Newie Y's NDE
I had had attacks before and always recovered, this time I could tell I wasn't. In effect you strangle. I had somehow hooked myself through a window in the bathroom to try and breath better I guess. Anyhow, as a result when I passed out I didn't fall down. A short peaceful time passed as I was no longer struggling for air.
Then I was outside the window (we were on the 37th floor) looking back on me passed out in the window. My hand was reaching out to the me in the window. The night dark but the stars were getting lighter eating up the night. I felt an urgency to take the me in the window with me or touch her or get her attention. I'm not sure. But she was out. Didn't see me. I turned to go--into the sky, night, light. not sure. Just that that person in the window had nothing to do with me any more. There was no sound. Maybe whooshing. But this is New York. There is always sound. This was quiet, Very quiet. Then I heard this colossal noise.
Someone was beating the door to the bathroom down. I turned around. My husband came in and started trying to get a response out of the old me. Then there were EMT workers other people. He looked horrified. I felt very sad--the me outside the window. I lingered. I didn't fly away. Then pop. Just like before no transition first I was one place then the other. I was the inside me and my eyes were seeing the ceiling not the night. The clarity of this memory is not to be denied in spite of my not religious views. It was not fuzzy. I told those closest to me within a day.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience: No
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes
Describe: Had apparently fatal anaphylactic attack that closed my windpipe. My husband of 25 years found me collapsed in the bathroom and thought I was dead.
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? The body me was out cold. The me outside the window was very clear.
Was the experience dream like in any way? no
Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body? Yes
Describe your appearance or form apart from your body: Total separation. Looking back at my body. As above.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Free. Positive. Adventure. Discovery. Childlike. Lack of fear.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? Silence. Whooshing.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No
Did you see a light? Uncertain
Describe: Growing gradually. A dark punctuated by spots of light.
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes
Describe: I clearly related events happening in the bathroom even though I was out/dead. My friends family were amazed I could describe what happened perfectly and in perfect order.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Yes
Describe: It was beautiful. But it is beautiful.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes
Describe: Was it simultaneous? Before? I saw the view from the 37th floor in a way impossible from a window or any perspective possible.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Uncertain
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Describe: The opposite. My new world seemed limitless in contrast to my living one.
Did you become aware of future events? No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body? Uncertain
Describe: I didn't go. I stayed. I felt sad. I guess there was a decision to stay but I was not really aware of it.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? No
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? No
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
Describe: The ones who were there were so surprised I could recount what happened they accepted it. I also am regarded as a very rationale person. People were surprised I would say such a thing, but they believed me.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? I wasn't sure I was dead or alive. I was less sure of the boundary of the two. I was more at home in Bali as a result where everything is merged.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? Best. This clear memory of me turning to go into the night/light. Confident. Sure. I can't say that I was that happy at the time to return. Of course now I am definitely very happy to be here. I am not sure why. I cannot see me making much of a difference. But maybe my existence is necessary to someone I may never know who will.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
Explain: Yes, thank you. Very thoughtful. I will be interested in your conclusions to this study.