Robert Probable NDE 5050
I was 12 years old when I had my near death experience. I had a harmless surgery on my lacrimal ducts. Some difficulties arose but thatís all I know.
At that time, there were many problems surrounding me and I couldnít find my place within my family. I always thought this was the reason I was allowed to live this experience.
During surgery, I didnít see myself outside of my body. I remember this beautiful landscape: a garden, a little stream, a bridge and this amazing and intense light. I had a conversation with a lady who was near a tree. The conversation was through our thoughts and she kept smiling, her lips were not moving. Her message was clear: I had to go back because I still had things to accomplish. I remember resisting and wanting to stay with her because I finally felt at peace. And then, there was this man on the other side of the bridge. He only glanced at me once and I knew I couldnít stay.
And then I woke up. When I tried to explain what happened, nobody listened to me. Everyone said it had been a dream. But me, with my 12 years of age, I knew I had gone somewhere and it had been real.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes I canít explain the total well being I felt from the light and nothing compares to it.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No Usually no. It was supposed to be a harmless surgery. Apparently there were some complications.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was in the garden.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness when I was in the garden.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes Itís hard to explain but it was as if there was nothing behind me except for the light, and the scene I saw in front of me was like in a blockÖ. very difficult to explain.
Did your hearing differ in any
way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability
to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love, happiness and I did not want to leave
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No
Did you see a light? Yes, I was surrounded by light, even myself
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes I described everything in my text. However, I have no idea who it could have been.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Uncertain I donít remember!
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes Since then, Iíve always had the feeling some people needed my help.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain Iím always analyzing myself and I always have weird feelings at some places. I am presently self-analyzing myself.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes 7 years later Iíve spoken about it to my partner. He reacted well but does he believe me? I donít know. We have never talked about it again.
Did you have any knowledge of
near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No I was only 12 years old!!
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? No
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Certainly
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes When I was a teenager, I threw myself into religion.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes