Mary I Probable NDE
After an abortion, I started to have a severe hemorrhage. In the beginning I thought it was normal in such a situation and I just waited to see if it would stop by itself. After two days, as the bleeding didn't cease, I went to the hospital, by that time feeling very weak and with difficulty to stand.
After being examined, I became aware that my health condition required care and I was admitted to the hospital, where I stayed in a room with two beds.
I felt myself too weak, feeling pain and physical discomfort but aware of what was happening.
I am not quite sure how long I remained in this state, if it was one or two nights. I didn't feel that I was recovering myself, on the opposite, the discomfort and weakness continued, I had very light sleep and woke up many times.
On the third night (or second?) under a very distressed sleep I opened my eyes, already awaken. I was feeling really bad, with much ache, and much discomfort due the tubes connected to my body.
The room was dimly lit; from the bed I could see the switch for the ceiling lamp and at the back, I could distinguish the room door.
My eyes were focused on the switch when I noticed people rushing into my bedroom. I saw a hand moving closer to the switch and at this moment, and before the light was on, I felt that I was “ascending”.
I felt great relief, I had no more pain or discomfort, and I had come out from a situation that in all aspects was terrible. I looked downwards full of curiosity, I tried to look at me but I couldn't see myself clearly, just a figure half hidden by the people around; my bed was away from the wall and there were many people moving on both sides of the bed.
An older African nurse, who worked during the night shift, was the only one that treated me with attention. When I saw her I felt sorry and also indebted to her for seeing her great concern about me but I knew I didn't want in any way to return to that situation.
Then I recognized two other nurses, they had always treated me in a sharp way and with dislike due to the fact I was in the hospital because of an abortion. I admit I felt even better when I saw them, for not being in “that downwards confusion”, and also for another type feeling, not so kind, but which I felt like: “It serves you right, now you worry about me.”
There was still another person whom I didn't recognize.
After what it seemed to me to be a very short time, and without any manifestation of will, I came back to my body. There were still people around but they showed an expression of relief; they were arranging my clothes and positioning my bed near the wall. I felt again all discomfort and pain although, possibly, I was not so weak. The biggest difference I felt was that I had no more feelings of shame and impotence for being there. They turned off the lights and left the room.
I stayed one
more night in the hospital; I remember that they told me I had given them a
fright but I didn't want to know what had happened. As soon as I could, I left
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes. I hadn't talk about it for many years as it is associated to a traumatic event.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Uncertain. I think so, but by that time I hadn't any perception about the severity of my health condition.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I had been conscious and alert all the time except for the moment I “came down".
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness.
I had been conscious and alert all the time except for the moment I “came down".
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? No
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Uncertain. I don't remember what they were saying probably because I was not paying attention to that. My curiosity was firstly directed to my body and then, as I couldn't see it well, to the persons around it.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Great relief, happiness, no pain, awe, curiosity, empathy and antipathy for the nurses.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No
Did you see a light? No
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Uncertain. I have no idea about the length of the experience.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? No
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes. I hadn't talk about it to anyone as it is associated to a traumatic event. About three years ago, I told this experience to a male friend who was interested in these phenomena. He immediately associated it to religious aspects, I didn't proceed talking about the subject and I regret having told him.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real. I have never doubted about the reality of my experience probably due to the lucidity of my thoughts throughout the experience.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? The sense of relief and absence of pain are unforgettable, the absence of guilty for the not so good feelings I often repress, the pleasant sensation of ascending. The feeling of gladness and peace of the whole experience and after it, a higher importance for being alive and a higher consideration for others suffering.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real. See answer 40
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes