Randall C NDE
I had arrived at the heart clinic for my appointment to have my CRT-D device evaluated. The EKG leads were attached and the wand was placed over my CRT-D device for the test. The nurse practitioner was new and during the evaluation she apparently did not realize that since my most recent A-V ablation surgery that my heart is 100 percent dependant upon my device to keep beating. I guess a common test for patients that are not totally dependant upon the device is to turn off the pacing to monitor how the heart functions without assistance. Well at the instant she turned off my device my heart stopped beating. At that same instant I went into a dark place, I had a feeling of complete peace and contentment and a kind of mild euphoria. Just as I began to feel that something else was beginning to occur I was brought back, as the nurse had realized her mistake and turned my pacing device back on. When I first came back the first thing I saw was my regular nurse standing there asking me over and over, are you OK?
The nurse was obviously very scared and was shaking because of what she had done. My regular nurse was there with her and then the representative from the company came running in as well. They were all very concerned that I was OK.
Looking back, I almost
feel cheated that I wasn't able to go further into cardiac arrest to experience
my own near death experience more completely before being brought back!
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain I experienced instant complete darkness. I felt contentment, peace, a kind of mild euphoria, I seemed to feel that something else was changing but I was brought back to the present too soon to really know.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I wasn't dead long enough to answer this question.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: I wasn't dead long enough to answer this question.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Uncertain I ran out of time to accurately say.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Uncertain I ran out of time to accurately say.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I ran out of time to accurately say.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No
Did you see a light? No
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? No
Have you shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real I can't get through a day without wishing that I could have had more time in cardiac arrest to go further into my NDE!
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? The feeling of complete peace and contentment was fantastic and wonderful while it lasted.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real The experience was definitely real and I want to go back and be able to go much further into my own NDE!
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I want to go back to experience more!
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Your questionnaire is very well thought out and asks all the right questions.