Mark G Probable NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION

I came down with the flu, which turned into pneumonia.  We were visiting my wife's brother's house at the time.  I went to the hospital the day previous where they took an X-ray that showed pneumonia. I forget the name of the antibiotic.  I started taking it.  The next day, my coughing was very bad.  I was coughing up blood and feeling like I couldn't breathe right.  I was leaning over the sink coughing up this blood and I remember praying for help when, the next thing I knew, I saw what could only be described as a shadowy hand in my mind.  I had to make a choice.  I was told that I could continue and that we have 3 times in life to make the choice, but that for me, my health would be worse in the future.  I was desperate and I had two small boys at the time.  I remember taking the hand and grabbing it and putting it right on my back where the pneumonia had shown on the X-ray.  Immediately I stopped coughing. 

The next day, we were coming home to Virginia and I was having what looked like an allergic reaction to the antibiotic.  We stopped at the hospital and the doctor looked at me and said it did look like a reaction.  He asked why I was prescribed it and I told him pneumonia.  He asked if I had the X-rays and I told I'm that it was done in a hospital in Maryland.  He ordered another which showed absolutely no sign of pneumonia.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Uncertain            Was placed on antibiotics

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain      Not really?  I was suffering from pneumonia and was coughing up blood.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           Not very conscious and I feel like parts of it are submerged,  I clearly remember the big hand and putting it on my back where I believe the blood was coming from when I coughed.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Yes, parts of it.  I felt like I was going to die and then complete relief

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No      

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            First, fear and then gratitude.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           No

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No           

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Uncertain      Just the hand

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          No       Did you have any sense of altered space or time?          Yes     While the discussion of choices was occurring, I felt like that took a long time, but I don't really remember much of it.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             Uncertain      Not sure, but I felt like I could choose to continue getting sick and die.

Did you become aware of future events?       No      

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes     Wasn't really outside of my body per se, but it was weird

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No      

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I have almost become obsessed with getting back there.  I had another experience when I was younger that I consciously had done, and now it seems as if I'm obsessed with NDE and OBE.  Mostly just reading about them.  I have come to believe that reality is much different than we believe but I am trying to prove it and am getting frustrated by it.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I now have doubts about everything.  I am much more nary, but also am much quicker to forgive than I used to be.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Uncertain      Not sure if it has or not.  I feel some sort of sense of purpose, but I'm angry and want to be told what it is so I can be done with it.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     Once, but they were ok with it.  No judgment.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Awe.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Best part was no more coughing up blood.  Worst part is that I have even more health issues than I did.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        It was my second experience with something weird.  I will make a separate post regarding that.