Marty M NDE
Edited for clarity by Judy Shea 5/14/11
I was in total blackness and wondered to myself "What?" - not in English or any other language, but the essence of the word. I had no cognizance of anything previous. I felt like I had just been born, not as an infant, but as inquisitive youth. Then, on my left I saw plants and blue sky forming. Somehow I sensed welcome and love from them. As they materialized, I felt I was way out in the country in a meadow. When they began to form in front of me I sensed something wonderful was beyond them. I couldn't wait to get beyond them to explore, when suddenly I sensed I couldn't move. I looked down and saw a vast area. Within the area I saw many little individual areas. One flashed, and at that point I knew it was this life, and I had to come back. I said in English, "Oh, no!" because I didn't want to leave that wonderful place. In an instant I opened my eyes and looked at the EMT, who was so busily trying to save my life. My only thought was "Why did he have to bring me away from that wonderful place?".
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes. Heart attack.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Not sure.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal.
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: Not sure.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? No.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? No.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Wonder, joy, excitement, and a distinct and unique feeling of being "whole".
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No.
Did you see a light? No.
Did you meet or see any other beings? No.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Uncertain. When I looked down, the vast area I saw was time, or existence, and the little areas I saw, I assume, were other lifetimes.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes. It was as if time had no meaning.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes. I knew spirits had many lives previously, as well yet to come. Also, the importance of unconditional love and to always follow the Golden Rule.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain. When I tried to go beyond the trees, I could not move.
Did you become aware of future events? No.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain. I feel very fortunate to have experienced the NDE and I feel I understand the relationship of the spirit to the body. I feel spiritual (at times very spiritual) yet I've rejected religion. I also feel there is only one thing left for me to do in this life: unite with a soul mate, or possibly "twin flame" (a seemingly fitting term that I learned about after the NDE), but which sadly has not happened - and may not.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes. I began telling people about it right away. Some believe it, some don't, for any and all reasons.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes. I was familiar with Elisabeth Kubler-Ross and had read, or heard of, NDEs before. No, it did not affect my experience because I had become an atheist about 10 years prior to the NDE.
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real. Immediately after, it made perfect sense to me. I understood so many things that I'd questioned in my past.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? Foremost, learning we have a spirit, or consciousness, that is eternal. Next, that it's not about reward, judgment or punishment, but enlightenment - and that unconditional love is the most important thing that exists. And I seem to have gotten answers to many more things that I have contemplated - too lengthy to go into here.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real. I understood so many things that I'd questioned in my past. Also, I had that incredible feeling of "wholeness" or completeness, a dimension to my spiritual self I'd never experienced before (probably have, it's just forgotten...just as we forget our past lives and/or spiritual home).
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes. I was raised Lutheran, and eventually became atheistic about 10 years before the NDE. I now experience very spiritual moments. However, I reject all religions, as so many are bogged down with what I see as primitive dogma, meaningless rituals and distorted interpretations.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? No.
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes. Very thorough.
Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience? None.