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Robyn O NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I was a passenger in a car travelling along a very twisty mountain road with a beautiful fiord on the right. Our car tire blew and we careened across the road and went off a 30 foot cliff.  I remember hitting my head three times as the car tumbled over and over. Then I was floating and all was still and calm.  There was no fear and in a way felt as if there had never been fear.  It was black, enormous and I was everything, everywhere.  I felt like I was huge and tiny at the same time. I felt embraced, cradled, but free and open. This huge tiny expanded space filled with comfort and belonging. I felt alive and joyful. I have heard others describe this as loved and  while it seems more than that, I don't know another word to describe it, except maybe with "God". 

 I heard the driver calling my name and I started flying backward thru a tunnel. I travelled at great speed and distance and at the same time very, very slowly. I was more aware than I had ever been in my life.  I was totally me and also totally all that was.  The tunnel was the most amazing thing I have ever seen/experienced in my life with lights of every color surrounding me, comforting me, delighting me, some how infusing me.  I could feel the vibration of the colors and hear the music of each color and the colors were spinning all around me.  I was in the middle of the lights but part of the lights too.  It seemed like a very long, blissful, and peaceful time and it was so much more.  It was fascination, excitement, laughing, loving, funny, thoughtful, empathetic, sad in a very sweet way: all at the same time.  In a way like any wonderful emotion I had ever experienced, but this time enjoyed to it's fullest potential. Imagine this and then times it by a thousand or ten thousand and then you might be close to my interpretation of my experience.  It must have been seconds or at the most minutes, because as I woke it seemed as if the driver was just completing her sentence. I was upside down with my forehead in a glacial stream. My body was racked with pain, but I felt like the luckiest person in the world and 27 years later I still do. (and somehow I believe this for everyone uniquely and equally). I can not fear death, for myself or for anyone. I had always had "gifts" many of those were gone, but I had something more. I guess it was the comfort of knowing that I was okay and that I would always be okay no matter what was happening to my physical body. 

I also awoke with an amazing gift (I have a click in my head), initially I used it like a Geiger counter to find painful places in myself and others and put my hands there to provide relief/healing/support. Eventually I realized I could do more.  Now I am an intuitive and I hear my intuition and that of people working with me.  Plus lots, lots more.  It took me years of learning how to use it and I continue to be amazed and constantly learning more, but I always knew it was special.  I am not special, just unique like everybody else and I now know I always was even when I did not realize it.     

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Uncertain  shock, head injury, head in a glacier stream.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes     There are not words to explain the magnificence and scale.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    When I was moving backward thru the tunnel

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   I did feel like I was everything, everywhere.  Completely in tune with the universe and more than I have ever been or ever expected to be.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   I was not coming from my eyes but from my entire body which was as big as the horizon which was endless.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   Intense, again very similar to 8.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   Yes   Only my friend calling me.    She was still calling as I woke up. Here calling did catapult me backwards thru the tunnel.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   All that I have ever experienced, in a very positive way.  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   Yes   YES, see NDE.

Did you see an unearthly light?   Uncertain   In the floating place, I remember not only amazing light, but amazing dark: void, endless, intense and incredibly beautiful.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No  

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   A clearly mystical or unearthly realm

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I was everything, everywhere

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   Everything about the universe
yes, that I and everybody were ok and unique and connected.  Everything is.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   Yes
I only feel this as a yes>  I know that when I started backwards in the tunnel, I had hit (this is the wrong word??) something. Some barrier.

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was "sent back" against my will
Not sure how to answer, I was flying backwards to my friend.  It did not feel like a choice, but equally it did not feel like it was against my will.  It was incredibly peaceful.

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   Yes   The feeling of connectedness with the universe.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Uncertain   My interpretation was of great knowledge of self and belonging and peace and joy (etc).  God is a word that works (because I don't know another), but it felt like more to me. (than I expected as a catholic)

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   Yes   I felt that I always existed and always had and always will (and maybe all at the same time)

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   I  felt that I always existed and always had and always will (and maybe all at the same time)

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   Yes  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes   Love (again the wrong word) bliss, joy, sad, everything (not anger) was in every space (all of me and all of the universe and more)

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes   I know I will always be ok.  I know I am amazing and so is everything.

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   I didn't really believe in God and now I do believe in the more than God that I experienced and I believe that for everyone/everything.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience   Whenever I recall the experience, I am instantly a higher energy than is my norm.

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   I work as a spiritual healer and intuitive from the gifts I received upon awakening.

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?  
Yes   Everyone is unique.  No one is special.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?   Every millisecond.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Yes   Yes, I am a psychic, healer, intuitive, gifted person with a audible click in my head that allows others to hear their own intuition and learn to trust it for themselves.  I am clairaudient, clairsentient, clairvoyant and more.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?    
Every millisecond.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?  
Yes  Not like this.  I don't remember who I first told.  I think the doctor or my friends in the ambulance. I have always talked about the tunnel. I don't remember their reaction.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   Yes   I am sure I had heard of it, but more for people who died and then were resuscitated.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   I was incredible pain, but I felt incredibly lucky (not in a religious way).

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   I can still feel a little of it every time I think about it.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   I think 95percent of my current friends are on a spiritual (non-religious) quest.

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   I don't feel that God has any expectations of me, we accepts me and supports me just the way I am.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   Yes   I can go to a tiny fraction of that place.  Some of my clients, can join me there.  

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes   Thank you, it is amazing to look more closely at my experience.   

What could a national organization with an interest in near death experience (NDE) do that would be of interest to you?        I'm not sure.  I purposely did not look around your website prior to writing this.

Please offer any suggestions that you may have to improve this questionnaire.  Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience?                    I tried to turn this form in before and it says timed out.