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Michael O NDE
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Michael O NDE |
EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
I will start by saying that prior to the event, I was diagnosed with a condition called IGA Nephropathy. Its an immune disorder that effects your kidneys. The week prior to this event, I had been on a hunting trip in Patagonia. While on this trip, I became very ill, which made for a rough 20 plane flight home, especially without kidney function. The doctors believed that my over active immune system had gone through the roof, and my kidneys failed because of this. At the time, I just thought that I had eaten something bad, that was causing all the nausea. Anyway, two days after I returned home, I still had not gone to the doctor. It had become very difficult to breath. In my infinite wisdom, I diagnosed myself has having sever bronchitis, and began using store bought inhalers, which made things much worse. I got to a point that I could not climb the stairs in my house, and if I laid down I could not breath. My chest was full of water, when I eventually ended up in the hospital, they drained 27 pounds of water out of my chest cavity. My heart was out of room. The night that I had my experience, I was very frustrated. I was tire as hell, and wanted very much to lie down, which is something I had not done in two days. Eventually, I decided that I would lay down regardless of what happened. I thought I had situated myself in a way that I could get air into my body. I think I was wrong. I'm not exactly sure what happened next. I did not have a tunnel experience or an OBE. I was suddenly on the side of this absolutely unreal beautiful hill. I was being awoken by this woman who I knew, but I don't know her from here. I cant explain it other than I have know this person forever. She was happy to see me. I promise you, I never felt so safe, or at peace. I knew that whole area. I could have sat on that grassy hill forever and just talked with this lady. She was so nurturing. That is the only way can put it. Once I felt oriented, I knew everything was as it should be. Its tough to explain. I knew of my earthly existence, my family, and friends, but really did not care. I honestly felt like I was home.
This lady and I sat and talked for a while. I am not sure if we used our mouths are not. I don't know, all I do know is that it was bliss. More real than me sitting here typing this. At the base of the hill, what looked to be a quarter of a mile away, was a small carnival type place. I looked like something out of a Norman Rockwell painting, with infinitely more color. I asked if we could go down there and she said absolutely. I can still remember in detail the look of the sand and gravel road we walked down to get there. When we arrived at the carnival place she told me to wait, that someone wanted to speak with me. Coming out of the carnival, though the entrance was my kid sister Allison. I have never been so happy, I could not stop crying with joy. Allison had passed away in 1992 at the age of 23 from a brain aneurism. She was in med school at the time with a very promising future. It was devastating for us. When Ali, approached me, I really knew I was home. We sat at a little table outside of the carnival talking for what seemed like forever. She was so wise and calm. This is going to sound strange, but at one point she said would you like to get a hot dog. There was a little stand next to the ticket booth. So we got a hot dog. She told me to enjoy it, because I would not be having these anymore. I did not understand at the time, nor did I care. However, I would later come to realize why she said that. With my kidney disease, I have to be on a super low protein diet, which means I am a vegetarian now. She always used to joke about how much I loved hot dogs, and in this perfect universe, I was able to eat my last one with her. I know this may sound stupid, but it had much meaning to me.
After what seemed like an hour, I asked Ali if we could go into the park. In a kind of loving way she told me that I was not allowed to go in. It was not my time to stay there, and that the carnival would always be there for me, but not now. I understood what she was saying, but was terribly upset, because I knew what she was getting at. She told me to walk back up the hill with the lady, and she would explain. We said our good byes, but inside I had a great understanding that it was not forever. She went back into the carnival area. I began to walk back up the hill with this wonderful lady. As we approach the top, I remember distinctively asking her what this was all about and how did everything work. She told me she wanted to show me something. At the top the hill was a group of people, ten or fifteen, not sure, sitting in a circle. They made room for me and asked me to sit. We all joined hands, and at that moment, I could see out of the eyes of everyone of these people, without confusion. It was such a transfer of love and total bliss. I cold tell that they cared about every aspect of me unconditionally. Its was if we were all the same person. I can not describe how that feels. At this point, the lady I was with told me to come with her. We walked away form the crowd. She told me I must go back to my family, that my time would come one day, that there was no need to rush anything. I started to argue. I in no shape or form wanted to go back. However, I came to an understanding. She told me to lie in the grass. The next thing I knew, I was on the floor of my house chocking with my wife standing over me. I was taken to the hospital. My blood pressure was 210 over 190 and I was fixing to have a heart attack and my lungs were full of fluids. I spent the next week and a half in the hospital. Never once did any bad news from the docs affect me. I knew I could not loose, no matter what. It took me about a couple of months to get over that experience. Although, I remember ever detail of it, some of the emotion has gone. I can not wait to go back, but I do know it has to be on the right terms.