Lynn NDE 4972
I felt tremendously peaceful. Everything was all right with the world and the terrible pain from the auto wreck was fading. Due to severe childhood trauma I have experienced many 'out of body experiences'. This was different. In the past there was, for lack of better words, a 'thread' that kept me from loosing my body. This time I was leaving it behind.
My mom divorced my dad when I was 3 and he was never spoken about. I seldom thought about him. My brother had died 11 years earlier. They both were beside me and said they had been watching me. Then I felt joy and acceptance form many thousands of people. I thought, no I don't deserve to go to this wonderful loving place. The people looking at me said wordlessly, we know you. We are so happy to have you back with us.
I turned and checked in with my body I say the code team working. Chest tubes were inserted. I knew each person there. I knew their name, what they were thinking...it was as if I could be everywhere at once.
Focusing my attention again on the new world I was entering many were excited to show me the answers about life I had asked so many times. As I saw them I felt tremendous peace and joy. Everything was as it should be.
Suddenly a voice said "Stop! It is not her time". And told me I had more to learn. I felt sucked back into my body. I cooperated by inhaling and reentering the painful broken body in the hospital.
At that time nobody wanted to hear stories about what I had experienced, as if they were afraid. Many people who had been at the code avoided me because I knew their names and exactly what they had done and felt during the code. My doctor told the family to expect brain damage from the severe lack of oxygen. But there was no damage.
Since then I have been able to tap into a peace that even when things seem all wrong, it will be OK. Unfortunately the things I was told so briefly faded quickly as if I had to earn the knowledge.
It felt as if I had
lived life with my nose against a highway billboard trying to read it; and that
experience took me far away enough to clearly understand what it said...but I
was not allowed to remember all of it.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes Feelings of detachment yet strong emotions of peace love and joy and being at one with everything. I was 'in 2 places at once'. I was in an auto accident and woke in ICU with multiple injuries. 3 days later I heard a code for my room and remember watching a team resuscitated me as a broken rib had caused a pneumothorax. Blood gasses were taken and I was told they were not consistent with a living person.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes 3 Days before the event I had been in a life-threatening auto accident and was in a hospital ICU at the time of the incident.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Just before chest tubes were inserted.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: Just before chest tubes were inserted.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Uncertain It all happened very fast. While I was aware of many people where I had just gone, and their acceptance and joy, I did not have time to really speak to anyone much. I did not have time to look around.
I was extremely aware
of who was in the hospital room and what they were doing and even feeling. As I
said earlier, some of the people involved in the code avoided me because I knew
who they were and they were not my normal caregivers. Nobody wanted to hear
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Yes I could hear both worlds at once. The physical one in English, and the spiritual one in some sort of telepathy.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Joy, love peace and a strong feeling everything was as it should be.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Uncertain I was called by many people and went to where they were very quickly.
Did you see a light? No It was very light in the hospital room and where the many people (souls) were. There was a little fuzziness between but it happened so fast there was never much darkness.
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes All explained above
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Uncertain I did not have a chance to see much. Many people I did not know, my dad and brother. But I heard a lot of what was said. I was struck by the love and acceptance these people shared.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes Things happened quickly, but I was able to check in on my body while speaking to the people who were in this other realm. Time and space were not barriers.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes I 'knew' there was ultimate sense and order to the universe. And that bad things would come to an end.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain Passed quickly by some grayness, but it was not a solid boundary. There seemed to be another boundary I was not allowed to pass through.
Did you become aware of future events? Uncertain
Only that I had more to learn. I understood that was about character traits like love, patience, kindness, etc.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes More able to pick up on others emotions. I don't usually talk about it because it makes people uneasy.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes For years, only a few would listen, and they were people who had been through similar experiences. Lately, it is accepted to talk about such experiences, but I feel a lot of skepticism.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain Had heard of them, but my experience was not what I expected.
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real It changed me. My outlook on life was different and I was able to accept purpose in 'bad' things that happen.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? As mentioned earlier, I had been severely abused as a child and learned to escape the abuse my leaving my body while it was happening. I developed this skill without telling anyone. Also, I had a lot of lucid dreams.
There are out of body
experiences and lucid dreams but they are not the same as near death
experiences. The NDE was the only time I did not have a 'tether' to by body and
the only time I went somewhere that felt more real that anything I had ever
experienced in life.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real It has faded a lot. But I can't forget how present I was at that time. Nothing has ever felt so real.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain Just looked at things differently, and started to focus on growing in character.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I was in a dogmatic belief system. It was shattered that day.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain Was given Ketamine for a couple of surgeries. It is a sedative hypnotic as there were many surgeries to get my body back together and they did not want to give so much gen. anesthesia. I did have hallucinations with bright colors and fanciful feelings; but they were not "real". I just felt like I was on a drug trip.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I know many scientists believe these experiences are triggered by a dying brain but that does not account for the extreme heightened senses. Also, there was no brain damage in my case.
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? No While in the wrecked car, and bones crushed so badly and body would be unconscious, I chose to step out of my body because I wanted to know what was happening. I was able to converse with the police and paramedics who were astonished. The ER charge nurse visited me twice during my 4 month day in the hospital asking how I remained conscious as she had never seen anyone do that.