Nan A's NDE

Experience description: 

I saw a dark tunnel and began to travel out of the top of my head and through it. After traveling through this space I felt relieved to see an open, expansive area which looked like a night sky. I continued flowing through this expanse without control as I felt I was being pulled or controlled through this process. I felt no fear at this point but had a slight sense of curiosity about where I was, but no fear.

 After some time traveling in this manner I realized there were two women with me, an older women on my right shoulder (who looked very much like the Guardian Angel I saw at age five) who was very calm and quiet and a middle-age women with dark hair on my left shoulder who was upset and kept repeating, "It's not time! This is not the right time, oh no..."

 Then I began to see a pinpoint of light in the distance and realized we were traveling very rapidly towards it. As we did so the light became incrementally larger and larger. The color was a very special glowing white, very pure.

 As we got very close to the light I saw tens of thousands of beings dressed in white gowns all facing the Light and singing a music I had never heard the likes of before. They were in the service of The Light and apparently "singing" praises to The Light.  The Light was filled with the most extraordinary, overwhelming and indescribable feeling of LOVE. Then I came directly in front of The Light and The Light spoke in a man's voice, firm and direct, saying only, "Go Back!" I was very cocky and said to The Light, "What do you mean? I want to be here! Hey!" The Light then spoke again and said, "Go Back! You have a Great Deal To Learn." I instantly was shocked into recognizing I had no choice and filled with sorrow at leaving, rapidly flew back, re-entering the top of my head, became conscious in the ambulance and heard the attendant say, "She' going to make it we hope."

 I have encountered that same feeling only once again, in the presence of a living Sufi Master.

 After this experience, which took me a long time to make sense of, I began to have vivid dreams that came true, had strong premonitions. My life was hardly easy before or after but eventually became curious about religious philosophy and started a spiritual Path in 1989 which I hope to remain on the rest of my life. Thank you, Anna.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Uncertain, Had ingested 80+ 10 mg. Valium

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes, At the time yes, but not so now.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain, Unconscious. Unknown.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           Unconscious

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

Please see above narration.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           Please see narration above.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes

            Describe:      Please see narration above.

Did you see a light?           Yes, Please see narration above.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes, Please see narration above.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Uncertain

Please see narration above. The Light's direction was certainly new!

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           Yes, Please see narration above.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes, Please see narration above.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Uncertain, Please see end of narration above.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes

Please  see narration above.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes, Please see narration above.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

Please see narration above.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I belong to a Sufi Order and my work is devoted to helping individuals who suffer chronic Axis I Psychiatric illnesses.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

My entire life changed in every possible way! You name it, it changed.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes, Husband and one friend. They were very accepting. I do not know if they were influenced in any way.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  I was quite "Drugged-out" for several weeks from my overdose, then depression for about a year, then gradually began to put my life back together, which took a while!

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Best: The Light and the Love; Worst? Having to leave The Light and return here.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Yes, Please see narration above.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    Excellent questionnaire. So glad I found it through Coast To Coast!