Nerka E NDE
Edited for clarity by Judy Shea 3/5/13
My daughter was born by natural childbirth in the hospital operating room.
About fifteen to thirty minutes after the delivery, I told the nurse that I
wasn't feeling well. I felt like I was going to pass out. That is all that I can
remember of being my normal self before things started happening. I never lost
my hearing. I could hear every word the nurses said. I heard them say that my
blood pressure was going down to eighty over sixty, and that they were not able
to start an IV because my veins were collapsed. I heard the doctors screaming
about losing a patient. In my mind I was going down a dark tunnel. I saw
many pictures of myself from my childhood to that present moment in the
operating room. Then I was "above" my body, looking down on myself. I also saw
several nurses and two doctors from above. After that, I was "back."
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes. It happen just fifteen to thirty minutes after delivering my daughter.
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes. I was afraid that nobody would believe me.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Probably in the beginning, going down the tunnel.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. Not sure.
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. That was scary— seeing my whole life from the beginning to that moment, in just a short time.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I never lost my hearing.
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? Uncertain. I was "above" my body and I could see and hear the situation in the operating room—me on the bed with an oxygen mask and monitors, nurses, doctors…
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Sadness.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? Yes
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning.
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No.
I didn't know what was happening. I kept thinking, "What will happen with my daughter if I die???"
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to "return" to life.
After being "above" me, and seeing my whole life up until the present, I felt sadness and worry about what would happen to my daughter. So I started crying and praying to come back, and I was back within, probably, several seconds.
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? No
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? No
What occurred during your experience included: Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs I had at the time of my experience.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. This experiences has always been with me since it happened in 1989. I think about it all the time. I did not have any more children or any medical procedures. I'm scared that the "experience" will happen again, and not sure how I would handle it or if it would be too hard for me to go through again.
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience: I'm able to "feel" that something bad is going to happen, also, sometimes I have dreams about the present or the future, concerning things that are about to happen.
My experience directly resulted in: Slight changes in my life.
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Yes. Six years after my "experience," I accepted Christ and started going to church. My ex-husband, all his family, and most of my family are Muslims.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes. I can "feel" when something is going to happen. Also, I have dreams that come true.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes. I first shared it probably more than ten years after it happened when one of my friends said something about an "NDE." Also, I read an article about them. I did share my experience several times with other people, but usually no one would say anything back to me after I told them, so I'm not sure if they even believed me and also I don't know what they believed about NDEs, either.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was definitely real.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes. I accepted Christ.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I think about it all the time and still have strong feelings about it.
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes. I would like to meet other people that have had the same experience.