Malena S NDE
One night, I woke up with an intense pain in my chest, and a great difficulty breathing. The pain was so intense and so sharp that I surrendered and I "went". Here, I lost consciousness as I passed into a state of relief, where I was no longer in pain. The last time I looked at the clock, it had been 4 am, and when I revived, or at least when I regained consciousness because the clock was in front of me, it was 7 am. However, there were critical seconds during which my heart had stopped. During that drama in which the doctors were assisting me, I felt that I was already in another place, totally outside of my body.
I remember being in a state of floating over my body while I was going into a tunnel. It was dark. Further in, I lost all perception of my body. Now it was as if I was in an ocean of stillness, of calm, of silence, of rest. I was happy, so happy, and I had an indescribable peace; I was in a state of extreme joy...when suddenly I hear a very strong VOICE, powerful and omnipotent, that told me that I had to go back. I did not want to go back, but this VOICE was so powerful that it was impossible not to obey the order: You must return to life; you still have three missions to complete. And I began to feel that from this stillness in which I found myself I was now traveling quickly, I was "returning" to life. Then, I manage to ask, "What missions do I have?", and it answered me question by question, and there I return to life, and the pain that was just as bad, and the physical drama.
When I felt that they were slapping me lightly on the face, I opened my eyes, and I saw a lot of doctors and nurses surrounding my bed; there were lights, noise, voices, hustle and bustle, PAIN, anxiety, drama, etc...from there, I stayed eight days in intensive care, but they were eight wonderful days for my soul, because I had been with GOD. For a few moments I had been floating from my physical body and passing to that place that didn't have space, and there I felt the Presence of God, which filled me with an immense peace. My physical state was very delicate; I had been on the border of heart surgery, but "something miraculous happened", and the clot began to reabsorb itself, and there was no necessity for surgery. After eight days, I left intensive care, and they gave me a break from oxygen. The thirty days that followed, I continued to live paranormal experiences, in which I visited past lives, saw myself in other times, in other ages and in other countries, and with some members of my family, who were older or younger and who fulfilled other roles. When I left this state and returned HERE, then I understood more about my life, about my relatives, and why I was having that experience. I took a year to be able to relate this to my parents, because I couldn't find words to describe it. I took five years to be able to understand what the second mission was about, and I took ten years to be able to understand the third mission that I had to fulfill. Now that sixteen years have passed since this experience, I feel that I have more understanding about what happened, I am explaining the three missions that I've come to complete, that which makes me very happy and makes me feel already ready to be able to narrate it and share it with everyone else.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes. I took a year to relate it to my parents, and I did not relate it to my siblings. I only recount it in my Reiki courses. But now I feel that I have to tell it to the world, to write and share it in a book; it can be capable of helping somewhat in the investigation and also of helping others.
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes. My heart stopped
for a couple of seconds, or something like that. They revived me.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Thirty-eight days during which I felt that I was in a state of talking to God directly, who, besides, showed me so many events that helped me to understand my life.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:
Thirty-eight days during
which I felt that I was in a state of talking to God directly, who, besides,
showed me so many events that helped me to understand my life.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes Of course. The visual field was spherical, or I was seeing EVERYTHING as if I was "higher up" but in reality there was no space, nor time. This is something difficult to explain.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Yes I was able to hear
the voices with clarity, those that were speaking, even though they were
speaking with very low voices.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? PEACE - An immeasurable peace - I felt at ease, finally, I no longer felt pain. What a relief! It was like I was resting after the great amount of pain that I had felt. But the Peace was indescribable.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Yes I was in the Tunnel the whole Time.
Did you see a light? No
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Uncertain It never occurred to me to verify it. But I was hearing what the doctors were discussing, and I don't know how close to me the doctors were that were discussing.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Yes During the thirty-eight subsequent days, I had various experiences, during some of which I came to visit past lives, others led me to learn and to remember at an accelerated rate. Next to mentioning that those thirty-eight days, eight were in intensive care, and thirty in recuperation with oxygen and total rest.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes Time and space did not exist. I was simply in "some" place that one cannot define.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes I knew that I had to return to complete three missions. I asked, "What are they?". He answered me with a supernatural voice that was impossible to contradict: "You must return to your life, you still have three missions to complete," and I asked, "What are they?", and I felt myself traveling with all speed, and I was separating from this space that was so filled with peace... I managed to hear the three missions that I had to complete, and they left me impacted...it was so strong, that which was assigned to me to complete, and there I returned to life, again to the drama of the illness, the pain, etc.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? After that experience, I returned to myself more psychic, I was able to discern things up until they were felt if the ground in another country was shaking. When 9/11 happened, I was in Peru. The night before the incident, I felt very ill, with vomiting and an immense depression...at 9 a.m. I was informed via the television about the event...and other experiences like that.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? After that experience, I returned to myself more psychic, I was able to discern things up until they were felt if the ground in another country was shaking. When 9/11 happened, I was in Peru. The night before the incident, I felt very ill, with vomiting and an immense depression...at 9 a.m. I was informed via the television about the event...and other experiences like that. Six months after this experience, Reiki came into my life, and I discovered the world of spiritual healing. Later, with the years, I began to give courses and to teach others techniques that I learned being "there"...
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes In reality, I have shared it little. I took a year to recount it to my parents, and later, I sometimes tell it when I give Reiki workshops. My mother understood little or nothing, and my father listened to me, but I don't think he understood me. He surprised himself, but that was it. After the experience, I was in the hospital, and I remained so impacted by the experience that I asked for a priest. I conversed with the priest, and told him everything. And the priest helped me to calm myself down...
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No, never.
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real Despite not understanding that which had happened to me, if it could be clear that I had been with God for 38 days, and that I had been in a place of peace where neither time nor space exists.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? The most impacting thing for me was to have heard this supernatural VOICE...I cannot tell you if it was the voice of God, or if it was the voice of my spirit, or the voice of an angel... I believe it was the VOICE of God...and with such omnipotent power it indicated to me that I must return to my life. I did not want to leave this state of peace, but I had to return...
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real With the years, I've gotten to know people that have gone through the same things that I have, and our experiences coincide on many things. With the years I have been able to understand the three missions that I had been assigned. The first was very clear, the second took me some five years to figure out, and the third some ten years...that which reflects what the priest was telling me: "Patience, don't pretend to understand everything now; time will give you the understanding, and it has been that way."
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I changed one hundred percent. I returned more spiritual, and I dedicated myself to helping others.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes When this happened, I wasn't very devout religiously, after the experience, I returned very spiritual, with God everywhere and no place where He isn't!
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? Yes My mother's health is very delicate, and it's been months since her critical state began; I've been talking with her a lot, explaining to her that she shouldn't be afraid...her health continues to be delicate, but I know that when she enters into an unconscious state, I know that she is with God and in Peace. She makes me remember this experience.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I lost the fear of death...I understood that death is a change in state, and that the soul doesn't die, only the physical body dies. I understood that we must be better human beings, must love everything and everyone, for this we are here...and to live ready to make the jump to the "other side", for when the day arrives...without fear and without attachments...to have a lighter body and be without emotional baggage...
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes Well, I believe I have shared along the general lines of it, that which took place. I am thinking of writing a book to put it into greater detail...
Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I ask the question: HAVE YOU LOST THE FEAR OF DEATH? I believe, when we go through something like this, the majority of us lose that fear...