Renee M NDE
Integration Experience 4/14/13 & 1/18/11
EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION 4/14/13
It was a beautiful fall day Nov. 2 2003. The weekend of the celebration of Halloween. The weather at this time in North America was very unpredictable. This day was a beautiful fall day warm enough for sightseeing and a nice relaxing motorcycle ride with friends. Little did I know the universe had other plans of how this day would end?
Suddenly it all happens so fast. I could see myself outside of my body. My soul
was above my body floating around as if I had turned into a magical Firefly.
But I was lying in a ditch in some water unconscious.
Bleeding from the head with a badly broken jaw.
My heart had stopped beating. I could see it.
My heart was lying outside of my chest and it was not beating.
Strangely just like watching a big screen
movie I could hear
everything going on around me
but I was died.
How could this be? I could
hear the police and paramedicΓÇÖs talking about needing to resuscitate me and
how much blood I had lost. It was
over three pints and that is enough to stop the flow of to any heart.
I heard the life plight land and still I can feel the air blowing
everything around as if it were happening to me now.
I am watching my life unfold right in
front of me like a bad dream only it does not feel bad at all. I can see my
surroundings but do not feel any physical pain or emotional stress.
My emotions are heightened accelerated into pure light energy where there
is no space or time. I feel more alive than I have ever felt in my life. There
is no words to describe this ascended transformation. It is not humanly
conceivable for man to remotely understand.
If you could image all of the sudden your soul
being ripped wide open and then saw your heart lying on your chest
outside of your body as everything inside starts to flow into this superior
atmosphere of powerful light and energy.
A supernatural dimension maybe even a whole separate galaxy that
co-exists in the heavens or perhaps it is closer to us than we think? This
powerful energy had control over the heavens and planets and it was pulling me,
morphing me into it. I became this all knowing all powerful amazing incredible
light of energy! Needless to say I will never be the same.
The light of all creation just manifested itself into me.
You do not see and feel in this powerful light energy as we know this to operate
here on earth as of our five senses. People always ask me.
What did you see? Did you
Okay, I will do the best to explain, I can say I was almost instantaneously
after the feeling of floating upward into this massive soft, Loving
intriguingly beautiful bright light that
transformed me and sucked me into its magical atmosphere "merged with
GodΓÇ¥ I instantly became all knowing. I became a part of the creator itself. I
had no known memory of the feelings of separation of anything.
This may be hard for most to understand but I had been there before. You
can never be saturated from yourself and death is an Earth created illusion and
illness. Come back where? I never
left. This is a dimensional world
that has levels and planes.
Dimensional frequencies that can be
moved higher, lower, brighter, slower, faster designed into manifestation thus
leading us to other planes and different dimensions of existence.
The strange thing now is not what will happen now but more interestingly wishing to know how it is happening and why, with no fear I must add. Fear is another illusion. It has taken me all these years just to get a realization and awareness of what an observer is like. I developed a strange mind in that it is accelerating faster than I could possibly keep up with. It intuitively and clearly does not care of my understanding of the processes of what is happening or as to what has happened and furthermore what is to be. It just cares about the feelings behind the processes right now this moment! That is all that matters and that is all that is even a reality to this transformed mind. Do not try to analyze the possess, I am told it is not where your powers and talents are needed.
My spirit guides which I am dependent on in all totality, tell me that I have
tapped into the mind of God and this power knows all. It has the knowledge and
power to control the material world and beyond. They tell me I must control my
feelings and thoughts and stay connected 24/7 with the universal laws of energy
that our creator has uniquely designed for our success and happiness.
Do not worry your pretty little head as to the process for it is in
GodΓÇÖs Hands. You are not in control now.
Just stay close to this plan and your life will blossom like a newly
created flower that breaths life as if it were part of the master plan.
I came back to Earth with a different mind operating system. The rules of this
land (meaning created laws) no longer apply to me. This intuitive mind operates
all on its own. Heavenly Angelic powers are all around me. Fear is just another
illusionary created word. Universal
causes cannot be lower than the universal effects. The source of the streams of
universal life and the cosmic mind must be above the level of their
manifestations. Since my out of body I find myself effortlessly moving in and
out of my body. I lose track of time, days and months go by as if they never
existed. It is as if someone other than myself is using me in some other
dimension, somewhere other than here
on planet earth but I am functioning as well as possible all the while this is
Age just one more added illusion illness that we have created to be a part of
life as we know it here on planet Earth. This may come as shock to you
but is true nonetheless "We are Immortal spiritual being " having a human
experience. The separations we have created here has been nothing more an
ignorant mind set to create fear. There has to be an opposite something always.
Life-Death, Good-Bad, Happy-Sad. There is nothing separate in the infinite
universe and that would include the terrorist standing right next to you. We are
all pieces of one created puzzle. It is true that love is the answer.
The earth's vibrational patterns are changing at a very accelerated pace.
Our emotional patterns DNA and brain frequencies are changing. There is a divine
magnetic pull infusing thought patterns and vibrational energies. These are
truly exciting magical times ahead.
The one law that will never change is the law of "Free Will" Ask and it is given, seek and ye shall find, knock and the door is open. As my Angel guide's tell me very clearly, they will not come unless invited. It is always about free will. Another shocker "We are already Free" But that is to each their choice. We are all on different levels of understanding of allowable choices and spiritual awareness of self. It is the awareness of spirit that will lead us to the knowledge and understanding needed to transform and transcend into places unimaginable and incomprehensible to man. Please let me assure you this is only a small part of what is in store for the transcendent soul that follows that "knowing" of the creator of life. I Am of all things created.
Man has been given power and dominion
over all created things. God is the gift giver. We must be grateful and
praise the infinite power of the creator of all living things and beyond.
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? No mmm not in this life
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The Earthly Human words & feelings mean nothing in comparison to turning into the all of everything. There are no feelings or words to even honor this question. All I can say is look into my face and see if something resonates with the other parts of Gods puzzle "You" and "I" fit into the "IAM" of everything created.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? none I was in a coma then induced into a coma for fear of brain swelling. Not sure how long it was induced?
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal I could not remember anything. My mouth was wired shut and could not eat or talk. I was still out of my body. I did not want to go back into it but some way knew I was going to eventually have too. I was walking around the hospital touching people and Healing them and helping them not be afraid to cross if it was there time to go.
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My visions are non Earthly. I see way past the human eye. I am a hypersensitive empath and have heightened Psychic abilities. I have always had this but now study ways to draw it out. I am a born healer.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It took me about a year or so before I could get a grip on who I was before. I am not the same! I believe my physical hearing was close to the same but again with a broken jaw and head trauma I had a lot of healing to do.
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? Yes I could hear, and see everything. I see the paramedics cutting my shirt and sticking the tube down my thought. I here the life flight landing and the people running all around me. Lifting me onto a table, not to move my neck and head. I also see my blood flowing out of my head and choking me.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was not there I was floating up into the light! Just try to imagine feeling no separation from anything you ever knew or loved.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain Everything was more of waves of energy. Colors and vibrations.
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The colors were attached to vibrations and they were unearthly and intensely vibrant. They moved with the vibrations of energy. There is no word of color here for this experience what we perceive as color.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
I intensely felt the presence of God and his army of light. It was as if I was the arm of the puzzle of all created things.
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Uncertain I felt many distinct energies that flow into this one source of light and that is the energy that was pulling me into it along with the other distinct colorfully beautiful light energies (Angels). Like a melting pot of indescribable magnificence.
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No I was not separate from anything there including others on earth or died.
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? No No memory of anything! All was forgotten! Nothing separated me from this light:)
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The 'I' was all that is.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
There was no time. No speed! No Slow! No Time! Only 'Being'
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Yes, I can not explain this in words to make any human remotely understand the impact on human nature that unfolds when taken to other higher dimensions of existence. Each one unique to its own.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was "sent back" against my will
My Guardian Angel lead me back into my body! I may have put up a fight at this time. I remember how uncomfortable I started feeling when physically trying to reconnect to human form. They had to strap me down in bed and was trying to scream with a wired shut mouth on the seventh day in ICU. I think I was out of my body for seven days until then. I was behind the doctors when they were operating on my jaw. I herd opera music too.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Uncertain but I do remember healing people in the hospital out of my body. Also helping them cross over.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (life after death)? Yes I realized that we are all energy created from this one energy source that will always exist in the vibrational patterns of our desired will.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? Yes Yes the all Mighty is real and controls the heavens, planets, galixsys, It is the infinity of everything. The beginning and end in earthly words!
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? Yes I have always existed as a part of this patterned energy.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? Yes Magically created we are all one with a chosen will. We will make a choice to connect to our other parts as they fit together universally(LoVe). Transforming the universal knowledge bank into the all of everything created Merging by choice with our creator into the light of our home. It is a dimensional transformation of our spiritual souls. This controls the mass of our own creation. We create yourself here in this human form! We know how to fix US!!
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly lifes meaning or purpose? No Do not separate things
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly lifes difficulties, challenges, or hardships? No Do not separate things
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? Yes You are love and love is Gods vibrational energy. Without God you have no love. It can not exist in lower vibrational frequencies.
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? No WE are spiritual being living in a human experience
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? Yes I know things I do not know I know
What occurred during your experience included: Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I am NOT judgmental of people and what they see as truth. We all see things in different mindsets and frequency levels that are needed at the time and place in our life. We are unique to the world
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember the out of body fluently
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience: I was always a caring person but now all those feelings are heightened ten fold. I have found a source within that will draw me into my authentic natal self that is surprisingly much like Jesus, Buddha and other amazing super heroes in history.
My experience directly resulted in: Large changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? No I am a healer and an Angelic light worker. My only goal is to please God and save others from harming their self or others.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I believe they were always there but now they can not be held back from the unawareness of them. I think I still have some undiscovered gifts yet to blossom.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? being sucked into the light of all creation!! That just about says it!!! I will never be the same. Thank God!
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes They think it is a side effect of post traumatic stress disorder
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No not much other than what I was taught of heaven and hell.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely not real I was out of life in many ways after. remember I could not talk or eat for two months.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was definitely real I am a believer in the unknown and invisible powers that be.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes It is hard for others too with this change. Husband, children, friends. I spend a lot of time alone
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I do not go to the church but am closer to God and more spiritual than ever. I go to actual healing groups in peoples homes. We heal each other and the world together
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No no
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Life begins where it ends
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes I was completely honest. It was to the best of my remembrance of understanding
EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION 1/18/11
Motor Bike accident. Flu of the back hit something, a reflector cut my head, Brock my jaw, hit the ditch very hard and lying in water. Lost three pints of blood with cut above my left ear by the hair line. My friend was there trying to tell me to stay with her and everything would be ok. I stayed for a bit but my soul passed the life flight when it was fling down on me. I died and they came and resuscitated me and that is the only reason I am back here on this planet. I herd and saw almost everything. I see the fleshing cop lights and here the radio's and people talking telling me to stay but I felt wonderful out of my body. I want to go back. I try to meditate and leave my body all the time. It feels safe and calm.
I could never descried
this and have you understand!!! It is not in our vocabulary and the feeling is
something we do not feel here. You would say it is not real and yet it is more
real then you will ever know here on this planet in this time in space. It is so
close and simple yet so far away, so close but untouchable. I spend all my time
and concentration on feeling just a touch of that incredibleness but can not
seem to reach it in the same feeling I remember. Sometimes in my sleep or
meditation I will start to feel some separation from my body and I love that!! I
do not fear! I have sprite guides and the universal divine to protect me. I was
there and know I will go back some day there for I am not afraid. I would walk
around the hospital outside my body watching and talking to the very sick
people. I think I may of healed a few of them. Because of my memory problem and
also my mouth was wired shut so I could not talk I could not ask questions about
what was happening to me and people knew I could not talk to them so I separated
myself from my body so I could follow people and talk to sick people. I would
scream a night in ICU and they had to strap me down because I did not think
there was any thing wrong with me and NEEDED to go to work and home. They would
not let me up so I left my body.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes ? People will not understand and there are no words to explain it
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes My husband and I were together on a motor bike and hit head on a car and both flu off. I hit something? A reflector cut my head, head hit the ditch and was lying in water bleeding from the head (three pints). I saw them resuscitating me and putting the tube in my thought. I saw it all and herd them as well
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? Unconscious in and out at first. Then at hospital I was induced to stop the swelling. I still was outside my body the whole time even some time when I first got home. I still think I am just watching Renee make movies
Was the experience dream like in any way? Sometimes but It felt more like a movie
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes I am a spirit attached to this person Renee but we go places together.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I had a lot of memory loss and for a wile I did not know who I was. I sill to this day know I am not the same person I was before this happened. The feelings were sadness, lost, a lot of floating though the day and sleep, time warp, time flew by about a year and 1/2 before I want back to work. Everyone knows I am different.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? I herd the life flight. Beeps of radios and phones. Someone talking fast and loud.
I felt the air moving
around me but I was way up over my body in the light looking down. Not afraid
peaceful floating light. I felt spirits around me but saw nothing but white,
yellow, gold light.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? No just light and felt spirits around me
Did you see a light? Yes mostly Wight some yellow, gold
Did you meet or see any other beings? No I felt them!
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? Yes
I tried to move things in the hospital. Also when they put me under to fix my badly broken jaw. as I was under I herd everything !!The tools clicking the doctor's breathing. I was standing outside my body watching them fix my jaw. I was right behind them in the room. I felt NO PAIN !!!
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Uncertain
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes I felt no pain,
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes I still do...I was and still am a time warp.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes I care for my self and people on a totally different plane. An unexplained deeper love. I believe we are all connected and need to help each other and our planet.
I am much more grateful
and loving on a deeper level than most people even understand.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes I can not put it in words for it has no words that fit!!! I was in the light and wanted to stay. I knew that my family, son, husband and friends would be fine and I knew I would feel them again soon so I was so comfortable with what I knew. NO FEAR OF ANYTHING!!! I could not leave but something sent me back ? to this place?
Did you become aware of future events? No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? No I did not what to come back to earth and that is where the body was. Something pushed me back into my body
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Yes A big awareness wake up to the point of changing me totally! Allowing my subconscious mind to take control of my decisions. Some were very good and some were very bad. I healed myself
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes seeking information on all kind of things. Religious beliefs changed and broadened
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? It has totally changed me in almost every way. I am not afraid to die. I meditate at least one hr a day every day. I try and leave my body and think I do it without knowing all the time.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes my life is much more peaceful and my brain is calm. I am more creative and step out of the box without fear. I love deeper so deep I think sometimes people can not even feel or see how deep it truly is do to there self hate.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes some what but no one I know understands and thinks I am messed up from it
What emotions did you experience following your experience? Sad, angry, lonely, Mad I had to come back. Awareness of all the problems and lonely greedy people in this world that need my help.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? best I can not put into words... if I could better than heaven.
worst feeling misplaced
and not remembering a lot of things
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? Yes A very long time ago Ecstasy. I will never forget it!!!
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes