The book was published in 2010, Divine Intervention, on amazon.com.
It was a was to show my thankfulness to God as I reveal my own sinfulness. If it
helps one person it was worth it.
EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
Well, the above told of the time it happened, and when my husband found me
on the toilet, he picked me up and shook me, and told me to throw up what I had
taken or he was going to stick his fingers down my throat and do it himself. I
was out of it, and started to thrown up, and massive amounts of alcohol came up.
That is how I knew that my state was critical. But, after that, I went nuts my
husband said, saying things I had never, I wanted to die, and I didn't want to
be here anymore and that I can't do it anymore. It was like my heart was exposed
and things started to pour out of me that I didn't know was in me. It was
bottled up , I was hard to handle and my husband was trying to calm me down as I
was crying and the only thing I can remember is seeing my daughter and she
snapped me back into reality. I calmed down and went to sleep. My husband said
he never heard me talk that way and was nuts. I felt different and was feeling
pain I had never, I didn't even know I had those feelings in me. Since then my
drugs use and alcohol got extremely worse, not better , quickly as if the gates
of hell was opened up and coming after me. But at the same time I was acquiring
this strong desire to talk about God and go to church. It was like I was
fighting a battle between flesh and spirit over my soul and my will.
A lot of supernatural things started to happen around me and I was slowly
figuring out that it was God speaking to me and drawing me to Him. This
understanding was rising in me of things I never knew about people, situations
and knowledge of discerning good and evil. I also was seeing weird things that I
wanted to explain away because it was scary. Faces distorted, and people sounded
different to me, not in a good way. Unexplainable things were happening and my
coworkers were noticing it as well. I had a huge craving and desire to read the
bible and pray. Which I never had before. I would read the bible and the words
jumped off the page at me as if someone or many were greeting me and things that
I didn't understand started to come together of why I was born that I had to
make a conscious choice to turn from my old nature and depend on God in what he
was revealing to me supernaturally, so, I did, I gave up all drugs and drinking
and spoke to God, and said, okay, Lord, you got me. My life took a huge turn
around. I saw God. I started to see
visions as if it was a motion picture playing and went through a horrible
developmental inner knowledge and wisdom that was grievous. Dear Lord it was too
much. Things came in parts, as sometimes the truth was hard to bare about
myself, people, world, and sinful nature. I went in my mind everything I had
done that I needed to ask for forgiveness for as if God was reminding me, I
cried and cried in prayers everyday for hours for God to come get me.
I saw intrinsic detailed pictures in the clouds on windows, everywhere I
looked I would see God's face staring back at me, mostly smiling at me,
especially in the clouds, and God would talk to me in dreams and show up
supernaturally to speak to me. I ran to Him crying like a child, in my critical
state of being, knowing how I felt
was not normal. I was extremely sick and felt suicidal when I knew I had almost
died that night. I wasn't aware that I left my body until God revealed to me ,
what He had done for me. I left my body that night as I can remember being with
an angel, but I wasn't allowed to see their face. I wasn't sure why I couldn't
see their face but it was a angel. I was outside my backyard in the air about,,
25 feet in the air from the ground standing on the left side of this angel,
looking inside my backyard window at the couch seeing myself sitting there. We
never spoke words, only in our minds that I understood what this angel was
telling me, I was shown that I would go through a healing process and this was
when it would start.
This has been 7 years ago and I tried to write everything down since then so I
wouldn't forget. But I vividly remember being up in the air with an angel
looking from the outside into my backyard window at myself, and that I would be
going through a healing process., I always wondered why I wasn't allowed to see
this angels' face but I know why now. I also remember having this wonderful
peace within myself and I didn't have any bad memories of my past or anything.
But I never left this earth. I never saw bright lights or fields of green or
anything, I was suspended in the air outside in my backyard with an angel, who
was revealing my future to me. When I found out that I did almost die, I was so
angry and hurt.
A lot at my family because no one helped me and cared about my soul, or
tried to get me help, and I was hurt that God didn't want me. That I wasn't good
enough for Him to stay and be in heaven. Also, what was really big, was when
that revelation was given to me, it didn't just come with knowledge that I had,
it came with a heavenly blissful intimate truth experience which made me not
want to be here anymore in a great way and I was extremely suicidal for a long
time, especially with the pain I was going through in the state my soul was in.
It was a lot to handle and I would miss sleep to stay up and spend time with God
as I only wanted to be with Him, seeing His face and other visions. I knew it
was God because the process was helping me get better and wanting the answers to
get well. My whole life changed, and after over 7 years, I still am radical but
a lot more balanced, still dealing with the skeptics and unbelievers.
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes
I had been battling drugs and alcohol
abuse for 17 years. I had drank a lot while snorting cocaine and took zanex
pills to come down from the cravings for more cocaine. It was too much that
night and I passed out on the toilet, slumped over on my lap, and my alcohol
level was rising with all that I drank. That is when I understood later that I
had an out of body experience and left my body, but I am not sure how long I had
been there before I was found. And if my husband hadn't had found me, I probably
, not sure, would have survived.
Was the
experience difficult to express in words?
Yes
very much so, people didn't understand the
spiritual language I was speaking, plus it was hard describing the wonderfulness
and flood of emotions and experience. I had no trouble telling of my
experiences, which to me was happening so frequently, that I thought it was a
normal thing, but people didn't understand. I would share with utter delight but
all that was happening was so mind boggling that I would end up having to
convince people instead and made me angry that they weren't interested or were
trying to understand or want to believe. I tried not to exaggerate what was
going on so people would believe me and my testimony would not be jeopardized,
but it never failed, they didn't want what I was sharing about God.
At what time
during the experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and alertness?
At the moment I made a
conscious choice to give my whole heart to God and turn from everything I
knew about the world in faith. I knew I was missing out of something great.
Also, remembering I had been in an out of body experience, when revealed my
spirit didn't seem like spirit, I felt more real than I had ever and at more
peace with everything I had ever known, I felt that within me.
How did your
highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to
your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
It was like I was seeing the world
differently and hearing things and noticing things I hadn't before, seeing
colors that I wasn't before. Everything was different, even songs that would
speak directly to my heart which was a huge part of my healing process.
Everything in an awareness was heightened, and my emotions were like one big
huge wound, so everything and every word affected me greatly, especially words,
I knew when God was speaking and when He wasn't, as words would literally poke,
and pick my inner being, and God was lifting me up and loving me, not making me
hurt worst, as I was on an edge of despair, of not even wanting to exist
anymore. He was teaching me, who He was with how the words felt and the songs I
was listening to. This went on from my out of body experience, it was at it's
highest level when I depended on God completely.
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that
you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.
It felt real and I never felt so alive before, heavenly feeling of peace and
calmness, all was well with my soul.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that
you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.
Yes, my hearing was not normal in some situations
as if I was standing right next to them. Mostly it was at times of what I didn't
want to hear.
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that
your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
No
But at the start , I would have
reoccurring events that I knew I had done before, and places like I had been
there before. I had many dreams and visions of future events that were going to
take place later in my life as if I was there experiencing them at the time. I
also had a profound internal direct feeling, knowing, and awareness, that Jesus
Christ was going to come at any moment, and I waited and looked in the sky for
Him for hours on end, upon days. He would speak to me in pictures in the clouds
and picture images on my window of Him and other images. But I knew He was
coming, soon.
What emotions
did you feel during the experience?
At the time of my out of body experience, I felt an
overwhelming peace that my soul was all right with it self, no bad memories, not
nothing of being drunk while being passed out. I was aware of being alive not
spirit though I remember looking down and knowing that I was up in the air
suspended with someone by my side helping me.
Did you pass
into or through a tunnel?
No
Did you see an
unearthly light?
No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an
unidentifiable voice?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly
origin
I was with an angel, but we did not speak with
our mouths only with our minds.
Did you
encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are
described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?
No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
No
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?
No
only future events.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
Clearly I was spirit
seeing myself suspended in the air above the ground, I did not leave this earth
of what I can remember. I was shown my future and what I would be going through
in a healing process with this angel that was with me. I was not allowed to see
their face, I only knew a divine presence was with me, helping me with
understanding in my out of body experience,
Did time seem to speed up or slow down?
No
I believe I felt there
was not time, as I have no idea how long I was out before my husband found me,
but it seemed like a lot I was experiencing, but I believe there was no time to
experience in that realm
Did you
suddenly seem to understand everything?
No
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
Yes
Suspended in the air with a divine being, angel
with me, and it felt like heaven to me it was so peaceful within myself. I
wasn't addicted to anything, or felt anything of the sort or even drunk while in
spirit.
Did you
come to a border or point of no return?
No
Did scenes
from the future come to you?
Scenes
from my personal future
Yes, this was the purpose of my being out of body
I believe, to show me what was going to happen in an awareness ahead of time,
also I believe God filled me with His power of Presence to help me. I was
revealed that I would be sitting on my couch, crying, and other future events
that I didn't remember until I would go through them later and I knew I had done
it before.
During your experience, did you encounter any
specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not)
continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?
Yes
That there is definitely a life beyond the
body, and in the presence of God who is peace love and oneness in mind and
spirit with His chosen. I live now in an open awareness of enlightenment ,
seeing things I never did in nature animals, and people and His plan for the
world, and His Son Jesus Christ. It is like living in the midst of a different
realm that is all around us, and seeing God everywhere, His face smiling,
clouds, nature, animals, songs, and having this knowledge internally of how much
He is crazy about us and wants none to perish.
During your experience, did you encounter any
specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or
does not) exist?
Yes
that when you are out of body, you are
present with the Lord and anything that isn't right internally, is filled with
balance of peace and love, and enveloped with it.
During your experience, did you encounter any
specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to
this lifetime?
Yes
that I needed to heal from sin and the
hurts from this world and to fall in Love with God and to know Him intimately,
and personally. I never knew you could, never knew how personal God is and How
he wants to reveal Himself to us. I felt that internally, I had a God knowledge
and awareness that was awakened that I did not have before, and eyes were opened
to seeing the unseen, of good and evil. God was real, He was close and wanted to
get closer to me, I was in His hand as he showed me. I couldn't do anything
without wanting to be closer to Him and I read books after books, and
testimonies, trying to know about the ONE I was falling in love with. His ways
were amazing, and wonderful, full of mercy and compassion, and you wanted more
and more and more of Him.
During your experience, did you encounter any
specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or
unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?
Yes
many visions and Truth that changed me for
the better that freed my mind from wrong thinking, and helped me move on to more
healing, the more understanding that I was given the more peace I felt. I saw
God, I smelled smells and images, that I wrote down, and tried to draw what I
was seeing. I saw images in the clouds, which was one way He was speaking to me,
I would see Him in nature. I would experience heightened highs that would send
me into worship for hours dancing and speaking in tongues,((((( this was not in
my out of body experience, this was in my experience with God in the last seven
years, )))))))
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?
Yes
That I
was sick and needing to heal.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?
Yes
That I was sick and needing to heal.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding love?
Yes
I was in a heavenly blissful state, I had
never felt that peaceful before, yes, it was heaven to me.
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information /
awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living
our earthly lives?
Uncertain
Not that I recall, other than I would have
this understanding I needed a lot of healing from God.
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?
Yes
How repentance is so important and that
everyone has some ways or sin to turn from and be healed from the effects sin
leaves in you. How sick we really are down here. I had a mission to tell others
about what God was doing, did in my life, what he showed me, about Truth, and
sin and good and evil.
What
occurred during your experience included:
Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had
at the time of your experience
That the bible says, when you are out of body,
you are present with the Lord. His presence is what sustains the universe in
love, peace and joy that is heaven and surpasses all understanding.
How
accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events
that occurred around the time of the experience?
I remember the experience as
accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
I know there is more in my out of body
experience, and I have wrote down some of the details so I would not forget, but
I know there is so of it that I can not even put into words. It is that
wonderful. I wish I would have been better in writing more in details about all
my experience in the beginning, I had no idea how priceless and wonderful the
riches I was given really was at the time. I had no idea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life
after your experience:
My fear level
has diminished considerably, but I was so immersed in the presence of God that I
was extremely fearful of everything, and people. I was fearful that God was
going to be mad at me, I tried to hard to turn my life around to be the best
person for Him, in completely obedience, I changed everything I knew that didn't
line up in understanding of how to walk in His Spirit. I know that my fears were
irrational and kept me in bondage, but I also had a bravery about me in big
faith to put myself out there , in my unhealed state to change their world and
turn it upside down with how wrong, unfair and hurtful it is. I wanted justice
and I believe I was kept in fear for a reason to not put myself out there like
that. God knew I would, because I believed what I knew was true, it was
happening to me, and was real. So, I had no reserves to be a Joan of Ark, but I
wasn't well, and a lot of what I didn't know could have hurt me terribly, even
in my good intentions. I needed to understand better and heal the hurt and anger
that rose up in me in a fury.
