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Marnie A NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
I felt like I awoke in a white room.  Not really a white room, but that's my best explanation.  The color was a blinding, bright white room with no edges.  To this day, I can see it as if it happened yesterday.  Although it seemed blindingly bright, there were no lights.  No sound at all, just quiet.  No smells either.  The best way to describe it is as if you're in a "clean room".  Not eerie at all, just silence.  It seemed the room had no beginning or end.   

There was an old white man standing before me, not speaking.  He had a receded hairline and cleanly shaven.  He was of average height and weight.  He wore white as well.  It looked like a tunic or a long-sleeved shirt that went down to his ankles.  Even though I was 5 years at the time and didn't know who this man was, I felt completely at peace and not threatened or scared one bit.  I did feel a bit of confusion because I wondered how I got there.  I also did not remember the accident at that time.  It seemed that event was far away like it happened so long ago, I had forgotten the event.  I did feel like that this was a non-threatening event and that I was where I needed to be.  I had a feeling as if I was not meant to be there even though no words were said or his body language didn't imply that I shouldn't be there.  It was almost as if it was just understood. At that moment, I felt like I was going back.  That place was disappearing which I can't explain.  Just disappearing.  At that point I started to hear a man's voice.  I started to hear the sirens.  The sirens got louder and realized I was in an ambulance and a man was sitting next to me telling me that "Everything is okay.  You'll be okay."  I passed out again and wasn't conscious until much later. 

When I woke up in the hospital, I couldn't make what happened to me.  I thought it was just some freaky dream and put just filed that memory away.

 Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     It was monsoon season in Hawaii and it's very hard to see the cars due to the down pour.  We had a green light to go, but a vehicle ran the red light and we collided.  At this time, seat belts was not standard in vehicles or not required to use.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    The whole experience, I was at the highest level of consciousness and alertness.  It was clear as day.  No moment of "is that...what's that..." at all.  I knew what I saw, what I heard, and what I felt.  There was no denying any of it.  Maybe because of the fact that I was a child and no "real-life experiences" to corrupt what I went through and try to "make sense" of what I was experiencing.

 How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            The whole experience, I was at the highest level of consciousness and alertness.  It was clear as day.  No moment of "is that...what's that..." at all.  I knew what I saw, what I heard, and what I felt.  There was no denying any of it.  Maybe because of the fact that I was a child and no "real-life experiences" to corrupt what I went through and try to "make sense" of what I was experiencing.

 Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     I felt that the bright white was too much for my eyes.  That's pretty much it.

 Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?            No       There was no sound.  I wasn't deaf or hard of hearing, but there was absolutely no sound at all.

 Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I felt extremely curious and I felt at peace.  I just felt that there was no fear or happiness, but just a sense of peace.  Like I was enlightened.

 Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           Yes     Well I didn't see a light.  It was just ultra bright like light.  No shadows whatsoever.  No colors at all other than the white man with his receded, gray, short hair.

 Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     I did not know the man I saw.  It was an older gentleman about 60+.  He did not show any expressions whatsoever.  He did not speak or move.  But I did feel at peace and that I was not meant to be there and I had this feeling as though I had important things to do.

 Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No      

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No
           
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     I've had a few other NDE's.  During these experiences, I felt as if there was a guardian angel whispering in my ear.  Not literally, but felt that there was someone watching over me.  In my teen years, I was in the Philippines and their bathrooms were not modern.  Basically the floor is flooded with water when you shower and then it just runs down the drain.  Well their electrical devices are sub-par at best.  Well I showered in the morning and then I dressed.  I was standing in about 2 inches of water.  I was about flip the lights off and was literally reaching for the switch when I had this urge to put on my flip-flops.  Usually I put them on when I'm about to walk into the hallway.  That's my ritual.  Well I had this urge to put my flip-flops on and I did.  I went to flip the switch to turn the lights out and didn't realize the flipper fell off and I touched the exposed wires.  I shocked the hell out of my hand, but was fine.  Shaken, but was fine.  Mind you I was standing in two inches of water.  I feel that if I had not put them on, I would have been electrocuted and in the Philippines, there's not a clinic or hospital in close proximity.  You would have to go into the city.  At that time, I knew someone was watching over me.  There was no other way for me to explain breaking my ritual just this one time.  (Did I mentioned I'm a little obsessive compulsive?  You don't just change on the fly. 

Now I have some form of psychic ability because I would dream of things to come somewhat regularly.  Mostly in my youth, but haven't had those "dreams" anymore.  I don't know why.  But I do get vibes of people and know them before I would "know them" formally.  And I have seen a couple of ghosts in my lifetime, but one thing that is strange for others to fathom is I seem to know when there's a cemetery close by.  I feel it.  I feel as if they're trying to get my attention, but I don't see them.  I would say that I think we're about to pass a cemetery.  Soon enough, we pass it.  I don't like cemeteries.  I don't like to go to them because I would get these pains on my legs as if they're grabbing at me.  Can't communicate with them in any way.  I sometimes get flashes of images when I'm in place with high psychic energy.  I sound foolish and this IS definitely something I would not usually tell people.

 Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     Not until much later.  I was afraid of they would call me a loon.  But I was pleasantly surprised they didn't dismiss it at all.  They believed me wholeheartedly. I didn't influence anyone to my knowledge.

 Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    It was just something that happened.  I was a kid.  It knew it wasn't a dream, but didn't feel like I had to tell people because I thought that was just normal.  It was real like going into the office to do work.

 Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            Well it was meaningful and significant to me because it was extraordinary.

 How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    It was definitely real.  I can tell the difference between a dream and reality.  That experience was real.  I just knew it.  I felt completely aware of my surroundings.

 Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           No      

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        No.

 Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes    

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?   Maybe a forum for these people that experienced this phenomenon, so we can communicate.  I know it's very confusing and you want answers and you want to ask a ton of questions, so I think a forum would be great.