Mike I Jr. NDE
I was in a near head on (45 degree angle) car collision, each of us traveling about 60 mph. From this near head on collision the car I was in crossed a highway median whereby another car hit me. The second car that hit me after I went over the median, was driven by a surgeon (from the same hospital I was eventually raced to) who drove his car intentionally (and sacrificially) into my path because he saw the initial crash and put his car in my path to keep it from going off the road into trees and a ditch and then afterward he got out of his car, came over to mine to see my profuse bleeding and mangled leg whereby he then successfully argued and convinced a policeman to allow him to intervene right on the scene. So, he reached within the wreckage to maneuver my shattered leg to help stop the profuse bleeding that I might survive (later we were told his intervention saved my life because I lost five pints of blood, over half my total) and that I would have unquestionably died at the scene had he not been on the spot and bravely intervened with his medical expertise.
I realized I was bleeding to death because of broken bones and my heart was dis-functioning and became very weak. Being trapped for thirty minutes within the wreck while the firefighters and others tried to free me with the jaws of life, I was in excruciating pain and was frightened beyond anything I had ever known. I feared that I was going to die and pleaded with those trying to help me to "please get me out of here".
Just after telling the EMS workers that "something is wrong with my heart" and several times saying that "I am so tired" I finally gave in and just exhaled and let me head fall to the side so I could rest...I sensed I would die if I did that but was so exhausted I did so anyway. Immediately upon 'letting go' I instantly was at the edge of the earth's atmosphere and I was staring into space. I literally saw stars, and many beautiful and captivating galactic things. I have since seen the same or similar things when visiting the website of the Hubble Space telescope. Now I realize I saw novas, supernovas, quasars, black hole and other things.
The first thing I felt was an absence of pain (that WAS unbelievably intense just seconds before). I felt instant peace...peace and stillness beyond words and anything I have previously known. I felt calm, assured, complete and absolutely serenely wonderful. I felt LOVE...incredible perfect love...a perfectness...as if everything was just perfect, in order and so peaceful. I had a knowledge or oneness with everything it seemed...everything connected...a oneness I had never known. Also colors were brighter and more distinct, vivid and enriched...some were colors we don't have on earth or I've never seen before.
While I was 'out there" I heard a fireman yell my name...he yelled "Hey Michael Don't go to sleep!" Immediately, I came back to my body in the car and yelped with pain and again held my broken and bleeding leg. I remember telling them "I left, I left"; though I'm not sure they knew exactly what I meant. Shortly after that time, I again lost my strength and 'let go' of trying to hold on and again I was immediately transported to the edge of earth's atmosphere. I again saw into outer space and saw a black hole or tunnel...I thought to myself "Hey is this the tunnel people see when they die" (for I had heard of such things). I looked at the black hole and thought "shouldn't there be light in that tunnel?" I thought. Because I was on an angle, it was not possible to look into the hole or tunnel, I thought that "If only I was there (I eyed a space not far off the center of the hole), then I could see into that hole" Well as soon as I said that ....I WAS THERE! Instantly. I immediately understood that in space I could travel the speed of thought. I had never had that thought before. We can travel the speed of a thought. It was immediate travel...instant. As I was at this different place in space I DID see partially into the black hole and saw swirling colors of light...kind of turquoise and yellowish and a blue type of shade...different than on Earth. I also knew some how instinctively that I could not go near the tunnel or I would not come back...I was intrigued and wanted to go but also knew for some reason I should not or would not now.
I experienced a connectedness to everything, a dimension like I've not ever known before. I cannot find the words to really describe the place and feelings and characteristics of this experience...my best word would be "ah" or "ha". That sounds strange but the gasp of "ah" and the stillness it represents is close to the best word or short description I could give this. Since then I realized that Ha and Ah are in a lot of spiritual things like Yahweh, Buddha, Allah, Messiah, and often in meditation chants there is a "um" or "ah" or "ha" sounds.
The fact was that I experienced so much blood loss that they could not operate on me that night but had to wait until they could replenish my levels to be considered adequate or safe and I had surgery the next day where the surgeons reconstructed my leg by inserted a titanium metal rod. After a long time in a wheelchair, I underwent extensive rehabilitation and I learned to walk again. One year later I met and hosted a celebration with the EMS employees that were there that night and helped save my life whereby I was told by one of the officers that they "saw me drift and fade" and they frantically worked faster while they thought I would die. They also agreed, I did die or "fade out" twice while in the wreck.
After this experience I feel love as never before , compassion, curiosity and obsession with Quantum Physics, astrophysics, spirituality, teleportation, divinity, healing, prophesy and many other celestial and divine matters. Not a day goes by that I don't think of what happened in fall of 2005.
I believe now that we are eternal beings, have no fear of dying, want to tell the world, help others, connect with the divine and see Earth as a mere molecule amongst our vast universe. I also sense there is life on other planets throughout the universe...actually I feel it is arrogant and ignorant of us not to think in life elsewhere and in a the after life. The many things that many of us stress about on Earth...doesn't matter...it is insignificant in light of the reality of space and out-of-body life.
I believe we are spirit beings that have an earthly body. I believe now that we are connected to a intelligent being I call God. We have an immeasurable power and possibilities within.
I am a changed person from my NDE as I am more compassionate, confident, calm, caring, spiritual and obsessed with learning more about all of this. it is great to know that there is a group of NDE people. I want to learn and apply all I can in this life of mine here on Earth. There is no doubt anywhere within me that... there is life after death.
I have been more
blessed by my "tragedy" than anything I ever could imagine. Here is
probably the greatest blessing and miracle of it all...While I was still in the
hospital a month after the accident, I desperately needed to leave the hospital
to travel to a relative who was in a life-threatening crisis but I was told I
could not go unless accompanied by a doctor or nurse so I prayed for to God for
a nurse to become available and assist me in my travel....Well guess what? I
found one or should I say God sent me one and..... and we fell in love
instantly, were married a couple years later and now my "nurse" Noelle is my
wife and we have a blessed beautiful little boy named Alexander.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes There are NO words in the English language to totally communicate the experience
Much of what I saw,
felt and experienced is ineffable.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes I was in a near head on (45 degree angle) car collision, each of us traveling about 60 mph.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I realized I could travel the speed of thought and when I first felt and knew and was a part of this perfect complete LOVE.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: When I realized I could travel the speed of thought and when I first felt and knew and was a part of this perfect complete LOVE.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes There seemed to be nothing that I could not see if I wanted to and had the time. I had a knowledge that surpassed collected information. I could see big and small. Colors never seen before. Could see far away...I mean light years away. I believe I could have seen anything anywhere but did not try that...though I wish I had.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? Yes It was not audible but more like inner hearing
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace, love, joy, assurance, perfectness, oneness, connectedness, compassion, excitement, bewilderment, curiosity, tranquility
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Uncertain I saw it but did not go in...I think I would have loved it but would not have come back. This tunnel I think is real and astronomers call it a black hole
Did you see a light? Yes Inside the black hole upon the right angle I saw colors unknown but close to teal, bluish and yellowish or golden...soft and vivid...swirling and non-descriptive forms. Also saw a brilliant yellow-gold-white light.
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes Most all the things I saw in space I have seen since on Hubble Space telescope photos...and now can name many of them.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Yes Far away stars, galaxies, quasars, clusters, gases, black hole, novas, etc.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes There is no time, yet there is all time - if that makes sense. Initially I sensed no time but then realized that anytime is now and now is anytime.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes I believe all knowledge now exists and we can access it through different realms
I sense everything is
connected and thus known by any and all if only we can access it. Purpose seems
that we are preparing to be re-birthed elsewhere and that love, prayer, helping
others and preparing our souls for higher consciousness. Purity is a primary
goal returning and staying connected to the giver and creator of life is my goal
for the purpose of helping myself and others.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes I sensed the tunnel or black hole was a point of no return so a form of boundary but there seem to be no end or boundaries limiting space.
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes I have a spiritual kind of power within to heal, prophesy or give a word of knowledge to people, understand things I couldn't before, have a obsession with the spiritual or "unseen" world and I want to help others through some God given gift.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes Immediately I shared with others; With great passion and vivid detail, I would go on at length to hundreds of people I have told. I thought about writing a book or making a movie out of all this. People are always moved, touched, inspired, become enthralled and some have changed their faith to one of belief in God and after life. One told me thanks, for they were afraid of dying until I shared my experience. No one has told me they don't believe me for my enthusiasm and humble gratitude must convince them. Perhaps within their spirit they know...for that is where they came from.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I had heard a little about a tunnel of light but never really delved in to learn about it.
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real Because I left my body twice and saw the same things, I know it was and is real AND I have since seen photos that line up with exactly some of what I saw. Quantum Physics and other sciences are confirming the knowledge I thought and realize I now have.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? Several parts are meaningful.
God is real, Life after death is a fact.
We can access all power, knowledge, space, time, people. We are barely aware of our own abilities and science has barely begun to merge with spirituality.
God has a purpose for me though I am not yet sure exactly what and when that is to occur.
Love is God and vice versa. Love is the most powerful energy existing.
No fear or pain is reality 'out there'
Any place can be every place and vice versa. Any time can be all time and vice versa.
One person is connected to all and all to one.
With higher collective consciousness and awareness we can have world peace, no hunger and stop self-destructive courses.
Perfectness exists and
can be now. Here and now is anywhere anytime and everywhere every-time (best
words I can use)
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real See above number 40
The only thing is that
I have talked about it so much that some of the freshness has dissipated.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I married the nurse who took care of me while I was in the hospital. We now have a baby and all my relationships are rooted in love and peace. I have new love and care for others that is wonderful. I love life more but have no fear of death. I now love and care about people, when that wasn't the case before.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes Spirituality is real and alive and religion is man-made and ritualistic. Our tradition is to imitate man's religions and language in the best attempt to explain truth.
We need to all allow each other the space to experience reality of the spirit world without judging or let alone killing each other in the name of religion.
We are all from same
source, which is perfect love.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I want to learn more and share NDE with others.
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? No Not as comprehensive nor totally in sequence but close enough
Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Yes, ask people what they are doing different because of their NDE...lifestyle changes. What would they do to help others with their experience.
I compliment and congratulate you on a fine website, questionnaire and commitment to this field.
Thank You and...God Bless You and Yours!