My experience directly resulted in:
Large changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that
occurred as a result of the experience?
Yes
absolutely, everything has to line up with
God's word and what pleases Him. Even the deeper issues of the heart and tackle
them to walk in His Truth and Righteousness. I have understandings in depths,
and it is a hard walk, but, I know it is a gift.
Are
there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or
significant to you?
Yes, seeing
Jesus and I dancing together on my patio window in a wedding dress. Seeing His
face and my Heavenly Father's face. Seeing Jesus on His Throne, Seeing Jesus.
That is riches beyond to me and when He speaks to me personally. The words are
better than gold...
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other
special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?
Yes
Many.....
Are there one or several parts of your experience
that are especially meaningful or significant to you?
Yes, seeing Jesus and I dancing
together on my patio window in a wedding dress. Seeing His face and my Heavenly
Father's face. Seeing Jesus on His Throne, Seeing Jesus. That is riches beyond
to me and when He speaks to me personally. The words are better than gold...
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
Yes
I shared with anyone who would listen at
the time until, they didn't want to listen anymore. Then I decided to write a
book of my testimony and experiences.
I only shared about 1/3 of my experience as it was so much to
write about and it would have been maybe TOO much for anyone, but I am more than
willing to share everything with anyone , if they want to know what God has and
is doing for me.
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Yes
Not much, I have heard of others
experiencing beyond, and saw movies, like Ghost and such, but not really , no.
What
did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks)
after it happened:
Experience was
definitely real
There is NO DOUBTS WHATSOEVER< AND I WOULD
DIE FOR EVERY WORD I SHARE ABOUT MY EXPERIENCE. IT DOESN'T CHANGE IT IF YOU
BELIEVE IT OR NOT, IT HAPPENDED, AND I DON'T CARE WHAT ANYONE THINKS. People who
know the truth, will know. And it is a mind set to believe, if you really want
the supernatural, or more of God, it is believing the impossibility , and that
comes with faith of knowing who God is.
What
do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:
Experience was definitely real
I am still experiencing God and His grace
and love. Seeing Him still in the clouds, and eating His live words he speaks
and listening to Him sing over me. As I never give up, never.
Have your relationships changed
specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
My family and I
are not close anymore because of my radical conversion. No, I have a hard time
with relationships now.
Have your religious
beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
I pray without
ceasing, always talking and communicating to God in my mind , as a form of
meditation, I worship in a living lifestyle, and I find ways to fill needs for
anyone, I love genuinely, every person I meet. Though some are harder to love
than others, I am TOO trusting, and I do not offend anyone, as I am careful of
every word that comes out of my mouth. I care about others more than myself, and
I am learning to love myself as God sees me. My heart screams for God and
desires a very close relationship with HIM, that is He always there and He shows
Himself to me. I trust that He protects me in this world, and I have compassion
for sinners and ignorant people who don't know how to act better in behavior and
manners. Respect in authority is huge in God's order, and I have humbled myself
greatly, I long to help others get closer to God and love affection. I hate
evil.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the
experience?
Yes
I lived out the healing on the couch just
like I saw in my out of body experience , which was a specific night of seeing
God appear in my tree outside my window. It was the beginning of everything.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about
your experience?
It hasn't
ended, and I would love to share with anyone what has happened to me, about God
and even help know God and His love and power in your life. Supernatural things
starts happening when I share and come encountered with others, God is with me
in a way that is very supernatural.
Did the questions asked and information that you
provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
I believe so, it was a lot, and I have a
lot to share so, if I forget anything or if you want to know more of the whole
full story in details, let me know, I would LOVE IT! it is so phenomenal!!!
WOW!, Please offer any suggestions that you may have to improve
this questionnaire. Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you
communicate your experience?
What could a national organization
with an interest in near death experience (NDE) do that would be of interest to
you?
I have a lot of God knowledge and wisdom that is
life changing. It is His word, and it comes with an eternal value when sharing.
My life experience is unique but I believe was given to me to share in faith so
God can and will show up to reaffirm the factual events. It is wonderful and I
love to minister to others about the afterlife.
Please offer any suggestions that
you may have to improve this questionnaire.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate
your experience? Not sure at the
moment, my brain is on overload. God Bless you! Hope you like what I have shared
so far!,
