS IN A COMMA FOR 3 WEEKS
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? DURING THE TIME I SPENT WITH JESUS AND THE WINGS AND BLOOD
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: DURING THE TIME I SPENT WITH JESUS AND THE WINGS AND BLOOD
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes EVERYTHING WAS DIFFERENT, COLORS WERE BRIGHTER AND CLEARER, FIELD OF VISION WAS SOMEWHAT RESTRICTED...EVERYTHING LOOKED SOLID BUT NOT TO TOUCH...THE FIRST VISION WAS ALMOST BACK AND WHITE OR A BRONZE COLOR TO IT...NOT MUCH COLOR ...BUT AT THE VISION CONTINUED ON THE COLORS BECAME BRIGHTER AND BRIGHTER
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
No WHEN I DID HEAR IT WAS ONLY MY GRANDMOTHERS VOICE CLEAR ...THE CHILDREN WERE TALKING BUT I DON'T REMEMBER WHAT IT WAS ABOUT I THINK IT WAS THE OLD BIKE. AND I DID NOT HEAR JESUS...IT WAS TELEPATHIC
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Uncertain
What emotions did you feel during the experience? CALM, PEACEFUL, CONTENT, EXCITED, LOVED, COMFORTED, SECURE,
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Uncertain I DON'T KNOW HOW I GOT FROM MY GRANDMOTHERS HOUSE TO THE HEAVENS. BUT I KNOW BEHIND ME IT WAS DARK AND FORWARD WAS LIGHT BUT NO TUNNEL OR ENCLOSURE
Did you see a light? Yes SKY, LIGHT, SOMETHING GOLD AND LIGHT SHIMMERING OFF OF JESUS HAIR AND EYES A TYPE OF LIGHT FROM HIS GARMENTS AND SKIN...
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes I SAW MY UNCLES 2 OR 3 OF THEM ...THEY JUST ACKNOWLEDGED ME, MY GRANDMOTHER COMFORTED ME AND TOOK ME TO HER HOME WE HAD A SHORT TALK ABOUT HER ONE REGRET, I SAW JESUS. AND HE COMMUNICATED NOT ONLY GREAT LOVE FOR ME ...BUT THAT SOMEHOW NOW I UNDERSTOOD HOW HE COULD ALSO LOVE EVERYONE WITH A GREAT LOVE ..THAT HIS PRESENCE IS EVERYWHERE AND IN EVERYTHING...
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No I LEARNED THAT ONLY GOD KNOWS WHY WE DO WHAT WE DO AND FOR THE REASONS WE DO THEM THEREFORE HE IS THE ONLY JUDGE
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Yes THE PAST EVEN BEFORE MY TIME, HEAVEN. WHEN I SAW MY GRANDMOTHER IT WAS ALMOST NORMAL...EVEN THOUGH SHE HAS BEEN GONE FOR MANY YEARS..
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes THE FIRST PART WENT FAST ..THE SECOND WENT SLOWER AND THE END WAS THE FASTEST THIS ALL HAPPENED WHILE I WAS IN A COMA...FOR 3 WEEKS...TO ME IT SEEMED LIKE SECONDS...
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes THAT WE CAN LOVE EVERYONE THAT WE SHOULD FORGIVE EVERYONE AND THAT ONLY GOD SHOULD BE THE JUDGE BECAUSE HE KNOWS WHY WE DO THE THINGS WE DO IN OUR HEARTS...
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain THERE WAS SOMETHING GOLD BEHIND JESUS, AND I WAS CURIOUS TO KNOW WHAT IT WAS ...ALSO WHEN I WAS PUT ON THE PLATFORM AND THE WINGS CLOSED I DIDN'T KNOW WHERE I WAS GOING...
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain NOT AWARE OF IT YET
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes TO ANYONE WHO WILL LISTEN EVERY TIME I CAN...SOME PEOPLE CRY, MOST GET CHILLS, SOME SHARE THERE EXPERIENCES WITH ME...AND THEY GO AND TELL SOMEONE
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes FROM THE TV BUT NOT MUCH...
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was probably real I NEVER SAW MY UNCLES AS CHILDREN, THE COLORS WERE WO UNLIKE ANYTHING I HAVE EVER SEEN...AND JESUS THE FEELING I GOT WHEN I SAW HIM AND HUGGED HIM WAS UNLIKE ANYTHING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? ALL OF IT WAS MEANINGFUL...I GOT TO SEE MY GRANDMOTHER, I COULD TELL MY COUSINS I SAW THEIR DAD. I GAVE A MESSAGE TO MY DAD FROM HIS MOM
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real I JUST KNOW IT IS...
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes MY HUSBAND SAYS I HAVE CHANGED AND MY DAUGHTER SAYS I AM NICER SHE IS 36...I TRY TO BE MORE UNDERSTANDING ...I FEEL GREATER LOVE FOR MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY...I FEEL A ONENESS WITH GOD...AND PRAY THAT IF JESUS HAS A MISSION FOR ME THAT I AM OPEN TO RECEIVE IT AND FULFILL IT FOR HIM.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I WAS TAUGHT AND RAISED CATHOLIC. SO I WAS TAUGHT THAT SOMEDAY WE WOULD SEE GOD AND THAT HE LOVED US...BUT NOW I KNOW IT TO BE SO...BECAUSE I FELT IT AND SAW IT...
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? Yes PEOPLE SHARING WITH ME THERE FEELINGS, TALKING TO MY FRIENDS, ALL HAVE A SPIRITUAL PART NOW...EVEN OUR PRIEST AT CHURCH I SHARED WITH ...HIS SERMONS ARE MORE ON LOVE AND FORGIVENESS
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes