Patrick H NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION: 

The hospital staff had finished stitching my wounds when I heard my name being called and they noticed that I was no longer responding.  I could feel a heaviness in my chest, I thought at first that it was the sutures. 

Later, when I heard the word ‘resuscitation’ I understood right away that the situation was much more serious.  It was at that moment, when I was being laid out on the stretcher, that I had the impression of leaving my body.   Everything started spinning around me and I thought I was going crazy.  At times I was downstairs in the hospital cafeteria where my mother was waiting for me, other times I was in the resuscitation room, and still other times I was rubbing against the walls, etc.

Then I noticed that I finally had control over where I was going. All of a sudden I found myself at Lourdes, outside the sanctuary where I had gone the previous August, then with people that I had met there, and then I was in Paris looking for their daughter who was supposed to be there the day of the NDE.  Then, back in the operating room I thought ‘If only she knew…’

It was like in a movie.. the ‘beep, beep, beep’ and everyone was panicking around me. Then one of the nurses was told to quickly go get a solution that was in a room some distance away, and I was there instantly. Then a few moments later I heard the nurse rushing in to grab a phial that she had to open to prepare the injection but she dropped it  (.. a tinkle of shattering glass ..  ) and I realized.. it was ‘all over.’ 

In the operating room, my heart failure was announced and they were now trying to defibrillate me.  At that time I was an observer of my own life, I felt myself floating somewhere around the ceiling, all the while hearing in the background, the song by Corine Hermès which had won the Eurovision competition for Luxemburg that year.  ‘When life is a gift, gift given, gift taken back, gift stolen…”

Then, I was carried through a very long tunnel, shooting up like an arrow at an unbelievable rate of speed, and arrived in a very bright place and a woman with a very soft voice said.. “It’s Bernadette Soubirou. She told me I soon would be meeting Saint Peter, which happened after a few minutes.  The environment was the gentlest and happiest I could ever imagine.    

Then, when I told Saint Peter that I hadn’t gone though anything strange, and that my parents had mistreated and neglected me, I still don’t know how I came up with such precise words, he said he understood why I felt like staying, he told me I had to protect my big brother and a little sister yet to be born.  

Then he bade me farewell and I went down again at an incredible speed for about a minute then woke up a little later, back in my body.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain       It’s the complexity of the content that’s difficult to communicate to people who know little or nothing of the subject, as well as the overall context, since it involved one of the worst chapters of my life.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     I was assaulted by my biological father who caused serious injuries, including a collapsed lung resulting in heart failure. 

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    Most of the time

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            most of the time.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Uncertain      Being blind I can’t really speak of sight but, of perception through intuition and touch. 

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     I had the impression of hearing sounds that weren’t necessarily there. The shattering glass, etc.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            As explained above, a feeling of disarray and of fear during the first (earthly) phase, but a feeling of love, of gentleness and happiness during the last (heavenly) phase. 

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     I felt myself sucked into a very long tube.

Did you see a light?           Yes     This light was very intense and even warm.  Even the beings that I met there seemed to emit this light.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     (see response to question 3)

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Yes     (see detailed response to question 3)

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     I asked the nurse if she had indeed broken the phial in the distant room and see immediately apologized for making me go through that moment of intense fear.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes     (see response to question 3)

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No      

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No      

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes      Two days later I told the nurse in question.  I also told other people but they mainly ignored it.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Uncertain            I knew from various movies what happened during resuscitation procedures. 

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    The extremely rapid sequence of events was so extraordinary for me that I never doubted the reality of the experience.  

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?   

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real            (see question 40)

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I noticed the extreme individualism of certain people, even of my biological parents. 

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No                  

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes