Paulina D Probable NDE
My friend and I were excited and making decisions for her up coming wedding, my laughter was silenced by sudden, unrelenting, pain, that sent sheer terror through my body. Quick trip to the emergency room, x-rays and tests, no help in determining the origin of the excruciating pain, found myself in a hospital room, being shot up with drugs, which apparently knocked me out for a period of time, however upon waking up I would pull out my IVs, jump out of bed and run, like a wounded animal, around my hospital room, till another shot was administered. This went on for about six hours. It was midnight and I remember the doctor telling my husband, as they were wheeling me to the operating room, we have no idea what is wrong but we have to operate. your wife is in trouble, her stomach has extended as if she were nine months pregnant. The only thoughts in my mind were I just wan t to die, they lifted me onto the operating table. My body was lying there on the table, but I was up in the corner ceiling of the operating room looking down on my body, it did not feel as if my body were with me just my mind and eyes, no feeling of fear, just oh so this is how it ends, complete acceptance.
Do not remember anything else, except waking up hours later. The doctors who did the surgery explained that scar tissue had grown in my abdomen, and poison was filling up in my body, I was fortunate to be alive. I never told anyone about this until a few months ago.
Prior to this experience, I had a terrible fear of death, was subject to panic
attacks, these panic attacks started in 1968 , long before anyone spoke of them,
and I spent a lot of time & money trying desperately to control them. I mention
this because after my NDE I no longer had these attacks, nor did I fear death.
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Not entirely sure what the realm of "an associated life-threatening event" encompasses, will need further instruction, in order to answer.
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No I just spoke of it to a few people recently, the memory was just as vivid as it was on the night it happened, and that was 30plus years ago.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? the whole time
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My eyesight, if that is what you are asking was 20/20, as was my daily vision.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I heard nothing during my experience, just saw.
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? just peace
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? No What is disturbing to me is the fact that I did not even think about my two young children, whom would no longer have a mother.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
However I knew I was not on earth
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)? Uncertain
aware that my life was going to go on, where I had no idea, but did not worry or
concern myself with that, and still do not.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? No
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? No
What occurred during your experience included: Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience even though I never shared this experience with anyone up until a few months ago, this is a memory so intense that I can still see it.
My experience directly resulted in: Unknown
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Yes we are absolutely not through with life, after we leave this earthly experience.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes After thirty plus years I finally discussed this with my 43yr old son and 23 yr old grandson, after telling them, there was complete silence, they listened intently, however I do not think they expected this from their mother, grandmother, who is usually a cynical no nonsense person.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was definitely real
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes