Nem J NDE
Edited for clarity by Judy Shea 4/30/11
After I took the medication, I donít remember anything; I fell into unconsciousness. I recall a moment when I found myself up in the corner of the hospital room near the ceiling. There was also much light - an almost blinding white light. Looking down, I saw a part of my body and my legs, as well as my parents and the doctors standing around me. One of them was wearing white, the other one, blue. He was young and blond. This lasted for just a few seconds. I felt a strong pain, then nothing.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes It lasted barely a few seconds. I found myself above the bed. I saw my body, my parents, and the doctors, but also there was a lot of light, and a lot of whiteness; it was a strange and fleeting feeling. I felt a great pain and was in a coma for two days.
Since then, I've hardly ever talked about it. I thought I must be crazy and I couldn't manage describing to anyone what I had felt.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Uncertain I tried to commit suicide by swallowing medication - a mixture of antidepressants. My sugar rate sank dangerously. Yes, I believe it was a life threatening event.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I realized I was up near the ceiling in the hospital room
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal When I realized I was above everyone in the hospital room.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes The light was too intense, too white, almost blinding
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? No
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? It happened so fast, I couldnít tell what I felt.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No
Did you see a light? Yes, Yes, indeed - a very intense white light - glowing white.
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes The young doctor in blue was there when I awoke. He was an advanced medical student. I asked him whether he was there when I was admitted. He said he was. And he was the same young, blond doctor in blue that I wrote that I saw during my experience.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain I have just remembered something that happened to me. One night I had a horrible dream, too real - I was in jail, and we were packed into jail cells that were too small. A fire started because of a cable, and nobody wanted to open the cells. I awoke sweating. I went and told my parents; they were watching the news and everybody was scared because the events of the dream I had just shared were in the news. Indeed, the jail house in my town caught fire, the wardens did not open the cells, and the prisoners died. My father, a doctor, asked me what started the fire. I answered that it was a cable. Two days later, we learned from the French press that the fire had started because of a burnt cable. My father then told me that some people's brains get signals sent by the distressed brains of others. But, until now, I have never connected this to my experience.
Have you shared this experience with others? Uncertain I shared only once, one year after the experience, but I did not know it was a near death experience.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was probably not real I convinced myself it must have been a dream. It was not possible - these seconds of being near the ceiling looking down were just delirious. I had never heard about near death experiences.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was probably real I watched a documentary film yesterday. A young lady had a near death experience; she described exactly what I had felt - white light, being separated from your body, the feeling that you see yourself from above. I immediately related to what she said. Now I think that what I had believed was just a dream was most likely a near death experience.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes