Monty D NDE
My friend and I were driving down an old two lane road heading into Fresno. The road is heavily traveled and the posted speed I believe was 50mph. I remember driving down the road and we were talking and the next thing I see is a truck in the oncoming lane cross over into our lane blocking it completely causing us to hit it in the center of the pick up truck. I remember thinking everything appeared to be moving in slow motion, but I know it happened in an instant. I remember hitting my head on the roof of the car and then the windshield and finally the dashboard area. I had a pool stick that was between my knees on the floor of the car and at some point during the accident it had wedged itself between me and the car causing it to push into my chest area and cracking my sternum. The front of the car we were driving in was completely smashed up to the windshield. The pool stick probably kept me in the vehicle and kept me from being smashed between the vehicles. I remember reaching down to my chest and feeling my bones sticking out and I was starting to have trouble breathing. I told my friend to tell my son I loved him and to look after him and that I thought I was passing away. The next memory I have is of my face on the ground, and I can see road flares and the soles of the police and EMTs shoes.
then picked me up and carried me into the ambulance, I heard them say I was
going into shock, the EMT was asking me questions, trying to keep me awake. I
knew at the time what he was trying to do, but I was having a very difficult
time staying awake. I heard the EMT yell "we're losing him." At this time, this
is where it got really strange for me...I could see myself and I was surrounded
by a total darkness, as if everyone had shut out all the lights in the room, but
it felt like it was huge, I had a single light shining down on me from up above,
other than that it was all pitch black. I could see myself and I was telling
myself, 'you have to wake up'...I was just repeating this to myself and looking
around at the emptiness. I felt like I wasn't alone, but I didn't see anything
other than the light above shining down, almost like a spotlight...The next
thing I see is my mother and her friend walking down the hospital hall towards a
body on the gurney that is covered completely up and pushed to the side of the
hallway. I then woke up back in the hospital on that gurney, and I actually
pulled the sheet off of my face...my mother was visibly shaken and in tears. I
remember telling her some stupid joke like 'it only hurts when I laugh'...I
didn't want to see her like that. The hospital staff in the emergency room had
told them I didn't make it, and I was in the hallway waiting for someone from
the morgue to come and get my body. I don't really know what happened that day,
but I do believe we live on after our body dies.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes I was the passenger in an automobile accident.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Probably during the time when I was in the darkness...I knew I had to try and wake myself up, or that was it. Like I said, I was aware of my surroundings and of the light above, but I wasn't ready to die just yet.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: Probably during the time when I was in the darkness...I knew I had to try and wake myself up, or that was it. Like I said, I was aware of my surroundings and of the light above, but I wasn't ready to die just yet.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Uncertain
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? Uncertain
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? When I saw myself on the gurney, I felt an urgency to come back, but when I was in the darkness, I really wasn't thinking about my physical body at all.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Uncertain I think I was about to enter into the light above me, it started as a very small light but it appeared to be getting bigger and bigger.
Did you see a light? Yes It was like a spotlight shining down on me, at first I didn't realize it was there, I just saw a blackness but then I saw a light shining above me.
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes While out of my body, I saw my body covered with a sheet from head to toe and my mother and her friend walking down the hospital hallway towards my body on the gurney as she was crying.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Uncertain I was in a very vast and dark space/place, but didn't feel afraid at all, I could feel like I wasn't alone, but couldn't see anyone or anything other than myself.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Uncertain
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes I just knew it wasn't my time yet.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? No I've had dreams all through my life that have come true. I've had déjà vu type of things and I guess what some would call quick visions, that would later come true. I have to say that those occurrences have happened to me though most of my life, even before the accident. I know that sounds 'crazy', but it's the truth, I've learned to just not talk about those things with everyone.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain I've had what some would call precognitive visions for most of my life, but after the accident, I did feel like I could really read people very well. I can talk to someone and almost 'feel' if they're lying or if they are good people. I think my instincts and intuition got a lot stronger and more accurate.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes I first shared it with my friend who was in the accident with me and then my girlfriend at the time. I don't think my friend believed me, but he couldn't really explain it either. After all these years, he's started to come around. My girlfriend on the other hand completely believed me.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real I don't have one doubt it was real, I never did. I just felt lucky to be back.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? I did come out of it wondering about if I was on the right path in my life. At the time, I was trying to get on with a local law enforcement agency and thought that was my future. After the accident, I wasn't able to do that kind of work, so it left me searching for my purpose in life.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real Same answer as above. I know it was real.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain I suppose. I now tell my family I love them each and everyday...from my mother, brothers, wife, kids and friends. I want them to know how much they all mean to me in case something like that ever happens again and I don't make it back.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes Before, I wasn't what you'd call religious...I always believed in God, I just honestly never gave it much thought. Now, I walk and talk with God almost daily, I realize we are all a part of something greater. I didn't see God when this happened, but I felt a presence I felt was God.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? No.
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes