EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
I was a passenger in a car travelling along a very twisty mountain road
with a beautiful fiord on the right. Our car tire blew and we careened across
the road and went off a 30 foot cliff.
I remember hitting my head three times as the car tumbled over and over.
Then I was floating and all was still and calm.
There was no fear and in a way felt as if there had never been fear.
It was black, enormous and I was everything, everywhere.
I felt like I was huge and tiny at the same time. I felt embraced,
cradled, but free and open. This huge tiny expanded space filled with comfort
and belonging. I felt alive and joyful. I have heard others describe this as
loved and while it seems more than
that, I don't know another word to describe it, except maybe with "God".
I heard the driver calling my name and I
started flying backward thru a tunnel. I travelled at great speed and distance
and at the same time very, very slowly. I was more aware than I had ever been in
my life. I was totally me and also
totally all that was. The tunnel was
the most amazing thing I have ever seen/experienced in my life with lights of
every color surrounding me, comforting me, delighting me, some how infusing me.
I could feel the vibration of the colors and hear the music of each color
and the colors were spinning all around me.
I was in the middle of the lights but part of the lights too.
It seemed like a very long, blissful, and peaceful time and it was so
much more. It was fascination,
excitement, laughing, loving, funny, thoughtful, empathetic, sad in a very sweet
way: all at the same time. In a way
like any wonderful emotion I had ever experienced, but this time enjoyed to it's
fullest potential. Imagine this and then times it by a thousand or ten thousand
and then you might be close to my interpretation of my experience.
It must have been seconds or at the most minutes, because as I woke it
seemed as if the driver was just completing her sentence. I was upside down with
my forehead in a glacial stream. My body was racked with pain, but I felt like
the luckiest person in the world and 27 years later I still do. (and somehow I
believe this for everyone uniquely and equally). I can not fear death, for
myself or for anyone. I had always had "gifts" many of those were gone, but I
had something more. I guess it was the comfort of knowing that I was okay and
that I would always be okay no matter what was happening to my physical body.
I also awoke with an amazing gift (I have a click in my head), initially I used
it like a Geiger counter to find painful places in myself and others and put my
hands there to provide relief/healing/support. Eventually I realized I could do
more. Now I am an intuitive and I
hear my intuition and that of people working with me.
Plus lots, lots more. It took
me years of learning how to use it and I continue to be amazed and constantly
learning more, but I always knew it was special.
I am not special, just unique like everybody else and I now know I always
was even when I did not realize it.
At the time of your experience was there an
associated life-threatening event?
Uncertain
shock, head injury, head in a glacier
stream.
Was
the experience difficult to express in words?
Yes
There are not words to explain the
magnificence and scale.
At what time during the
experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and
alertness?
When I was moving backward thru the tunnel
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness
than normal
I did feel like I was everything,
everywhere. Completely in tune with the
universe and more than I have ever been or ever expected to be.
Please compare your vision during the experience to
your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the
experience.
I was not coming from my eyes but from my entire body which
was as big as the horizon which was endless.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to
your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the
experience.
Intense, again very similar to 8.
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were
occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your
physical / earthly body?
Yes
Only my friend calling me.
She was still calling as I woke up. Here calling did catapult me
backwards thru the tunnel.
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
All that I have ever experienced, in a very positive way.
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel?
Yes
YES, see NDE.
Did
you see an unearthly light?
Uncertain
In the floating place, I remember not only
amazing light, but amazing dark: void, endless, intense and incredibly
beautiful.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or
presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?
No
Did
you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who
are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?
No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or
alive) beings?
No
Did you become aware of past events in your life
during your experience?
No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?
A clearly
mystical or unearthly realm
Did time seem to speed up or slow down?
Everything
seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I was everything, everywhere
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?
Everything
about the universe
yes, that I and everybody were ok and unique and
connected. Everything is.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes
I only feel this as a yes>
I know that when I started backwards in the tunnel, I had hit (this is
the wrong word??) something. Some barrier.
Did you come to a border or point of no return?
I came to a
barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was "sent back" against my will
Not sure how to answer, I was flying backwards to
my friend. It did not feel like a choice,
but equally it did not feel like it was against my will.
It was incredibly peaceful.
Did scenes from the future come to you?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any
specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not)
continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?
Yes
The feeling of connectedness with the
universe.
During your experience, did you encounter any
specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or
does not) exist?
Uncertain
My interpretation was of great knowledge
of self and belonging and peace and joy (etc).
God is a word that works (because I don't know another), but it felt like
more to me. (than I expected as a catholic)
During your experience, did you encounter any
specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to
this lifetime?
Yes
I felt that I always existed and always
had and always will (and maybe all at the same time)
During your experience, did you encounter any
specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or
unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?
Yes
I
felt that I always existed and always had and always will (and maybe all at the
same time)
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?
Yes
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding love?
Yes
Love (again the wrong word) bliss, joy,
sad, everything (not anger) was in every space (all of me and all of the
universe and more)
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information /
awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living
our earthly lives?
No
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?
Yes
I know I will always be ok.
I know I am amazing and so is everything.
What
occurred during your experience included:
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the
beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I didn't really believe in God and now I do
believe in the more than God that I experienced and I believe that for
everyone/everything.
How
accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events
that occurred around the time of the experience?
I remember the experience more
accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the
experience
Whenever I recall the experience, I am
instantly a higher energy than is my norm.
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life
after your experience:
I work as a
spiritual healer and intuitive from the gifts I received upon awakening.
My experience directly resulted in:
Large changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that
occurred as a result of the experience?
Yes
Everyone is unique.
No one is special.
Are
there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or
significant to you?
Every
millisecond.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other
special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?
Yes
Yes, I am a psychic, healer, intuitive,
gifted person with a audible click in my head that allows others to hear their
own intuition and learn to trust it for themselves.
I am clairaudient, clairsentient, clairvoyant and more.
Are there one or several parts of your experience
that are especially meaningful or significant to you?
Every millisecond.
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
Yes
Not like this.
I don't remember who I first told.
I think the doctor or my friends in the ambulance. I have always talked about
the tunnel. I don't remember their reaction.
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Yes
I am sure I had heard of it, but more for
people who died and then were resuscitated.
What
did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks)
after it happened:
Experience was
definitely real
I was incredible pain, but I felt
incredibly lucky (not in a religious way).
What
do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:
Experience was definitely real
I can still feel a little of it every time
I think about it.
Have your relationships changed
specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
I think
95percent of my current friends are on a spiritual (non-religious) quest.
Have your religious
beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
I don't feel
that God has any expectations of me, we accepts me and supports me just the way
I am.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the
experience?
Yes
I can go to a tiny fraction of that place.
Some of my clients, can join me there.
Did the questions asked and information that you
provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
Thank you, it is amazing to look more
closely at my experience.
What could a national organization
with an interest in near death experience (NDE) do that would be of interest to
you?
I'm not sure.
I purposely did not look around your website prior to writing this.
Please offer any suggestions that
you may have to improve this questionnaire.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate
your experience? I tried to turn
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