Mira G NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

The NDE happened when I was on the operating table at St. Vincent's Hospital in Lower Manhattan. I remember being put under and asked to count backwards from 100. I know that I counted down to 96 and that the world for me went black. The next thing that I remember is being very happy and very safe. I was in a place that I loved with all of my heart. I was in my spirit in the  Polish countryside and I could almost see the fields during the summer just waiting to be harvested. It was a warm summer day, not hot and humid the way that NYC can be, but warm, sunny and dry. I was above the fields and I admired them but could not focus my eyes completely on them. I wanted to see what kind of crops were growing, but again my eyes could not focus that well. I saw the a little mound of brown earth and then behind it I saw a field of wheat. I saw green individual plants in another field, but I could not make out what kind of plant it was, but I did notice that the earth was very rich and could give birth to many good crops. The little green plants seemed to be happy growing in the rich earth and being warmed in the sun.

There was a kind of sunshine that one finds in Northern Europe during the summer. The light is less direct because it is in the north, and it is more at an angle then the sunshine in NYC during the summer. The sun therefore is less harsh and much more warming, then heating. I imagined that I was one of the little green plants and that I was also planted in the earth of my country and warmed in it's northern sunshine. I tried to see down the fields if there were houses, but all I saw was a shack that was falling down. There were no modern houses, so I decided to sit in the shade of the shack for a few minutes. Then I rose above the shack and saw the golden light from the wheat being reflected back to sun. This time, I could see the individual wheat plants in detail and at a distance of three feet. I could not believe that such wonderful colors could be found in a wheat plant and to have that golden yellow reflect the sun was just beautiful to see. I was above the shack and I looked at the wheat field all golden in the sun. One could see for kilometers and all there was blue sky of a summer day. At a distance I saw the blue cloudless sky with birds flying around and chasing each other, I was  jealous that the birds could stay home in Poland and enjoy flying around in the sunshine.

I saw some trees that must have the border of the property. The trees were tall and they were full of dark green leaves. Each of them formed a kind of leafy egg shaped green on top of a stem and some were closer to each other, but I noticed the one tree that was away from the others in particular. It was a mature tree, with large green leaves. I looked at that tree and I said to myself how lucky this tree really is, because it got to stay home and never was forced to leave Poland. The tree was never uprooted, and I wondered what it like to be a human being that was never uprooted. I rose further up above the field and saw that the trees were going away from me. I knew that it was time and that something had to stop this experience, I just panicked because I had to go back to where I really was.

After being back in my body I heard the doctors screaming "she has stopped breathing" and something like "we are loosing her." There was general panic in the operating room and could feel the stress of the nurses and doctors. They were shaking me and calling my name to wake me up. I did come back fully then and I was back on the operating table in my body at St. Vincent's Hospital in NYC. I was devastated because when I was outside of my body and in the Polish countryside, I was perfectly centered and I knew who I was and what I was capable of doing in life. Nothing could have stopped me from being the kind of human being that I was meant to be, because I was that human being already within myself flying over the July fields of Poland.  

Important note: I have now lived for the past six years on the edge of a Polish village, 45 km west of Warsaw and I get to see the countryside during all the seasons. But during the summer it is the most beautiful. I walk on a dirt road along the fields with my dogs and I sometimes stop to admire the views of the crops that run from end to end of each field.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Yes  Yes, I was given an overdose of anesthetic while I was heaving eye surgery. My right eye needed to be repaired because I had been shot in that eye with a BB gun.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No    

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    I was at my highest level of consciousness at all times during this experience.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   During the experience I was very centered and very alerted, to the point that I could feel my whole soul, and my talents, my goodness, my compassion. I could feel all of my intellectual abilities, and my power as a human coming from one point. The way that I saw it was that there was a tiny powerful point that released its electricity into a dark circle. The point spun out continuously and it released its energy also continuously. The point could never run out of energy because it was me. The energy spun out looking like small but powerful lighting rods.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   Vision was about the same although sometimes, I lost focus during the experience.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   Hearing was the same.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   I was completely happy and completely centered in myself.  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   No  

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   Yes   I saw birds flying in the sky and a grass hopper.

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   Everything about myself or others
I was completely centered in my being.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was "sent back" against my will
At one point I knew that something happened and I had to return. I had no power to stop this and I was pulled out of my experience of being above the fields and in the blue cloudless sky. I panicked because I had no power and my vision had to be taken from me and in a way destroyed. I was devastated. Something speeded up and I seem to have traveled a great distance in a brown color to again find myself on the operating table in NYC.

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   No  

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience  

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience  

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   I became an animal activist and with time I was driven more and more towards Indian religions, until I finally started to attend a Hindu temple in Dutchess County, NY. I have been ill with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome since that experience. The physical damage to my body after being nearly killed on the operating table was considerable. I was been ill for almost 22 years.

My experience directly resulted in:   Moderate changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   I was driven toward Indian religions that led me through Buddhism and finally I stopped at Hinduism, the religion of my father.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?   I loved the feeling of being centered and powerful within myself. I did not want power over others, but I felt that all talents were within my reach and that I could develop into a what I wanted to be in life, because I knew that I had all that I wanted to be already within me.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Yes   Yes, I can feel the presence of my father, my voice teacher and I had one visit from the spirit of my mother after she died. I am sometimes able to mentally communicate with animals.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     I loved the feeling of being centered and powerful within myself. I did not want power over others, but I felt that all talents were within my reach and that I could develop into a what I wanted to be in life, because I knew that I had all that I wanted to be already within me.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  A few months later and the person was fearful of the death part on the operating table.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   Yes   I saw a program about NDE on American TV, but what I saw were people going towards a light and a tunnel. No, what I heard about NDE did not affect my experience at all.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   I thought that I was just full of anesthetic and that my brain brought me back to Poland to make me feel safe during a serious operation.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   I know now that I was out of my body and in the Polish coutryside as wondering spirit that was very, very happy.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   Yes, I became a Hindu and was guided to the religion of my father.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No  

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?   I want to go back there! I was centered and happy there!