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Marian S Probable NDE
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Marian S Probable NDE |
Edited for clarity by Judy Shea
9/4/12
EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
On 12/27/1987 I woke up very
early with pain in my abdomen and, in severe pain, I made my way to my doctor's
office. He immediately referred me to the hospital in Dresden. It was midday,
and so I had to wait for my surgery in the hall with several other patients. My
pain was unbearable and I was experiencing a kind of reddish flicker in front of
my eyes. My mother, who was with me, had been giving the staff a hard time,
which was increasing my level of stress. I had been waiting for three hours
(!!!!) with a fever of over 104°F when, finally, I was next! I was given
anesthesia, and the surgery started. After a short time of sleeping, I noticed
that I could hear what the doctors
were saying to the surgery
assistants. Shortly after, I found myself floating a little bit over my body.
From that vantage point, I watched the doctors very nervously bustling around.
They were to the left, to the right and even beneath my surgery-table.
Everything seemed to be bathed in a purple light, giving the scene a mystical
ambiance.
A bright, white light was shining on the end of the
table, and the doctors were fading in and out as if being viewed in a series of
endless self-reflecting mirrors. They were moving back and back, receding into
smaller and smaller shapes. This kept happening over and over. Also, the sound
of their spoken words seemed to echo over and over. I had the feeling I was
floating in an in-between world.
That was it, until I woke up in
the hallway lying on my sick bed.
War die Erfahrung schwierig in Worte zu fassen?
Yes, I could hardly put everything – my
emotions and my experience – into words.
Wie war der Bewusstseinszustand und
Wahrnehmung waehrend der Erfahrung? The
whole time. At the end it was weaker.
How did your highest level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal
every-day
consciousness and alertness?
More
consciousness and alertness than normal.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any
aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception
degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Uncertain, it was a mystery to me, and I can't explain
it.
It was certainly not within the reality of the hospital. The purple color was
extremely impressive, and, although later I forgot the exact words of the
discussion between the doctors, that purple color is
still
to this day right in front of my inner eye.
Did you
hearing differ in any way from your normal, every day hearing (in any aspect,
such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? Yes
What emotions did
you feel during the experience? Confusion
in the beginning, then calmness and silence.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
No
Did you see a
light? Yes, a bright glowing purple light
around the surgery table, and a bright white light shining on the end of it.
Did you
meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experience a review of
past events in your life?
No
Did you
observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that
could be verified later?
Yes, I woke up on my sick bed with the assistant-doctor slapping my cheeks and
telling me not to sleep any more. I told him about hearing what the doctors had
been saying during the surgery. He was a little bit shocked but confirmed the
words that I told him I had heard then saying. Than he left and came back again
with a nurse, who had been at my surgery, and told her about it. There had also
been an Arabic assistant-doctor (he was Palestinian, I think) at the OP – and
after the surgery, he had come in and left again while I was still sleeping.
After I woke up and told everything to the doctors, they must have let him know,
because on the following day, this Arabic doctor arrived to speak with me about
my experience. He seemed very happy to hear about it (!).
Did you
see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions? No
Did you
have any sense of altered space or time?
No
Did you
have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes,
there was a lot of knowledge, but what amazed me most was that while under
anesthesia, I could hear everything the doctors were saying, and probably also I
could read their thoughts, I remember thinking at the time.
Did you
reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did you
become aware of future events?
No
Do you
have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you
did not have prior to the experience?
Yes,
since the experience I can predict certain events before they happen. My
wife gave me the name "Old Croak", because I'm always croaking about things that
are going to happen, and then they do happen. "Self-fulfilling prophecy" – my
family calls my new gift - with a kind of humor. Just now, three weeks ago, I
forecast the exact time of the birth of my third child - punctually on the
minute. I predicted he would be delivered on 8/11/2012, at 23:00 (11:00 PM.)
The midwives all laughed, when I talked to them so seriously about this (in
spite of my emotions about the birth.) After the delivery they were exclaiming
that this had never happened before, that someone had ever made a prediction
like this one. Two midwives and my wife can testify to that. The midwives just
could not understand it, and during the delivery, they shook their heads and
kind of laughed, as the prediction came true.
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes, first with the doctors in the hospital, then with my mother, and then after
that I stopped telling anybody. And now I'm talking about it again, after
reading the book again.
Did you
have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No
How did you view the reality of your
experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened?
Experience
was definitely real. I was very
astonished that such an event could be possible. But if, as a teenager you
tell anybody a story like that,
nobody will believe
you. Therefore I repressed the whole event for a long time.
Have
your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Have your religious beliefs/practices
changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Uncertain. Now I believe in a kind of holy
awareness which surrounds us. And
I've read a lot of books about this theme. Starting with Raymond Moody in the
90s to Niemz. And I assume, that we will born again on a different planet in
this Universe. I see outer space as an endless awareness (like van Lommel talks
about).
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is there anything else you would like
to add concerning the experience?
Two
days after my surgery, I was lying on my bed. At the
foot of the bed
there was a little painted picture with a swan. At some point on that day, I
was, like, paralyzed for a short time. I couldn't move and time seemed to stand
still. Only on the picture was there any movement – the swan moved his wings!
This happened in the space of 5 - 10 seconds. After I was able to move my body
again, I called the nurse. She told me that this had been caused by the
anesthesia medicine. For me it was real, even though odd – but maybe she was
right?
Did the
questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Uncertain. I could have forgotten some things. It
was a long time ago.
Are
there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?
A better
layout! I come from public relations.
Haben
diese Fragen und Deine Antworten Dein Erlebnis korrekt und im vollem Umfang
umfasst und beschrieben? Yes