Matteo M NDE 5197

Matteo M NDE

edited for clarity by Judy Shea 6/1/11

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

On October 31, 2010, I was at friend's home with other friends to celebrate Halloween. At one o'clock AM, I felt the need to leave, as if it were a call; I do not know why. I took my car and I started driving aimlessly.

I have only vague memories of the roads I traveled.

I crashed my car into a tree, but I remember seeing myself crashing. I was watching from just across the street exactly opposite the tree. From there, I saw my car coming, with me inside, and crashing.

I was calm, I did not feel pain.

My body was in seriously bad shape: it lay stretched out on the street, helpless, with broken right wrist, a very large wound to my tibia, a closed anterior laryngeal fracture and countless bleeding scrapes and cuts all over my body.

I stared at my body in that awful condition. I was very sad, but I did not despair.

I watched the rescuers working to help me.

I gazed at the path of the ambulance as it drove away, but suddenly I felt dragged and dropped back, then pulled forward into a black tunnel.

As I continued on, the blackness faded and I entered into a space, a place, a dimension which I don't know how to name - but it was all white.

It seemed to be a perfect white - emanating heat, light, serenity, tranquility, and understanding. I felt good there.

I was just my soul - I did not have a sense of my body.

I saw people at the bottom left, but they did not seem interested in me.

Right in front of me, though, I saw a sort of silhouette coming towards me, but I couldn't identify what it was, because it/he/she ?? was too bright. I think the figure spoke to me, and maybe I spoke with it...?? , anyway, something happened, but I can't remember what, or what words were said. (It was actually telepathy, more than words. We communicated without physical speech.)

I remember basically a feeling being conveyed of "NO," in the sense that it/he/she?? was not satisfied with my life.

From behind this figure, other minor shapes appeared, and they came closer, communicating something - but I can't remember what they were saying, either.

I begged them to let me stay there with them, but they refused.

I saw them walk away, and the blackness surrounded me again - and then I woke up in the hospital.

All this took place over a period of four hours, but it seemed to me that I was away for only ten minutes.

Two weeks after my discharge from the hospital, I started getting severe headaches and whistling in my ears at about one o'clock AM (the time of the crash) every night. This lasted for a about a month. The traditional medications for treating headaches were useless. A very strange thing.

Now eight months have passed and I don't have as many of those episodes - but still have them sometimes - very strong headaches, and ringing in my ears.

I hear a voice inside my head that I've never heard before and it sometimes speaks to me.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes.     I cannot describe the place where I was, nor the forms/people I saw. I can not remember the words (or thoughts) which they communicated to me.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes.     A serious car crash. The accident caused a broken wrist, a large tibia wound and frontal closed laryngeal fracture. (I had never been sick, nor had any health problems, before.)

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    At the beginning, when I saw my self crashing into a tree.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal.

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            At the beginning, when I saw my self crashing into a tree.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes.     Now when I look into your eyes, I see what you hide from the world. I see your fears, anxieties - what haunts you - and I suffer with you.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes.     I heard a voice in my head, that I NEVER heard before! And I still hear it.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            When I was surrounded by white: peace, calm, tranquility, understanding.

When I crossed the tunnel: disorientation.

When I woke up: disorientation, melancholy.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes.     I felt sucked in and then pulled forward to enter this tunnel. And the more I went forward, the more pieces of me I lost. At the end the tunnel I was pure white.

Did you see a light?           Yes.     The light was white, and the white was light. A full white light. A light that included all. There was everything in that light.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes.     I saw some people, five or six, at the bottom left, but it seemed that they were not interested in me. They continued to talk to each other.

But from straight in front of me, I saw a very bright figure approaching. However, I was not able to recognize what sort of being it was.

And, from behind this figure, three other figures came out; they were less bright - but they were still pretty bright.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Uncertain.      I do not remember!

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain.      I don't remember!

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes.     The white dimension-light-place-space.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes.     The time that passed felt to me as if it was ten minutes, but I was told the whole thing took about four hours.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes.     I knew everything. They also told me my purpose, and I understood it clearly then, but I can't remember it any more. But I know one thing now. When I play music, I feel good, and useful.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes.     I can see your troubles.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes.     I told two of my friends what happened to me and neither of them understood it, and they didn't know what to say. I have known them about four years. Three, before the accident.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Shortly after it happened, I thought the experience was probably real.    I heard a voice in my head that told me it was all real.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    I was sad because I wanted to stay with them, but they forced me to return.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Now I definitely think the experience was real.  The voice keeps telling me.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes.    I am more solitary.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Uncertain.     My English isn't good. Maybe in Italian language I would feel more comfortable.