Now, I'm 29 years old, but due to the many diets I have been on, my physical and spiritual growth has lagged behind. But now, ever since I've recognized my NDE, I have found myself in a true quest for knowledge on physical and spiritual level.

I have lots of sorrow when I look back upon my childhood because most of the time, I remained in the hospital, and haven't been able to enjoy much of the fun stuff that kids would normally do. For the moment, I still need a lot of confirmation, because I can't yet fully rely on my own spirit and body, that has been recovering since I was a kid. In a way, I'm now going through my childhood now, as I have acquainted much of my old age when I was still younger. What I have learned is that a human life is of immense value, which is in now way expressible in money. Material possessions don't interest me. They're fun to have, but after we die, the only thing we can take with us, are knowledge and memories.

Ever since I've recognized the NDE after all those years of denial, something in me is evolving, but that too is hard, as so less people are willing to listen and understand me. People say I'm crazy and stay away from me.   More and more I acquire gifts such as clairvoyance and a high sensitivity.  At moments when I feel good, I can see aura's. The physical body fades away and the only thing that remains is the soul, that then reveals the traumas those humans endure. Because of the sensitivity I have, I sometimes feel quite isolated, because I get to see so much information of other people. That's really hard to cope with, because I tend to get carried away by it, and end up being hurt myself.  Because I'm a real emotional soul, I often attracted pain and suffering from others. This has nested itself on my weak spot, my kidneys.

When I had my NDE, I have literally been out of my body and have made a trip through time.  Now I see and encounter things, I have seen 21 years ago. It is so unreal that its mind blowing.  I was guided by my deceased grandfather, who has told me everything about life now and what the future will bring.  People will first be the victim of an enormous downwards spiral, and many will suffer. People who don't want to listen will be removed from earth. I have seen the earth from above, sailed through time and received knowledge that is still hard to understand.

During my youth, I haven't been able to build up a circle of friends, due to my many hospital visits. I have felt really lonely at times, and I sometimes still have that feeling, because as I said, not much people add value to my experience. Its starting to annoy me, because it makes me feel being stuck. I wish to talk to people that have encountered the same thing, in spiritual language.

I have been given enormous powers to help people heal themselves. I have an important message for the laws concerning organ donation, because it is a hot topic in the medical world. I have received the knowledge that our should really constructs our physical bodies, our personalities and who we are as a person. It is our soul who drives the body.

I'm searching how to process this knowledge, but most find it "not interesting". I haven't been granted a diploma for my wisdom I received, so it makes it real hard to prove it to people without being mocked.  I'm looking for some confirmation, but slowly and steady, I can say to myself "I know better".  These are powerful things to say to yourself. But its nice to sometimes get that confirmation from someone.  It's a process, as well within me, as to the world out there.

Most people have a very negative attitude towards "diseases". They stay away from diseased people because they experience it as being negative. When I talk about my dialysis, people often lose interest, as they really want to keep their eyes closed and stay away from it as far as possible.

I have taken the task to help other people. However, lots of them aren't pleased when you tell them "You shouldn't smoke, or drink, or work too hard, because it will deteriorate your health." The reply I often get is; "Mind your own business". People see it negative, but it I really say it to help them.  There's no luxury in being a little concerned towards each other.  To me, its pretty hard to see in advance whets is going to happen with someone. I have to let it happen, because its whets best for that persons spiritual growth. We learn from mistakes and become stronger. We encounter things on our way that we can handle and that belong to our spiritual growth.

I'm looking for support, because although its beautiful what's happening inside me, I come to realize what this is going to mean for other people and the medical world. It can change the entire vision, because the medical world holds to the idea of organ transplantation, from a living person or a donor. However, I know that a human is build out of cells/tissue. Every cell ha sits function, and they all work together. Cells have memory. Our thinking influences our cell memory. By the power of mind, you can reprogram these cells. Its just like with a computer that gets overloaded. Once you delete some files, the computer will work better again. Its just like that with humans, old and not useful thinking habits must be deleted and be reprogrammed to be able to function better.

An into detail report of my NDE;

From what I know and from what I can remember, I have been out of my body.  I have seen another world with so much colors, a sort of paradise with so much love, peace and acceptation.  Furthermore, I have been guided by my deceased grandfather, who told me about life. He told me "why things happen" and he let me see things in the future. I have seen my entire life review and I've even got a little taste about the things to come in a future life.  Only, that I can't see yet. I'll get to see it at the end of my life.

I was told that we as human beings are the nature itself and that its about time to change some of our lifestyles and behavior.  I have flown over the earth with my grandfather and saw the beautiful nature from above, and I saw the damage done to the forests and what can be the consequences of that.  I acquainted that a lot of help is needed in the third world. I have seen this because I will travel there in the future, to learn other people to use their mental powers, so they are able to cure from aids without medication, solely through mental thought and communication with your body.

I learned that life and death are one and the same. There's only life, we come and go.  People see death as something to avoid, but its a continuous process.  When someone dies, somewhere a baby gets born, and gets an opportunity to grow and become a better soul, until you have acquired enough knowledge to become a guide, and guide other souls.  You can do that in the physical life itself, as I do now, because I know I'm in touch with the universe. I'm a helper of the light, or as we call it, God.

Everything that happens in our bodies, you can see in the nature as well. There's a continuous supply and removal of food and waste products.  We eat food and it gets processed through harmoniously working cells. Here I'm talking about the nature again, because its important to be in touch with it. If we pressurize ourselves too hard, and lose sight of the harmony that nature gives us, then our bodies get forgotten, we ignore certain signals, and we build up physical problems, such as high blood "pressure". 

The child denies its behavior, because the parents deny it.  But things are still repairable, if given good treatment, such as regression or reincarnation therapy. In that way, those people can go back to understand the problem and recognize it, so that the universal energy can do its work again.  I get to be part of this, to help people, to guide them with my clairvoyance, but I have to be steady in my shoes first of all.  I have learned that people have to make their mistakes and that only then, I can be of any help when I get asked. That's hard for me, as I said before, because I have received information about that person in advance.

After my experience, the return to my diseased body and the earth, was for me quite painful. So that's why I have been very angry, so badly that I have tried to die, because its so much more beautiful there than here. To anyone else, its impossible to imagine if you haven't witnessed it.  There was a lot more peace, and I suffered from a bad depression, because mainly, I could not speak about what I had seen. Now I'm hoping that in this time some changes take place, so there is more room for the afterlife and spirituality.  I know that out of a tiny little cell, something can grow. Just like with a plant or a tree that loses all of its leaves in the autumn, but it remains alive.  Reincarnation can also be seen as another word; reintegration. Someone who has no job and wants to get one, gets into a reintegration process. Someone who meets her/his life partner. They integrate in life together.

The earth is made mostly out of water. If there is no balance between water and land, for example, when too much rain falls, there is a chance for floods.  The human body is just the same, it has to work in balance, otherwise troubles arise.  It has been harder for me than I thought before I got here.

I think its pretty hard to get this out into the open. People look at me and think the things I say are negative, but negative is positive and the other way round.