At first, I felt a roaring and a ringing in my ears, then my whole body filled
with love and it was like I became one with something, like a fusion, and then
disappeared. Then I woke up and it felt like I was going, traveling into a
tunnel-like room. What I heard was very faint voices, there were a lot of
nurses running around and it felt like they were trying to help me. Suddenly I
heard someone say it was finished, it's over now, and then I stopped
traveling, all was completely quiet and calm and I saw myself lying in a
little depression on the floor. I was lying on something soft, I had a pair of
jeans on and a mint green T-shirt that were some of my favorite clothes at
the time. I felt total warmth, safety, I was filled with love and happiness.
I saw a man standing next to a door, he looked at me with brown, enormously loving eyes that were absolutely radiant. He looked and smiled, laughed and shook his head, like "you're not supposed to be here". I felt some kind of kinship with this man and felt completely loved by him. The only thing I wanted was to stay, but I felt I wasn't going to be allowed to do that. The man had brown hair that was beginning to turn grey, he was middle aged and was dressed in a gown that looked a bit like a dress, in brilliant colors with dark blue bottom and a red and golden yellow and white pattern or details, and he was wearing a necklace with a symbol that I don't quite remember. He reminded me of something like a guru. The room was very bright and the man was very clearly visible. I experienced this place as white and filled with light. All of a sudden I was jerked back to the body, it was a terrible feeling, it felt cold and hard, I just wanted to go back. It was as if what had happened before this experience was like a past life, it felt like it all took place a very long time ago.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:No
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?
Well, the emotional state is impossible to describe afterwards since you can't compare it to some similar feeling in reality. If you meet a soul mate you can possibly come up to a similar level of the feeling of unconditional love.
At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body? Yes
Describe your appearance or form apart from your body: Yes, but not until I was jerked back to the body.
What emotions did you feel during the experience?Feelings of warmth, unconditional love, safety, fervor. I felt some kind of wholeness. When I came back I felt cold, uneasiness, aversion.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Uncertain
Describe: Yes, I was in a space with an entrance or door where the man was standing.
Did you see a light? Uncertain
Describe: This place was very bright, but I don't know if it came from somewhere in particular because I couldn't see inside the entrance or door.
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Uncertain
Describe: The man who was standing there I believe is a man I met in 2002. He's the same age, same color of the eyes, same height. I feel he is my soul mate.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Describe: Yes, when I came back to the body it felt like what had happened before was in another life a long time ago.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes
Describe: Yes, that love is the meaning of life, to help people heal and make people feel loved, to learn to follow your heart, learn to be aware of your human abilities. It feels like I've come to a higher state of consciousness and that I have healing powers.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes
Describe: Yes, when I came back to the body.
Did you become aware of future events? Uncertain
Describe: I think so, but I didn't understand it at the time. I think the man was a sign of my soul mate to come.
Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body? Yes
Describe: Yes, the man showed me clearly by his body language that I wasn't supposed to be there.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes
Describe: Yes, I'm much more sensitive, I have a stronger empathic ability, I can feel the energy of other people very clearly, see inside others souls in a way I couldn't before. I can feel the pain and suffering of others, it's like I've gotten a higher consciousness. I've become more aware of the deeper needs of other people. I'm more spiritual.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes
Describe: Yes, I became aware of the fact that there is a higher power, a higher purpose in life, a higher consciousness, and that the soul probably is eternal.
Has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices etc.? Career choices? It changed my approach to people, my relationships have become deeper, my contact with strangers feels more natural, I feel a greater sense of closeness to even unknown people since I can see their personality more clearly. I've become more spiritual and I'm trying to follow my heart in a totally different way compared to what I did before.
Have you shared this experience with others? Uncertain
Describe: They think it's interesting to hear, but they are skeptical and don't really believe me.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? I felt bewildered and tired, it was difficult to return to the everyday life in the same way it was before, everything felt chaotic in a way and for several days I just wanted to go back and feel that feeling again, and at the same time my feelings about life have become more and more positive. It's exciting and different when you're aware of that there's something more. It feels more important to be doing something meaningful in all you do.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The worst was when I came back to the body. The best when I was lying there and looking at the man and felt total unconditional love.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes
Describe: In my relationships it feels more important that they all are based on love. It's become more important to develop my creative sides. I've become more spiritual and want to develop this more and more.