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Ricardo H NDE |
EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
I was riding my motorbike on a main arterial road to the south of Mexico City,
crossing over the Avenida Desierto de Los Leones. It was about 12.30 or so. As I
braked, the rear brake calliper failed, I was aware of it just from the grating
sound it made. As soon as I realized what was wrong I started to shout "Watch
out! Watch out!" I only had time to say it twice. With a collision imminent I
just had time to look at the scene and try to maneuver in some way. With little
choice, the best I could think of was to steer between vehicles even though the
lack of space made it difficult to get the bike through. Then I stopped shouting
"Watch out!" I was no longer aware of my surroundings, no pain, I did not know
what happened, but I started seeing scenes from my life, like snapshots of my
loved ones, friends and acquaintances. It wasn't like a film, I saw still images
one after the other of my loved ones etc, just like photographs of them, and all
appearing just as I was used to seeing them, playing, working, resting, etc, I
had a strange feeling of desperation, oppression, suffocation, while I witnessed
all these scenes.
Then I saw people in front of me, I didn't know what was going on, I could hear a lady's voice saying to me: "Call your family," at the same time as I felt suffocated. That's when I reacted, I was stifling, I needed to take a breath, a deep breath, I didn't understand what was going on, what I was doing there, where I came from and where I was going to, I didn't even know who I was, who my family were, what they were talking about when they said "family". The only thing that came to mind was someone's name. Who? I didn't know, I just had the name in my head, so I looked for it on my cell phone and found it and called him. I said I had had an accident, so he asked where I was, and though I was still confused I could see the street names and gave him my location. "I'm on my way!" he said, and hung up.
I rang him straight back and asked him what I was doing there, where had I been
coming from and where was I going. When he answered me I was able to tie things
up and so organize my thoughts and memory, but I still did not know what my
friend even looked like, I couldn't recall him. As the minutes passed I could
recall more and more things, but it took around 6 hours to recover my memory
completely. While I was waiting for my friend I was scared, I wanted to to
locate the voice of the lady who told me, "Call your family", but she was no
longer around, there were just the driver and passengers of the van which I had
struck on the driver's door side. I could see the door was all dented. As I
looked round me trying to understand more, I could see these people looking
alarmed. The driver said "Lucky bastard! I thought you were dead, my buddy took
you off your bike, you were stuck on top of the van without falling off your
bike!" When I heard this I didn't understand why I didn't even bounce off, I was
in shock and more scared than ever. I began asking questions, to hear their
versions of the event. When I spoke to the co-driver of the van, the first thing
he said was "Lucky bastard", the same words as his friend - "we thought you were
dead". They were pacing from side to side. What most amazed me at that moment
were all the images of my dear ones and acquaintances, I couldn't stop thinking
about it, and as I continued my questions I was told that I had died, that is I
did not have my eyes closed, they were open and I believe I had stopped
breathing. That is why when I came round the first thing my organism needed was
air to breathe. When the ambulance came the paramedics checked me out and
determined that nothing was broken, though the helmet I was wearing split in
two, as my head struck the door-frame. Thank God the only thing damaged was the
helmet, they did a CT scan but found only some cerebral inflammation, no clots,
no excess fluid, no tumor. I am still in shock 2 weeks later, it scares me when
I recall it, because the omnipotent God, in the name of his holy Son Jesus
Christ allowed me to go on living. He took more of a hand than ever in my life
and this weighs on me, as the days of life remaining to me have to be for doing
positive things on earth, it is not enough just to live, we have to live by
loving one another.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Uncertain. It was something incredible, I believe it since it happened to me,
but if someone else told me about it I would have trouble believing it.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes. It was an accident on my motorbike.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and alertness?
No particular time.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
Less consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was
different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please
explain:
No particular time.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any
aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception
degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes. Just the vision of my life lived.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
etc.)?
No
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Anguish, fear, desperation.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
Yes, confinement, something was pressing in on me.
Did you see a light?
No
Did you meet or see any other beings?
No
Did you experience a review of past events in your life?
Yes. I just saw images of my loved ones and acquaintances, all of them.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your
experience that could be verified later?
No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes. I did not know what I was doing there, who I was, where I was coming from
or going to. I couldn't remember any faces when I recovered consciousness, until
some minutes had passed.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
Yes, that if I am alive it is in order to be a good human being towards others,
that money does not matter, at any moment we leave this world and it is not
worth being anxious, as long as there is a way to be of benefit to our loved
ones, that is what matters.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did you become aware of future events?
No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the
experience you did not have prior to the experience?
No
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes two days went by in which I shared the experience with other people, I don't
know if it had any influence on them.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your
experience?
No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened?
Experience was definitely real. It was enough to recover consciousness to
realize that everything was really, truly real.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
The most critical was when I was choking, I felt that I was losing air, I was
suffocating.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was definitely real. Very real, so real that I must be more attentive
to living, there is only one life.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes. I am more loving and attentive.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes