Marian S Probable NDE
Edited for clarity by Judy Shea
On 12/27/1987 I woke up very early with pain in my abdomen and, in severe pain, I made my way to my doctor's office. He immediately referred me to the hospital in Dresden. It was midday, and so I had to wait for my surgery in the hall with several other patients. My pain was unbearable and I was experiencing a kind of reddish flicker in front of my eyes. My mother, who was with me, had been giving the staff a hard time, which was increasing my level of stress. I had been waiting for three hours (!!!!) with a fever of over 104°F when, finally, I was next! I was given anesthesia, and the surgery started. After a short time of sleeping, I noticed that I could hear what the doctors were saying to the surgery assistants. Shortly after, I found myself floating a little bit over my body. From that vantage point, I watched the doctors very nervously bustling around. They were to the left, to the right and even beneath my surgery-table. Everything seemed to be bathed in a purple light, giving the scene a mystical ambiance. A bright, white light was shining on the end of the table, and the doctors were fading in and out as if being viewed in a series of endless self-reflecting mirrors. They were moving back and back, receding into smaller and smaller shapes. This kept happening over and over. Also, the sound of their spoken words seemed to echo over and over. I had the feeling I was floating in an in-between world.
That was it, until I woke up in the hallway lying on my sick bed.
War die Erfahrung schwierig in Worte zu fassen? Yes, I could hardly put everything – my emotions and my experience – into words.
Zu dem Zeitpunkt der Erfahrung, gab es einen lebensbedrohende Umstaende? Yes, I had an appendix surgery. It had ruptured before the surgery started. Also, there were problems with my blood circulation, and my blood pressure was extremely high (my doctors said afterwards that my state had been very critical).
Wie war der Bewusstseinszustand und Wahrnehmung waehrend der Erfahrung? The whole time. At the end it was weaker.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every-day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Uncertain, it was a mystery to me, and I can't explain it. It was certainly not within the reality of the hospital. The purple color was extremely impressive, and, although later I forgot the exact words of the discussion between the doctors, that purple color is still to this day right in front of my inner eye.
Did you hearing differ in any way from your normal, every day hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Confusion in the beginning, then calmness and silence.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No
Did you see a light? Yes, a bright glowing purple light around the surgery table, and a bright white light shining on the end of it.
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes, I woke up on my sick bed with the assistant-doctor slapping my cheeks and telling me not to sleep any more. I told him about hearing what the doctors had been saying during the surgery. He was a little bit shocked but confirmed the words that I told him I had heard then saying. Than he left and came back again with a nurse, who had been at my surgery, and told her about it. There had also been an Arabic assistant-doctor (he was Palestinian, I think) at the OP – and after the surgery, he had come in and left again while I was still sleeping. After I woke up and told everything to the doctors, they must have let him know, because on the following day, this Arabic doctor arrived to speak with me about my experience. He seemed very happy to hear about it (!).
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes, there was a lot of knowledge, but what amazed me most was that while under anesthesia, I could hear everything the doctors were saying, and probably also I could read their thoughts, I remember thinking at the time.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Do you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes, since the experience I can predict certain events before they happen. My wife gave me the name "Old Croak", because I'm always croaking about things that are going to happen, and then they do happen. "Self-fulfilling prophecy" – my family calls my new gift - with a kind of humor. Just now, three weeks ago, I forecast the exact time of the birth of my third child - punctually on the minute. I predicted he would be delivered on 8/11/2012, at 23:00 (11:00 PM.) The midwives all laughed, when I talked to them so seriously about this (in spite of my emotions about the birth.) After the delivery they were exclaiming that this had never happened before, that someone had ever made a prediction like this one. Two midwives and my wife can testify to that. The midwives just could not understand it, and during the delivery, they shook their heads and kind of laughed, as the prediction came true.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes, first with the doctors in the hospital, then with my mother, and then after that I stopped telling anybody. And now I'm talking about it again, after reading the book again.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I was very astonished that such an event could be possible. But if, as a teenager you tell anybody a story like that, nobody will believe you. Therefore I repressed the whole event for a long time.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real. It is rooted deep in my mind. Funny. It seems like yesterday. It is a pity that I can't remember what the doctors were talking about.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain. Now I believe in a kind of holy awareness which surrounds us. And I've read a lot of books about this theme. Starting with Raymond Moody in the 90s to Niemz. And I assume, that we will born again on a different planet in this Universe. I see outer space as an endless awareness (like van Lommel talks about).
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? Two days after my surgery, I was lying on my bed. At the foot of the bed there was a little painted picture with a swan. At some point on that day, I was, like, paralyzed for a short time. I couldn't move and time seemed to stand still. Only on the picture was there any movement – the swan moved his wings! This happened in the space of 5 - 10 seconds. After I was able to move my body again, I called the nurse. She told me that this had been caused by the anesthesia medicine. For me it was real, even though odd – but maybe she was right?
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain. I could have forgotten some things. It was a long time ago.
Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience? A better layout! I come from public relations.
Haben diese Fragen und Deine Antworten Dein Erlebnis korrekt und im vollem Umfang umfasst und beschrieben? Yes